....dunno wat to say

i just wanna type out and distress...
i cant shout or else i already did..
just now my dad talk to me abt the prob between me and my mum..
he realised it and i think he had reached his limit to be the middle ppl between us gua
haihz i dunno
he said,
my mum was actually putting high hope on me for spm
but my result had upset her totally
well,
she's not the only one who's upset for my result
me myself upset abt it too okay?!
she thought i was satisfy with this kinda results?
she thought i will??
i didn't cry for my poor result this time coz i REALLY did my best..
but what do u want?
Ms, what do u want from me..............
i dunno ar......
u made me VERY stress ar..even stress than before i take exam..
now i dunno how should i ACT to survive in this house..
i did kept SILENCE as i think this is the best way to solve the prob and to avoid arguement..
but now,this aren't working anymore..
my dad want me to TALK
he say i ignoring my mum in fact i DIDN'T..although i wish to
so,now he wants me to talk,and change myself
talk....
once talk, fights come..how to talk?
i wanna avoid arguements tat's y i keep silent..
why cant u understand that..
and u say i ignore her...
if i dun keep silent then we'll just fight and argue and things will only get worse...
so..now, except getting things worse i seems don't have other choice right??
and i really really don't know what to do lo...
fion ask me to talk to her...
talk..as if i can have a peaceful talk with her..
well the percentage of having a peaceful talk with her is nearly to 0%...
so how?
what should i do?
i'm feeling complicated now..
i know i'm partly wrong too. and she's not totally right
but i just..
cant get my feeling...
i dunno how am i feeling now..
feel like crying, and not.
i'm............
i don't know
i wish to avoid everything..
i dun wanna stay here..
just wanna leave..
as far as i could...
what does family means to me??
things that bring me stress and pressure...
why do i need a family??
to bring me to this world...
then i rather i never been to this world before...
sorry to those who loves me..
but i was rather i didn't been here before...
at least i need not suffer like this right now...

me & lock yin~

she's my cousin lock yin..
got 11 A for spm ar geng til..
then my mum ar always praise her lo say me char ar bla bla bla
aikz..
nvm i stil love her geh haha^^
she's staying in kl...
miss her la go home d got exam on tues..
gambate ya~*^^*

happy^^

haha i'm very happy today^^
my didi ar Ah Hang came from Johor and today went out v him^^
Hang ar when i first saw u today hor reali hak dou...
din expect u wear wil so yeng..hahaha
reali yeng la but u more suit to walk CUTE geh line..hahaha><
today got mr gam-seng@Gim-Shieng, DIDI then Prince ar and Jayne
sei leng lui bluff me ar!
u din wear dou ladies outfit ar dun care ar u owe us one
hahaha next time go lost world giv u bikini muahahaha
and prince...today talk more lo actually..
hahaha mayb coz hong qin then he quiet??
eh not should be opposite de meh?
lol...
so.......today really happy happy + happy la^^
didi ar hope to c u soon oh~
keep in touch*^^*

me & Jayne~

DiDi*Me*Jayne

DiDi*Me*Mr.Gim-Shieng

Me&DiDi~*^^*

hahaha is he promoting NEXT?!?!
haha i dunno...

really happy day lar~

nah this Mr Gim-Shieng promoting RM10

This is Prince..
hehee

time to blog

time to blog....................since i very sien
well, plus susu dunno disappeared to WHERE...
"kimi wa doko desu ka??"
sigh~~a bit sleepy tim..
gor also din on today...aikz..
SIEN...
su ar~ where are u???
snail too Fion too din online today...
wei wat happened har???
aiyo..
so 2mr i'll be going listen undang AGAIN ler since mine already EXPIRED...
haihz
SIEN NAR~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~`
5 hours ar undang!
no 6 hours ar!
and i'm listening ALONE
OM*G....I DUN WANT AR~~
i sure'll sms geh and listen song
but i stil dun wanna go larrrrrrrrrrrrr
someone save me lar..
aikz..
had a happy day yest haha^^
hmm today ar okok la...
watched Kungfu Dunk OMG..
luckily i didn't watch in the cinema or else i think i'll throw popcorn to the screen
it's damn fake lo watch in cinema wil just watse my money
luckily din go tat time
made a wise decision^^
yeah gor online d
at least not so sien
susu u watching movie in krys's room hor???
ENJOY WOR
as u'll be *** by me very very soon................................................
watch out
ignore me e la
hmph!

hahaha..CASSIOPEIA..swt

OMG...just now i was chatting with a TVXQ fans..
not A la but a big group in msn room...
then le..someone really childish...omg i was really..
haha..let me try to find out the conversation..
aiyo not my comp din save the history...
SO, she was darn childish and always claim jae as hers..
(hahaha.."hers"..well..)
then guess what she says??
she saw jae b4 and jae saw her b4 so jae is hers..
OM*G..hahahahahahaha i really wanna laugh that time!!!
and she ask me did he see me?and ask me dun admit if i not sure whether he saw me or not..
then, i mai bomb back her la i say i din even c him b4 haha
but see him b4 means ntg
doesnt means that he'll like her lo..hahahahaha
too childish la fren
then wor hahaha others mai help me lo..then say dun be solo-fans..
then i agree ma i HATE solo-fans..
solo-fans is to anti..
we love 5 of them*^^*
then dunno how la she yao start again wo..
i say i love 5 ma then the others zao say thank god i'm SANE..
well of coz i'm sane i'm just playing around ma coz too sien
and cant tahan her la she reali very LC..
then after that my fren say agree with me ma haha then i mai kidding lo
i said then give me jae la~ haha
then tat LC ppl yao start again la
"who say give u wo"
then i zao say la " i din ask u"
haha funny wo who is she wo why i needa ask her permission?
jae is MINE ok?!
for so many years..
and we actually connected for so many times..
that's real..we really connected no cheating here
wahaha today reali very guo ying ar play til~
well i dun think i'll have good impression towards her d lo hahaha
anyway,suan la...in future...
see who'll win^^
*SouL-PartneR*

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and just now i got find him err..
just to chat la sud..hehee neh gor lo dun promise me to buy that lion
then i zao ask him buy for me..
dim ji he ask me buy 850 for him wor..
SEI GAN CHAN
then i mai say ok lo u buy me 1st then i give u
then he say give together wor
BLEH
then i mai rugi sei???i want 850 too ar my dream phone ar~~~
well..our taste same ge wor haha
then hor he sud ask wo
that lion cute meh?
haha..
then i mai ask lo not cute meh?
he say NO wor
ish ish...
then i mai say lo then u buy cute geh for me la haha
then he say no money wor
bluff la!!!
i'll be waiting for ur lion gelo BLEH
u better buy for me ar if not u c how la u
hmph
aikz....................
U C....................................................................
lidat how can give up him...
aikz i noe i jin gela why go find him??
but just...heard stg la just now..
said that his fren told gor in camp that he likes me..
then when gor ask him, he yao deny wo..
aikz dunno la...
in camp mayb got geh coz sometimes i really felt so too..
but now is outside camp le..so dunno him la...
aikz dun think la dun think~!!!!!!!!!!
must try to control le as gor say : FORGET IT
nah gor i listen to u gah^^
"sometimes" la hehehee
ok reply su's mail!
go go go

so...well..hmm..

so...now i'm using my dad's laptop to on..
and today onli he told me that his laptop will automatic sign in msn when he online..
so su ar once is my dad hor? dun worry la ntg hehee...
so...aikz
actually this post..
i oso dunno write for wat...
just...for writing out la dun wanna keep in heart..
as i cant tel U abt this also..
so...dun un u zao ignore la those ppl who noe who i'm refering,
interest then u read, not interest then pass la..
so..here i go
i reali dun un u...totally dun un...
the way u treat me while in camp and outside the camp is diff..
well there's one thing similar tat's : u rarely talk to me
then, although just, a group, i dunno y lo u always act like we're strangers..that we dunno each other..
tat day is an example lo..
sit so near but rarely talk..
in the end changed place and chat with others..
joking and laughing some more..
i guess...
either u really dislike me so much, or u knew stg...
i dunno u la! i think i will never un u..
but in the camp, really..i dun think i think too much lo..
it wont be nothing between us gua..
even my fren..those around me who knew, oso said u duo duo shao shao oso got geh...
u got geh..izit?
the heart that u folded i'm still keeping...
i....bu she de throw away..really
no matter is u ask him to give me or he give me on his own la,
that's...the heart u folded...
so.....that's the point why i keep
i'm not pervert or anything of that
but just...simply like truely from my heart
like that i didn't even realise that is it already so deep inside..
but...useless right? my like..
as u gave no response to it..
inside camp u like gave lil..response or hints..
but outside camp is another story..
really wonder why u're like that..
and i heard abt the story of "her"...
actually i think that it was weird lo....dun really..
i dunno..
mayb i'm just avoiding to accept the fact gua
but really ge le!!!
in the camp!
aikz...suan..."in the camp" already became a past tense..
but...i'm trying la
trying very hard to let u go...
it was suffering, honestly..
very, very suffering...
but what to do???
aikz...i shall LEARN how to FORGET...
forget without even starting
lol..funny..
*shit* ur name popped up
sigh~
HONESTLY...
i really dun wish to give up...i dun wanna forget..
i think mayb that's y it takes me such a long time to forget...
but...do i have a choice?i dunno le...
do i have a chance??dunno either..mayb NO...
right??
i already...din find u automatically...
not in phone not in msn...
nothing..
and u din find me too
y le har?
last time msn at least u'll pop up a "hi" or "hey"
but now..
nothing lu~
mayb...u...fan d gua..or mayb..aiya i dunno la!
but...anyway,i shall c how..
start to learn..start to forget..start to put down...
i dunno how long i'm gonna use...
and i dunno when onli i'm willing to give up...
but b4 i totally let down, if i have a chance plz let me noe^^
although.......it doesn't seems so possible..
aikz..so...
goodbye...to U

MISS......................................

sigh~
last night i miss KTM again..
after watch Suju's show..
well tat show is abt fren..
then dunno y let me think of u all..
both BG and KTM..
recalling me that i'm alone here..
all of u are not around me...
as if i'm the only one left out in this world..
sigh~
what to do?
this day sure'll come and it actually came since long ago...
but i just....
fine. i can overcome it. just give me some more time..
mayb i'll be alot better after i go for my study life and not jailing at home
yeap
May...faster come la
aikz..
oh ya i bought new phone..k800i..
kinda big but suan la..
so...
how's u guys doing??
that night i saw snail on..then i quickly on to have a chat with her..
but then her line got prob so in the end cant chat also..
sigh~
quite disappoint actually...
but nvm.. we stil hav chance right?
*^^*
and su & fion is currently having their exams..
so..cant reali disturb them also..
so............aikz, what can i say is,
GOOD LUCK AND ALL THE BEST IN UR EXAM!
as our exam time are diff now...
u guys busy revising and i'm doing NTG here..
okok pass this topic
gor asking me to go movie 1 hour later..
haha..but he seems forgot i'm JAILING by my mum now..
sigh~
but 2mr going out la..
at last..
go kampar c those houses and c go where walk walk gua..
gotta post photo to Raja...
so..
aikz..
MISS U GUYS A LOT !
both BG and KTM's...
LOVE YA LOTS..

sigh~

so..as my title,
SIGH~
my mum is STILL trying to control everything INCLUDE MY STUDIES N.O.W
today went UTAR in Kampar..
then last night when i fill in my application form i already realised
that the campus i'm going, Kampar, don't have graphic design course
but then before that i went edu fair in KL and Ipoh
those ppl all say got.
ALL..noone tells me it is not available in Kampar
so i tot got lo..
but then today went there and ask..
CONFIRM DUN HAV..
they'll only move to Kampar at 2010..
which means I have to study in KL for half a year then back to Kampar at 2010..
WOW
cool right?
yeap COOL
but my mum was like, "WHAT?!"
and she blames me for din ask clearly
well,
I DIN ASK CLEARLY??
those time i was asking in edu fair she was just right beside me!
and she repeated many times and ask the ppl to confirm
now, she says that i "din ask clearly"
OK FINE
I DIN ASK CLEARLY LO
ALL MY FAULT
it always be my fault
never be urs
good
that's my life
then after that, ask me to ask KTAR
last time mai said lo KTAR seperate both the courses and those things are like lesser i can get..
she dun un why i keep persisting in wanting the joining course?
coz last time she said graphic design's career was limited in the career field
so now i take GRAPHIC DESIGN AND MULTIMEDIA
and i guess i'll be learning stg extra
in case i cant find work in graphic design i can stil go for the multi one
so
she un?
no
she noe?
no
why don't i tell her?
lol. useless
and she keep hitting me to my limitation...
i'd reached 3 times today
she keep postponing the time for me to buy my phone
i duno wat is her motive
what i noe is she wont like anything i do and anything i say
she just, HATE ME
that's wat i get from her behavior
and everything she does, she made me to HATE HER
so, FAIR
hate versus hate
i shall leave soon
i really really scare that i cant wait for May
END OF MAY
duh
i can really die
i really wish to go
NOW

what a day...

sigh~
lazy oso gotta blog..coz in the end also gotta blog..
so..
here I go :
so today went out with my camp friends...
at first really happy to see them..
Yen, Mei, Hong Qin, Xiao Xin, Carol, King-gor, Darren, Prince...& HWS
well, dun like him.that's all.
and my gorgor came awhile too to acc me..
in case i being bully by SOMEONE..
but suan la gor u back early ar cant help much...
then we went kopitiam and sit lo..
but tat time luckily got gor if not i sien die
then when at kopitiam SoonRan and Queen came..
tat Bryan appear awhile also la
then zao drink and chat lo..
then after that gor zao back la then zao go kbox...
kbox le.......................
well
got fun time and boring time la
most of the time there is boring
for me la
and
a harsh time
after some*** came and gotta facing someone i dun like
well Darren really very good in making the atmosphere high..
haha..funny la him
then....dunno la aikz
dunno how to say but overall,
today was NOT a great day..
great coz i met u..Yen & Mei & SoonRan & Darren
ah and gor too
then others..
esp Mr W
i really dun wish to see u
really dun un why this world will have a person dog as u
and u rea~~~~~lly very geng can make me dislike u so much
now i c ur face also felt annoy
plz dun let me hear ur voice as i already listen enough for this afternoon
this person really..
i dunno wat is on his mind lo
or mayb he is this kinda behavious so made him dislike by so many ppl
include ME for now
in camp ma...he interested with Sin ma..
i help him...
but his attitude prob?face prob?dunno whatever prob he had
he failed...
although he failed i'm still trying to help him..
at least help them to be friend or closer..
but him??
i help him like that, he's separating me and the one i like..
WTF
Mr W u really...
wah THANKS A LOT WO
really thank you ar
FOR ALL U DID!
really regret that i KNEW u!!!

after that thing...
my mum
now i had finished my SPM and i'm graduated
but why i feel that my life is worse then i'm studying?
what i want u dun allow
do u rmb what u say b4 SPM?
u said,
I CAN DO WHATEVER I LIKE, GO WHEREVER I WANT
now?!?!?!
what do i get?!?!
JAILING THAT IS WORSE THAN KTM!!!
i wanna back to KTM
i wanna back to school life
I DON'T WANNA STAY AT HOME!
i scare i cant wait til May...
really scare...
scare i might lost control..
i'm reaching my limit..
in fact i'd REACHED my limit..
twice...
so...plz stop treating me like that if not..i really dunno how
i know
u treat me so coz i din get 10 As for u
u tot i'm ok with it?!
u tot i don't want 10 As?!
but it is a past tense now what u want me to do?!?!
and what can u get by treating me like this now?!?!
let me tell u now,
u can onli get my HATE
u got that?!
i can buy a new phone with my own money
so don't limit me what to buy and what not to buy!
i'm big enough to make my own choice!
don't always trying to control me this and that
it pissed me off!!!
SO
IF U DO NOT WANT ME TO RUNAWAY W/O EVEN WILLING TO LOOK BACK
PLZ CHANGE THE WAY U TREAT ME
AND DO NOT JAIL ME DO NOT CONTROL ME
THAT'S WHAT I WANT
AND WHAT U SHOULD DO THAT BENEFITS US

and after tonight...
Fion will be back to Melaka..
and i'll be left alone again here..
sigh~~~
i have friends i have MANY friends..
but where are they now??
all gone..
those true friends all gone...
i really dun wanna stay here ar..
coming back w/o u all really meaningless..
i wanna back to camp...
at least some friends are there..
and i can face them everyday and night..
today when i back..
really feel like crying..
when seeing Yen and Mei..thinking of our days in KTM...
ahh~~
made me think of Sin...
Sin...when can i see her again??
we can NEVER be like the past 2 months again...
NEVER....
i really miss u very very much ar Sin...
MISS...till now everything we had past through..we gotta MISS them...
we can no longer SHARE them and DO them together..
we can only recall..and miss...
miss miss miss...
DUH!
i dun wanna miss!!!
but i cant stop it..
arghkkk.....................................................................
wat should i do......................

21032008

yeay~~~
at last went out with Fion!!
after twice postpone..
FINALLY~!!!
and we had a great day right??
although din reali do / walk / buy / eat much..
but we're happy*^^*
well at least I'm~
hmm...
after today went out with Fion...
i got onli ONE conclusion..
that OUR Fion,
is STILL OUR Fion...
yupyup~~
really happy to found this fact...
so...
NO WORRIES!
she's stil the one we knew..
still BG~!!
yeay!!!
BG FOREVER~!!!

PS effect

this is the original pic...

then dunno wat i pressed it became like that...

then dunno wat i presed again it came out this..
well, i like this effect..
haha*^^*

sick..

last night...
ah luckily din go out with Fion ar....
i went out the whole day...
then when i back in the evening..
sud headache..quite serious one..
then fever wo...
felt very cold but body very hot...
then i went sleep at 7stg pm..
today woke at 9am..
means i slept 13hours..
but when i wake stil got headache lo
yer scary ar headache...
but no fever d....luckily...
so today aren't going anywhere....
2mr might go out...
with Fion or with my camp fren IF they're coming down to Ipoh...
they went Pangkor ma today..
luckily I'm not in..
and due to SOMEONE i dun wish to go to..
but i miss the others!!!
Yen~~~
nvm there stil plenty of chances and time we can meet..right???
yupyup RIGHT!!!
and my streamyx actually over the limit d...
so guess this month will be scolded like hell..
but not all my fault
my DEAR bro....online game..
warcraft..dota...
i gotta UNINSTALL those in my comp some day..
or just get me a laptop!!!
ish...i'm getting it SOON
and i want a hp!!!
mine is really....
sot til cant sot already
i need a new one!!!!!!!!
i don't care
I WANT!

again..i miss u all..

I'm listening Evergreen...
if i listen Kenangan Terindah i'm sure i'll be crying..
really miss u guys a lot..
today afternoon phoned Yen, as what i planned..
and chatted quite long..
sorry coz i cant go Pangkor..
family prob plus i gotta go register that day..
and Yen is not coming to Ipoh on Fri..
wat a bad news for me...
miss u ar Yen~~~
rmb last time? our wirajaya memories..
after wirajaya our rship became so good!! and we became so close..
made some ppl wonder what had happened to us..haha
and we always chat in midnight*^^*
coz midnight is the safest time as everyone was SLEPT^^
haha..
and rmb that time we play Soon Ran's phone??
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
our "dear" penghulu..
"miss u 2"
hahahahahaha
really laugh til stomach ache...
aiyo Yen..
when can we meet??
i know we wont have chance to do those things again...
but i really miss u a lot la..
u really a good friend*^^*
LOVE YA~~~
and RAJA~~
today phoned her coz really miss her a lot..
and the first response she give me is..
"Jayne??"
ISH RAJA NUR ARINAH!!!
really wanna hentam ar her!
but nvm...
she's cute as ever~~~
even her voice*^^*
haha...
oh my i really miss her...
and PANJANG!!!
my fren is sending a cute pic of him now
cant wait to see!!!!!!!!!
faster finish sending la faster..............
really miss him
the one i miss the most is him actually...
guy la i mean
then Sin~~~*^^*
today msn with her lo...
really..........
very very very long din chat with her lo....................
and dunno when can see her also..
sigh~~~~~~~~~~~
really......
what can i say?
nothing i can say.........
just a simply but full of love :
MISS YOU

Darkness Eye

Darkness Eyes

I'm just in an ocean of deep blue loneliness
I don't know how? I can't move forward and come to a halt

Fragments of lies fall away
I crush them, the blood trickles down
Dark in my mind... I hide in weakness

* There's no way out... I bear this anguish
This parched world is at a standstill

** I seek in the dark the withered emotions deep in my heart (here is no lights)
I keep on wandering in a valley of dreams (Darkness on my eyes)
I can't see yesterday... today... not even tomorrow... searching for the answer
Where... where in the world should I go?

If I touch it gently, it will break immediately
I don't need things like this fleeting kindness (lie to me)
The door to my heavy heart is still closed
I can't breathe... struggling, in agony
I just... I now give myself up to this weakness
With the sin of egoism

I seek in the dark a fortress, completely shrouded in shadows (here is no lights)
I close my eyes and smile (darkness on my eyes)
These feelings that have bent to and fro are hindering me
I... I... I can't see the answer, amidst this despair

Raindrops falling from the heaven
I couldn't remember
They take away my misery
It's raining on my heart
My stupid broken heart
Baby please, don't go
No light, no sound...

* Repeat
** Repeat

Seek in (the) dark here is no lights (can't see the light)
Seek in (the) dark feel a darkness eyes (darkness on my eyes)

미워해줘

미워해줘
Go ahead and hate me
FTTS

Let's end here
Leave me now, a step at a time
Since the love you gave me has shrunk, take it all away then.
Aren't you tired of staying by my side all this time?
Haven't I deprived you of all your smiles and happiness?

Our love, our pictures,
one by one, will all be thrown away,
a person like me... someone who keeps disappointing you,
go ahead and forget me, hate me

Don't look back, don't come back too,
go further away, even further
Otherwise I may catch up and grab you
Thank you for the time you spend in my arms
Please meet someone better, someone who treats you better. Please... you must be happy.

Our love, our pictures,
one by one, will all be thrown away,
a person like me... someone who keeps disappointing you,
go ahead and forget me, hate me

Not because of me... it is not me who decides to end our relationship,
our separation is for your own good

Our love, our pictures,
one by one, will all be thrown away,
a person like me... someone who keeps disappointing you,
go ahead and forget me, hate me

Our love, our pictures,
one by one, will all be thrown away,
a person like me... someone who keeps disappointing you,
go ahead and forget me, hate me

==============================
sud found the translation of this song...
by Fly to the sky..
i LOVE this song..
and the lyrics..
WOW
nice...
its exactly..
well................................
i just love it.

i wanna LEAVE

I cant even stand 1 more second in this house
why u like jailing me so much?!?!
banning me from this and that
WHAT WILL U GET?!?!
AND WHAT WILL I GET?!?!
WE BOTH GET NOTHING!
F***************************!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and u ALWAYS break your promise!!!
can u just STOP doing this?!?!
IT IS ANNOYING!
u DON'T force me go out from the house before my school starting day!
i NEED NOT TO BE PATIENT NOW
since u're taking EVERYTHING away from me
if this is what u call FREEDOM
then,
THERE'S NO JAIL IN THE WORLD
so
plz keep ALL ur nonsense
I'll NOT be patient to u anymore
i NEED NOT TO
just try it again,
and i'll just walk away and never come back
walk away,
and NEVER come back

finally

finally..
i'm free!!!
i'm no longer trap inside that "trick"
yeay~~~!
so...
u go for urs and i go for mine...
we're...diff
thank god...
that i let go at last...
thanks a lot

TVXQ look-alike

Shim Chang Min

Chang Min!!!
OH MY THIS GUY REALLY CUTE!!!

Kim Jae-Joong

This is China guy.
not really alike though..

nah nah this Korea guy!!!
OH MY!
he's as pretty as my KJJ!!!
or is he a SHE??
umm..i dunno...
AHHHHHHHHH!!!

this child sure's a future-leng zai!!!
yer~!!!!!!!!
KJJ AR~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Park Yu Chun


another leng zai..
this is a celebrity too..
aww...
how can they be so cute............

Jung Yun Ho

at 1st i tot these was REALLY yunho..
but then...
oh my god...
i wanna go Korea!!!

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complicated

nah u c..
just..the 3rd day i back...
the prob came one by one...
firstly is family..
now is THIS...
sigh~~~
as i said in my last post..
there are some ppl i dun wish to face and keep avoiding..
i saw one yesterday and another appeared again...
sigh~~~~~~~~~
u say i haven let go..
i said i had some other..
but u say its hard to let go some one u really treasure..
and i say what is that so hard to let go...
and now...
i dunno...
i really dunno..
problems keep appearing one by one since i'm back...
can't even give me some time to rest..
wei...
what u want me to do???
u wanna force me to my limit??
i'm stressed out and luckily i got relax and let go everything in camp..
and i back here cheerfully and lightly...
but...
once i step back here..
problems flooding over my head...
give me some peace please...
i need some space to calm down...
some place with noone exist...
or with those i NEED
but they're not here..
ALL NOT HERE...
so..
what should i do???
ARGHKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!
someone please save me......

Two Hearts --- THSK

now listen to me come on girl
I love you oh girl to me

夜明けも ためらう扉を
yo a ke mo ta me ra u to bi ra o

仆らは 开けてしまう kiss you
bo ku ra wa a ke te si ma u kiss you

ぬくもりを 残したままで
nu ku mo ri o no ko si ta ma ma de

ずるいよね 君の中のtwo hearts
zu ru i yo ne ki mi no na ka no two heart

oh baby make you mine

ずっと ここで待っているのに 会いたくて会えないよ my girl
zutto ko ko de matte i ru no ni a i ta ku te a e na i yo my girl

明日が来なくていいと 思うほどせつなさは so pain of love
a si ta ga ko na ku te i i to o mo u ho do se tsu na sa wa so pain of love

どこまで行けば终われるの？
do ko ma de i ke ba o wa re ru no ?

自由と引き替えのyour love
ji yu u to bi ki ka e no your love

见つめ合う 光と影を
mi tsu me a u hi ka ri to ka ge o

重ねては 抱きしめてるtwo hearts
ka sa ne te wa ta ki si me te ru two hearts

oh baby make you mine

きっと 答えが远くても 忘れられない梦をtonight
kitto ko ta e ga to o ku de mo wa su re ra re na i yu me o tonight

痛みよりも爱しさが 身体まで缔め付ける oh chain of love
i ta mi yo ri mo i to si sa ga ka ra da ma de si me zu ke ru oh chain of love

be my girl in my world
be the one gonna make you mine
be my girl in my world
be the one make you mine


ずっと ここで待っているのに 会いたくて会えないよ my girl
zutto ko ko de matte i ru no ni a i ta ku te a e na i yo my girl

明日が来なくていいと 思うほどせつなさは
a si ta ga ko na ku te i i to o mo u ho do se tsu na sa wa

so pain of love but I'm gonna make you mine

きっと 答えが远くても 忘れられない梦をtonight
kitto ko ta e ga to o ku de mo wa su re ra re na i yu me o tonight

痛みよりも爱しさが 身体まで缔め付ける oh chain of love
i ta mi yo ri mo i to si sa ga ka ra da ma de si me zu ke ru oh chain of love

I love you oh girl

English Translation :

Now listen to me, come on girl
I love you, oh girl to me

This hesitant door and the dawn as well,
I'll open them completely and kiss you

The warmth lingers
It's not fair... the two hearts inside of you
Oh baby, make you mine

* Though I wait here forever, I want to see you but can't, my girl
'It's alright if tomorrow doesn't come,' I think over and over until it hurts... this is so (the) pain of love

How far will I go before this ends?
My freedom... and on the other hand there's your love

Looking at each other, light and shadow overlap
It's two hearts embracing
Oh baby, make you mine

** I'm sure that, even if the answer is far, far away, tonight will be an unforgettable dream
More than pain, it's love that tightens around my body, oh chain of love

* Repeat
'So pain of love but I'm gonna make you mine'
** Repeat

time to update..

ok..its time to update har this blog le..
since i touch that more often recently..
cant neglect my sekai..
so..
my dearS,
i'm BACK!!!
so...what?
I'm back..but u all are gone..
left me here alone...
sigh..that's y i DON'T wanna come back..
coming back, have to face many ppl..
family..and some ppl i'm avoiding all the time..
now i'm back and gotta face....
what should i do???
act silly??
i cant do this all the time..
really gotta face..and solve...
sigh~~~
and my family..
while i'm gone our rship is so good..
but now when i'm back??
everythings back to normal..
quarreling..scolding..everything...
sigh~~
dun wanna come back..
and my results..
*sucks*
i'm NOT satisfy with my result..
noone will satisfy with this kinda results..
but what to do??
i really DID my best that time..
i never studied so hard in my life before..
but, U do not trust me..
what can i say? what can i do?
keep silence lo..
silent.....
like u're the one who forever right and i'm ever wrong..
anything..
i shall leave soon..
just keep on what u're doing..
i think u shall appreciate the days i'm gone..
that u can get peace in the house..
w/o my existance..
so now i'm back..
wat u gonna do??
i'm back with such SUCK results..
what u wanna do to me??
jail me in the house?
then i rather jail in KTM...
why NS are so short??
why not a year or half??
we went for only 2 months..
not enough...really NOT ENOUGH....
not enough for the activities...
and not enough to treasure between our friendships...
everything is not enough...
but it was ended now....
so...
there's nothing i can do but just..
MISS...
MISS EVERYTHING..EVERY MOMENTS...
MISS...U GUYS...A LOT...

new blog abt PLKN

nah nah..
i had a new blog abt PLKN..
those who interested can visit it here.
have fun!

I'm back

yup i'm back..
11/3/2008
i'm officially back..
lazy + no time to blog..
so...
next time will write more..
just to inform my dearS,
I'm BACK..