I have nothing to blog about.
Just wanted to post some photo of my man from Intermodulation which i cant wait to get it!!

Seducing to the max.

Cute little man.

Kimchi!

I bet he's looking at JiJi.

This time looking at me.
^^
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After this,
it's baby time!

Super adorable Mavin!!!

And of course his brother Mason!
Actually i prefer Mavin~
Mavin's smile is killing.

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I just finished the whole series of WGM - Adam couple.
It's so damn nice omg!
I think they will be real.
It's just a matter of time.

Super gorgeous wedding photo.

They are so cute together!!!
And they just got the best couple award from SBS~

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And i don't know why.
I liked this guy!!
Lim Seul Ong from 2AM.

He looks a bit like Kibum.

But OMG looks at his abs.

So damn hot!
Lim Seul Ong.
Hohoho.

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Recently my sleeping time is 6am.
And it has been fix like for few days.
How should i adjust it back to normal.

Kimchi soup!!!

I'm craving for

김치찌개
Kimchi soup.
So so so so so damn badly.

Up. Down. Up. Down. Up.

To start off my blogpost for today,
i would like to show something....unbelievable.

I never know i can look so different in 2 different pictures.
I mean.
Totally different.
OMFG.
Which is me??
@@
Seriously OTF.

Went out with su, snail and rach this noon.
Greeeeeeeeeeeeat time with them!
And watched super great movie - Narnia!
I never know Prince @ King Caspian for now is so OTF leng zai!
OMG.
I don't even remember his face in 2nd part of Narnia.
But i will remember him since today.
For sure.
After movie we went walk walk walk aimlessly and bought something.
Then we went to sit at food court and start photo session.
Hohoho.
Not my camera this time so i have no photos to upload.
Btw,
rach your bro really has a damn great cam!
I might put on my wishlist hehehe.

Tada~
Photo of the day.

Feels great to hang out with old people.
As always.

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Tonight our soulmate tweeted a lot.
Start by micky's sudden tweet about wanting to study abroad.
What a shock.
Then jae's intrude about going to universe.
Sweat you kid.
And they started kid talk to greet Luke in Starwars in universe but because jae didn't know the language there so he ask micky to go there on his own and at the same time he afraid the aliens might thought that he is their companion as he looks so special.
Well obviously KJJ and me are on the same level.
Kids level.
LOL.
The topic went off so well~
And he says that he's happy to be loved,
saying that he's fine and wishes us good night.
But.
Just a moment.
They start tweeting about how grateful to each other,
and slowly changed to express pain.
And jae even mentioned yun and min in his tweet.
Sigh.
How many more tough nights do we have to pass through?
Can't they feel the love from all over the world?
Really hope that they can stay strong.
Be strong.
AKTF.

Finally i listen Anthena ost by HoMin,
with full attention.
I have only 1 thought after i listen that song.
Changmin ah~
I actually miss your voice so much.
So much that i can't listen the song for the second time.
I knew i would teared if i do.

ChangMin ah~
I miss you.

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Jae version of For You is still my favourite song for now.
On my playlist,
single track repeating.

JYJ.

JYJ had their first autographing session in Korea since The Beginning had launched.
2 months after the album launched.
I can't imagine how much they've gone through to grant everything up to today.
The road is tough.
There's no back up support.
They're all on their own.
Can anyone be tougher than them?
I bet none.

And of all the translation of the conversation they made during the autography session,
this really made me touch.
This is what they responded when they being ask about HoMin.
“当然希望成员们的活动有好的结果。只是《东方神起》这个名称，只有在5个人时才有意义。在这一点上有些遗憾。我们的组合名称叫JYJ，也没选队长，这是因为我们想：是目前的状况使得我们分离，但总有一天我们一定会在一起”
Finally someone speak up.
And see.
Noone ever give up.
We are waiting and so do them.

I wonder what makes jae so dare to bring this up.
Maybe the case is over?
Why are they always the one who confess.
During MAMA,
during Thanksgiving concert in Dome,
during their Beginning concert.
They are the one who confess their feeling to HoMin.
Tell them how much they miss them.
What did HoMin do in return?
Silence.
I know it's because of fucking SME.
But why.
Why those so-call-fans scolding jae?
What did he said deserve any of your nasty feedback?
TVXQ only alive when there are 5 of them.
What's wrong about that?
They are member of TVXQ they deserve that name more than anyone.
You have no rights to scold people, bitch.
Shut the fuck up when you don't know things behind.
Back to your fucking land and shut your fucking mouth.
You don't deserve to be a fan if you don't love all 5 of them.
Leave.
Fuck off!

I hope jae wouldn't read any of those rubbish.
Not even a word.
I bet it hurts him a lot a lot.
As it's already making my heart aches right now.
I can't imagine how will he feel if he read.
Please don't.

Regrets.

I might look sucks in this pic.
But i love the feeling.

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I have nothing to do for the whole night.
And i went youtube TVXQ.
Finding some random funny videos.
1 hours gone,
2 hours gone.
I forgot how long i'd spent on youtubing my man.
I found a video recording fans calling Jae, Yun and Mick too.
Impressive.
Yun's voice is so so different in phone.

After that,
i saw the recording of their concert in Malaysia.
O concert in Malaysia 2007.

The video i watch is the ending part,
where Mick try to speak english and communicate with M'sia fans.
After i watch the video,
i burst into tears.
The feeling of regret is overwhelming me again.
2007.
Supposingly I can attend the concert.
I even planned.
But in the end,
because the non-approve of my parents,
i can't go.
I can still remember how hard i cried that night.
Doesn't she know even if she don't let me attend the concert,
i can't focus in my study too?
Ended up i wasted my whole fucking night crying in my room when i can go to Stadium meet my man and have the happiest night ever in my life.
Your choice.
Made a damn big regret in my life.
Nothing but a regret.
A regret that can never make it again.
Thank you for the choice you made for me 2 years ago.
Everytime i think of it,
it actually makes me hate you.
And you created the damn big emptiness in my heart.
Regrets.
I bet you will defeat me no matter in how many years more.
Whenever i think about this,
i'll break down.
Whenever, wherever.

Sigh i feel like crying again.
Oh the fuck.

Dear Santa,
my wish for Christmas this year and the following and following years,
is to see TVXQ's concert,
where there's 5 of them,
with my own eyes.
Please grant my wish.
If i didn't get the chance to see 5 of them standing on stage as 1,
i guess i will die in regrets.

A damn big one.

Happy Birthday Xiah and Zuno @ Meteor Day!

Happy 25th Birthday to the lovely Kim twins!

Our baby Kim Jun Su and cool elder brother Kim Jun Ho!
May they both have a great day and have a chance to celebrate it together!
Family is always the best.
When you can share your birthday with another family member,
it feels great!
And its twin brother some more!
Taebak!!!

Hope that they both will have a happy day.
Happy Birthday my love one!
Always keep the faith,
hope to the end.

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Another thing that keep me awake at such hour!!
Meteor!

Finally i saw meteor in real for the first time in my life!!!
And it's not only one!
It's a lot!
Not a lot as in movies where it's falling like rain.
But my a lot is as in,
a lot.
But have to wait.
But,
it's worth for the wait!
Finally i understand why people are attracted by meteor.
It's superb.
Damn beautiful.
Watch it with him and ah wah.
Under such chilling weather.
But since it's getting colder at night so we decided to give up.
Meteor oh meteor~
Such a perfect day you arrived.
1215
My first meteor day.
And the birthday of the important man in my life.
Weeeee~
Taebak!!!

And on the night when i saw meteor,
i think i saw constellation Cassiopeia too.
Maybe it's just my own-creation Cassiopeia,
but i saw it.
Hearts Cassiopeia.
The prettiest constellation and prettiest word in the world.

My man.
So damn brave went and take subway in Korea yesterday.
And you made me can't study last night.
So please give me luck in my test later.

And i'm so touch with his early morning tweet.
"언제나 겸손한 마음으로"
Always carry the heart of humble.

That's my Kim Jae-Joong.
The only one that will never change in the world.

Edge.

너는 기다리게아니그..
진짜이런나생각게..
안돼니가..

그냥 한걸음..
생각하지말아.
안돼니가.

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Another emotional night.
Maybe i shouldn't read her blog after all.
It's leading me to the edge of breaking down again.
My heart is heavy.
Very.
Should i cry,
or should i not cry?

Sigh.
Is it because of exam or what?
Why is it so easy to break down these days.
Fuck.
I feel so weak.
It's so not me.

재중 - 너를 위해 (For You)

너를 위해 (For You)
Kim Jae-Joong

어쩜 우린 복잡한 인연에
Maybe we are people
서로 엉켜있는 사람인가봐
Tangled in a complicated relationship
나는 매일 네게 갚지도 못할만큼
Everyday I am debted to you
많은 빚을 지고 있어
Debts that are too much for me to pay back
연인처럼 때론 남남처럼
Sometimes like a couple, sometimes like strangers
계속 살아가도 괜찮은 걸까
Can we keep living on like that
그렇게도 많은 잘못과 잦은 이별에도
Despite countless mistakes and seperations
항상 거기 있는 너You are still there

날 세상에서 제대로 살게해 줄
I know that you are the only person
유일한 사람이 너란걸 알아
Who can help me live properly in this world
나 후회없이 살아가기 위해
I, in order to live without regrets,
너를 붙잡아야 할테지만
Should keep you by my side
내 거친 생각과 불안한 눈빛과
My rough mind and unstable expressions
그걸 지켜보는 너
And you watching it
그건 아마도 전쟁같은 사랑
That is a love like a war
난 위험하니까 사랑하니까
Because I'm dangerous, because I love you
너에게서 떠나줄꺼야
I'm going to leave you
너를 위해 떠날꺼야
For you I will leave

===
Super in love with this song.
JJ is not the original singer but i was addicted when i listen to him singing it in live.
The feeling that he brought out through the song.
Touching.
Loving it to the max.

Broke down last night.
I think my heart is so fragile now and it can't bare anymore hurts.
Why is it whenever i gave out my heart to people what i get in return is shit.
Fuck.
I'm so naive to believe that i actually made true friends in uni.
Oh screw my naiveness.
Please vanish from presence around me.
Don't you ever ask me any favour anymore.
I could be really mean if i wanted to.

Double locking my heart is the only way to protect myself.
Screw you intruders!

Thank you, KJJ.

Thanks for appearing at the moment when i'm missing you so much.
If there is a day I stop loving u,
i guess it will be the day i stop breathing.

I'm tired.
I'm sick of it.
So i shall stop.

Short Reunion.

Had a great night with them
Finally we had sorta a reunion with tai.
This is the first time we hang out with him in this whole sem.
First time in the last week.
Well,
better than nothing.

Quite nice pooling moments.
And very nice yum cha with my 3 treasures.
Well,
the u-know-who didn't join us for yum cha.
Anyhow,
get to reconnect with an old close friends really feel very good.

I'm happy!

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I'm so so so into Pierrot and Nine right now.
Of the most favourite lyrics of mine in these 2 songs are :

Although it feels awkward because I've changed so much, wait
let's not be too far apart, I make a promise to the world ahead of me


I want to live under a wider sky
I want to know the meaning of freedom. Fly fly much higher

It's just.
So great.
Especially the sentence
"I want to live under a wider sky."
I truly wanted to.

JYJ - Nine

Nine (9)
JYJ
Composed by : Kim Jae Joong

너는 사랑이란 걸 아니?
do you know what's call love?
아냐 사실 나도 모르겠어...
no~ in fact I have no idea about it too...
단지 모르는 게 Ye
just don't know it Ye
가슴이 뜨겁고 막 뛰고 자꾸 눈물이 흘러 나
my heart feels hot and I keep running and keep tearing up
어떻게 해야하는 거니.
what should I do?
찾아가 무릎 꿀으면 되니...
Should I go pleading with bent knees?
나도 모르게 Ye
I don't know too Ye
계속 너를 찾고 또 뛰고, 걷다 보면 또 제자리야
I keep finding you and running, I'm back to the original spot even when I keep walking
Do you not love me Do you not want to forget

새로 시작하려 해도
even if I want to start anew
쉽게 되지가 않는 우리 사랑
It doesn't seems easy for our love
내 기억. 추억들~
My memories. sweet memories~
더 이상 감출 수조차 없는 내가 되었으니~
I have become someone who can no longer hide it
지난 날은 잊어~
forget the old days~
오직 서로만 지켜 가면 돼
We just need to have the 2 of us
이제 우린 알 수 있잖아.
know we know it, don't we
말하지 않아도 알잖아
we know it even if we don't say it out
매일, 멀지 않던 어제만 소리 치면 되
tomorrow, we will shout out of the yesterday that isn't too far
말하지 못해서 미안해
i'm sorry that I can't say it
사랑한다 그대여
i love you my dear
몇 번이고 전화도 해봤어
maybe times i've tried calling
무슨 말을 할까 고민했어...
I've been thinking about what to say...
나도 모르게 Ye~
I don't know it too Ye~
잠을 자고 일어날 때도 계속 너를 찾게 되는 거야
even as I fall asleep and wake up, I can't stop myself from wanting to find you
날 봐 지금의 나를 봐
look at me, look at the me now
너무나 변해버린 내 모습 좀 어색하지만 기다려
Although it feels awakward because I've changed so much, wait
너무 멀어지지 말자 내 앞에 세상과 약속할테니
let's not be too far apart, I make a promise to the world ahead of me

lyrics taken from Lyrics Book distributed at the venue

Credits: inhye87@twitter
Shared by: DBSKnights + oneTVXQ

Do you know.

The moment when i get back my FMR paper today.
I was really shock.
It's really disappointing although i already expected that i will get bad result.
Well,
there's always hope in me.
But when the truth came up and turned down your hope,
the feeling is terrible.
My first midterm was slightly over the passing border,
but second midterm was slightly lower than passing border,
which means i failed.
To be honest,
at the moment i get back my paper,
I really feel like crying.
Why?
Because my marks is the lowest among them.
20.5/40 wtf.
Maybe i didn't put much effort in.
But the lecture is seriously the one who made me get such result.
If UTAR has no money hire a better lecture,
then don't allow us to take this subject.
Giving someone lousy lecture us didn't help in anything!
Fuck you!
I know i'm the one who are responsible.
But i don't understand about the subject what can i do!
We PAID.
For bloody RM750!
What is the point when we paid and we study nothing from the lecture and that we have to do our own research on what is she teaching and understand by ourselves?
What's the damn point of paying you, UTAR?!
You sucks!

My mood was really at the bottom.
I hold my tears and that i know i cannot cry.
Especially in front of everyone of them.
I have to be tough.
Crying over result is so not me.
But.
I was really sad.
I found that texting is really a way to express my feeling.
At least it can distract me from thinking the thing and help me express while i'm typing it out.
And it was always you who appear in my mind.
Thank you.

Luckily i still have a 20 minutes pending drama waiting for me when i reach home.
And my mind kinda get distracted by it as it has a super sweet ending!
Kang Mu Gyul~
love.

Anyhow,
i guess i shall really start study.
Final starting next friday.
Not to say soon,
but not long either.

Screw you, test.
Screw you, finance.
Fuck you, UTAR.

Feel like blogging. But i'm lazy.

As titled.
That's exactly my feeling right now.
I know i seriously need to blog before i forget everything.
But then i'm feeling so lazy.
Just like me in the pic.
LOL.

So i had a weekend without any of my family members staying with me in Ipoh.
My dad went for a trip to Phuket with his company while my mum and bro went S'pore.
I didn't want to join in any of the trip so I'm being left behind at home.
Home alone.
Sounds so cool right.
But i brought a friend home to accompany me.
Tada~
She's lih jia.
And luckily i have her to accompany me throughout these days.
Or else i might be bored to rot.
And maybe i will feel scare too.
HAHA.
Home alone.
It's actually NOT that cool after all.

So what we did for the days?
Hmmm.
We went and join gor and him yum cha on friday night.
And get home around 12 something.
The other day we stayed home and cooked pasta as lunch,
after that we went ISC for swimming and sauna~
As for dinner we went tong sui gai and because Mr. Chun ffk-ed us,
we had our dinner on our own.
After that went for Skyline with him too~
Not really a good movie as what Annie said.
Sigh.
Seriously sweat about the concept of the story.
And that's the first time i drive home so late in Ipoh.
*ngekngekngek*
Not cool too.
Thanks to the influence by my mum,
i'm afraid that every moment anyone can just knock my car just to rob me or break my glass or throw eggs to my mirror.
All sorts of stuff.
News.
You ruined a normal people's normal life with over-anxiouscity.

As for Sunday~
Hmmm.
What we did.
Ah~
We went to stadium and had our brunch.
After that we headed to Tesco to buy some ingredients for dinner and headed home.
Spent our whole noon at home.
Cooked tomato basil flavor spaghetti and mushroom soup and made kyonyaku jelly!
Yum yum yum~
And my dad backed around 9.30pm.
In conclusion we just stay at home for almost the whole Sunday.

And today!
We went for dim sum and meet up with su and sal.
It's really my first time to go sing k with u su.
LOL.
2nd time and 3rd time please come faster.
And it reminds me that i never go sing k with Fion and Poh and Snail before.
Noooooooooo!
We MUST do it at least once in our lifetime.
And the rest of my time spent at home,
waiting for my KJJ to update his tweets.
LOL.
And my mum and bro reaches home around 1am.

Ah~
Done reporting my weekend.
Relaxing~
But used a lot of money.
Sigh~
Have to save from now on.

AND!
I can't make it on 4th Dec!
Kim Hyun Joong ㅠㅠ
I'm sorry!
I will come visit you next time together with this man

of mine.
ngekngekngek
I love this pic of him.
So much so much so much.
Love him so much so much too!
And he is such a cute guy!
I'm glad to be a Cassiopeia.
I'm proud to be a fans of TVXQ and JYJ!
I'm really lucky to felt in love with him.
And them.
♥

And of a bonus!

My mates and I during moral campaign last friday!
It was a great success!
And i'm so so happy with wei and joo's outcome!
They did it much more better than what everyone expects!
I feel so touch ㅠㅠ
Ah~
We had such great moments together for the campaign!
And the story behind.
Glad that there's 1 more memorable thing that fall deeply in my university memory.
Thank you so much everyone!
Love you all~
^^

JYJ - 삐에로 Pierrot

삐에로 (Pierrot)
JYJ

Oh~ Oh~~~~~~~~
난 너의 Pierrot 정말로 웃겨
Me, as your Pierrot, it’s really a joke
너에게 다 받쳐 찌들어
my mind getting it all from you, it dirty my mind
낸 눈 앞에 our bro 돈 앞엔 뭣도 없는
In front of me, my bro. in front of money, I’m nothing
완전한 넌 pro 제대로 p.s.m.
you’re a perfect pro, truly a p.s.m.
아직 어린 내께 또 무슨 짖을 하게 또
What kind of doings will you do to the me who is still young
이 더러운 손 좀 치워
Take away your dirty hands
상대도 하지마
Don’t even try to confront
어제의 우리가 아냐
we’re no longer the us from yesterday

no. just do not touch me
I’m not a pierrot
더 넓은 하늘을 등지고 살고 싶어
I want to live under a wider sky
자류를 알고 싶어 더 높이 fly fly
I want to know the meaning of freedom. Fly fly much higher
나만의 새각이 있어
There’s only thoughts about myself
나만의 인생이 있어
There’s only my own life
감옥 같은 그 때 추억하기 싫어
I hate having to think about the days living in a prisoner cell
영원히 Bye bye bye
Forever Bye bye bye
너만의 그 생각 집어쳐
throw away those thoughts only of u
너의 그 핑계 집어쳐
throw away those excuses of yours
죽도록 더 고통스러운 날들로 가득할 테니까
because it will only be filled with those days of misery and pain

눈 감아도 보여
I still see it even if I close my eyes
난 이제 master
I’m now the master
끝없이 파고 들어오는 건 no. no
delving like there’s no end no. no
그 정도 화보 따위에 가두려하지마
Don’t try to measure it up with fortune or misfortune for this extend
세상을 잘 봐. 너무나 멋져
Look properly at the world. It’s so beautiful
no. just do not touch me
I’m not a pierrot
더 넓은 하늘을 등지고 살고 싶어
I want to live under a wider sky
자류를 알고 싶어 더 높이 fly fly
I want to know the meaning of freedom. Fly fly much higher
나만의 새각이 있어
There’s only thoughts about myself
나만의 인생이 있어
There’s only my own life
감옥 같은 그 때 추억하기 싫어
I hate having to think about the days living in a prisoner cell
영원히 Bye bye bye
Forever Bye bye bye
너만의 그 생각 집어쳐
throw away those thoughts only of u
너의 그 핑계 집어쳐
throw away those excuses of yours
죽도록 더 고통스러운 날들로 가득할 테니까
because it will only be filled with those days of misery and pain
no future no freedom It’s just like a chase for us but it doesn’t matter
now we’re just gonna walk out way for the rest of my life

나만의 새각이 있어
There’s only thoughts about myself
나만의 인생이 있어
There’s only my own life
감옥 같은 그 때 추억하기 싫어
I hate having to think about the days living in a prisoner cell
영원히 Bye bye bye
Forever Bye bye bye
너만의 그 생각 집어쳐
throw away those thoughts only of u
너의 그 핑계 집어쳐
throw away those excuses of yours
죽도록 더 고통스러운 날들로 가득할 테니까
because it will only be filled with those days of misery and pain

===
In your face!
SME and Avex.
They are doing much more better without you.
What they need now is just HM.

A satisfying night.

It's another outing night with my treasures.
I had a really enjoyable night except that i'm not really in the condition for pooling.
Well,
me and joo are in a team and we are both out of condition.
LOL.
Today is really not the day for pooling.
Anyhowww.
Because of them i guess i get to train on pooling.
I wanna be better and better!
And that i will be reaching the standard to play with them.
But i guess the situation now is more than satisfaction.
They asked me for pooling~!
I mean.
It's like the first time.
It's not asking when we're out during yum cha.
"Let's go pooling after this."
No no no.
This is different.
^^
I feel.
I'm living among them again.
So happy~

And after pooling we went to mcd.
They are waiting for 4am to have the mcd breakfast set.

Ah~
And i guess a cup of mcd coffee has improved our relationship.
I think it's for the first time.
Other than joo,
where it's usual for me to drink his drinks.
Well this is the first time where all of us shares drinks.
HAHAHA.
Not to say what.
But.
As real close friend.
I felt that.
I hope it is.

Ah~
Although i'm very tired.
And i've decided not to sleep so late anymore.
But.
It's uni life right.
And it'd gone more than half.
I guess i shall treasure more time i can to spend with them.
I know i'm going to miss every moment that i spent with them.
So much so much.
Moments when we're so happy.
Moments when we're so relaxing.
Moments when we're so clicked.
I'm going to miss every moment i spent here.
Everything.
With everyone.

I love my uni life.
^^

It's 6.15am.
I think i shall get some sleep.
Presentation at 12.30pm and i'm just 70% prepared.
LOL.
Nitez!

Just my thought.

So this is the end.
TVXQ = Yunho + Changmin.
JYJ = Jaejoong + Yuchun + Junsu.

So Cassiopeia belongs to fans of who?

===
I'm watching/listening the recordings during 1017 showcase.
I miss them so damn much.
And i realised jae actually said twice "baby" during Empty remix.
He's calling me~
^^

===
The night is so long.
I had no idea why i feel so frus and moody.
Fuck.

===
The only thing made me feel happy tonight.
He tweeted!!!
And of the whole night im feeling hungry,
he's feeling hungry too!!!
U see sometimes things around me and him is just so similar.
LOL.
But the only difference is he ate but i didn't.
LOL.
Good night my baby~ ^^

I really damn 9 dulan you.
Fuck.

HP7

Finally my turn watched it too.
Not too nice but not bad.
And the snake part successful in shocking me although i'm prepared for it.

Ah~
Time to back kampar again tomorrow.
Sien.
Too lazy to update tonight.
Tired.

Nice talk with debt though.
I'm going to sleep now too.
Nite.
^^

Ah.

So many thoughts i had in mind today.
Why human changes?
Is there anyone who will never change?
I wonder.
I realized many people that i knew previously.
Even i'm very close with them,
now,
i don't really know who they are.
They.
Means more than one.

Ah~
M changed school and he's not studying in UTAR anymore.
Which indirectly means,
i wont get to see him anymore.
:(

Hmmm.

Moral test tomorrow morning but i never read a word of it.
Well,
it's in true and false and it's in Malay AND it's has no CGPA counted.
So,
shall see you tomorrow morning,
moral.

JYJ is heading back to Korea!
Wonder if they land already.

One more thing.
I can sense that JiJi is going to appear soon.

Dear KJJ.

How are you???
I'm so worry.
Suddenly tweeted and wrote "Oh no".
How are your voice?
Hope it's fine.
Nothing is more important than your precious voice.
And also health,
of course.
Last showcase will be in 9 hours time.
All the best.
Enjoy your final showcase stage before launching your first JYJ concert.
To the last stage!
To Los Angeles!
To JYJ!
Hwaiting!!!

Been so long.

Such a blissful night.
It had been so long since the last time i had it.
Great chatting session with wei chun joo at McD Kampar.
First time i went to McD in Kampar and Im with them~~~
Happy.
^^
And they made me realised that my university life is actually passing speedily.
Ah~
I really shall appreciate more time with them.
With all the people i love.

===
ps : current hair color.

hehehe

Saw the new profile pic of jae in twitter.

And i realised that i had a photo with that pose too!!!

Aren't we look cute?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

A thought.

Finally!!!
I can't stand of it anymore.
And i got my hair dyed again.
LOL.
It's not much different with my previous hair colour.
Actually it's like just the same.
LOL.

I wonder what happened with JYJ.
They seems so down just now.
With all the sentimental words that jae tweeted.
And the sadness expressed by 6002.
I'm really curious.
But anyhow,
they seems to overcome it and be okay after all.
^^
Look at this man giggling while reading his tweets.
With my loveMAClove
Mac maniac KJJ.

Tweet here tweet there KJJ.
So sexy after his shower with wet hair!

Ah i feel like living in a world of virtual.
My own virtual is with JYJ + Homin.
That's enough.
And i wish i'll go inside and never have to come back again.

I feel like.
Leaving.

===
OMGSUN it's 2.43am and i'm having 8am class tomorrow.
Fuck.

Finally.

I've got so much in my mind.
Wonder where shall i start.
Guess i shall start with my test today.
Ahhhhhhhhh another screwed paper.
Damn.
But i can't blame anyone as I didn't pay full effort in it.
Ahhhhhhhhhh.
I wonder why i still can't get my study mood back.
It's already week 5!
And my sem ends in week 7!
Do i still need my study mood then.
As i think when it comes back i would have finished my sem.

Ah~
I'm listening to Jang Geun Suk's song - My Precious.
His voice is really like magic.
Or i shall use magnet to describe.
I'm really attracted by his voice.
It's like a kind of force pulling my heart towards his voice.
Super addictive.
I wanna stick on his voice.
Flowing with it in the air.
Happy that he's back on screen for the new drama Mary Staying Out All Night.
Although it still doesn't seems interesting yet,
seeing him makes me happy!
Jang Geun Suk love.
Wonder if he and jae knows each other.
^^

Yesterday Micky suddenly ask if he should stop twitter.
And jae replied that if Mick stops,
he'll stop too.
Shock me to hell!
I can't imagine if they really quit twitter,
what my life will be.
I'm adapted to the life with their twitter,
greeting jae every morning, noon, night,
with every possibility that he might read my tweets,
my greetings to him.
Imagine if they really quit.
What my life will leave with??
Empty.
And my heart will be going empty and my life will be going empty as well.
"Girl because your heart is empty"
LOL
And just now,
jae twitted : 久しぶりに時ヲ止メテ聞いている。せつないね。。早く寝なきゃ。
He listened to Toki wo Tomete after a long long time.
And it hurts.
After i saw this tweet of him,
i went and listen to the song again.
KimJaeJoong,
i feel your pain too.
I know that you actually feel the same with us.
You wanted reunion too right?
But just the current situation doesn't allow things to happen in the way we wish.
We all hopes for reunion.
We all are waiting for the day.
Miracle might not happen in 1226 this year.
But maybe next year,
or next next year.
We will wait no matter how long it takes.
Always keep the faith.
Hope to the end.
We will always be.

JYJ.
It has been a month.
1 month.
1 month ago,
finally i saw him in person for the first time in my life.
171010
A day that i will never forget.
A wonderful day that left a colourful watermark in my life.
Wonder when will i see you again?
Days to be count.
Hope it's sooner than i expect it to be.

Of what i'm up to recently.
Well i think i'm living my life ordinary.
I feel down,
I feel happy.
But maybe the time problem and my laziness made me don't feel like blogging.
Ah.
And of one thing.
Now only i realize actually friend too,
can make someone to feel stress.
Of my case.
There's a gang of friend,
who always like to look for me when i'm in ipoh.
I know that's of friendly.
But everytime they wanted to find me,
they're not like asking me free or not first.
Directly they'll say,
"eh now i'm coming to find you."
And it's always not in a good timing.
I know you wanted to share your happiness with me,
wanted me to join with the gatherings.
But just.
The timing is so inaccurate you know?
And of the way you ask.
Is more like demand than ask.
Which i really dislike.
And now it actually reaches phobia stage.
That made me don't really feel like seeing any of you in the short period.
I'm really sorry.
But i really am,
in phobia of you all.
Sorry.
I'll contact you again when i'm fine.
And of course i hope,
that we wouldn't contact before i'm ok.
Not to be mean but,
please do not find me.
Please.

Ah~
What else i wanted to say.
Recently im joining back with my classmates.
6s and the girls.
I spend my time mostly with them i guess.
Or staying at home.
Dramas.
Having nice time alone.
It doesn't feel so bad actually.
To being alone.
Quite enjoyable.

It's holiday tomorrow!
Going to spend it with 6s and jia.
Sing k~!
Hope it will be a good day.

SCREW THE TEST TOMORROW!!!
I still can't find back my study mood.

And i've got so many to update.
But i'm just so lazy.
And lack of time.
Noooooooooooooooooo.

JYJ is still partying at such hour.
8am in Las Vegas now.
@@

Happy Birthday Chun.

Happy Birthday Chun~!!!

Of my another work.
A little more satisfy than wei's.
One point that i'm not satisfy is that the card is a bit over girlish for a guy!
Well.
Never mind.
The card is made by me and i'm a girl.

Happy birthday Chun~
Merry X'mas in advance too HAHA.

===
Was planned to celebrate his birthday on 12am that day.
But due to some persons it was cancelled.
And the other day chun rejected to join us dinner and we are in OMG-what-to-do situation.
And suddenly i thought of eating desserts which almost everyone likes!
Well at least chun likes.
And tada~
Plan goes on.
Asking him to go to Shark and when he reach,
he doesn't dare to come in as later he told me that he was scare.
Cause there were many people and he afraid that we might going to celebrate there and he feels paiseh.
HAHAHA.
You're still so cute lo chun.
And we had greatttt moments eating ice there.
And i went to prepare for the cake and i think i managed to surprise him!
Weee~~~
And the cake is really nice!
Although very fattening and very zai.
HAHA.
But nice~

Overall it is a very simple celebration,
i hope he doesn't mind.
Wanted to make it more interesting but we're really out of ideas.
@@
Well but i guess it's the heart that counts.
Right?

Once again,
Happy Birthday Chun!
It's great to have you as friend in my UTAR life.
Without you,
there wouldn't be me now.
Everyone of you plays a very important role in my life.
My treasures.
I treasure everyone of you.
Love you!

Back.

Hello!
I'm back.
With more fats on my damn face and body.
3 days in KL and i'm eating for 1 and half days.
After the buffet on Saturday night i found that i've lost interest in food.
HAHA.
Good start of my diet journey.

And of 3 days of losing internet connection causing me unable to get jae's twitter update!
ㅠㅠ
I really miss him a lot.

My man~
Looking so angelic in Shanghai's showcase.

And i really hate him sometimes.
When i'm in front of my comp,
he rarely update his tweet.
When i'm away,
he updates a lot and chat with people.
KJJ.
U wins.

Sharing secrets?

Junsu's symbolic pose!
He's really not suitable to pose this with this make up.
haha.
Btw i really love his red hair!
Although it reminds me Mirotic moments.
*heartchokesalittle*
He really looks good with red hair.

Cute-ness yuchunnie!
Wonder why they need put on such thick make up.
Dont the stylist know they look very pretty even without make ups?

===
Ah~
And a lot been going through my mind during my trip in KL.
Interesting things do happened but i already forgot.
Sigh.
I need to blog right after the day or else I will forget about it.
Or maybe im just lazy to think about it.

Ah im so tired.
Someone is not going to say good night tonight.
ㅠㅠ

Miss him so much ㅠㅠ

Although i feel a little bad for can't joining the event tonight,
but i had a happy day and night too.
Credits everyone who brought me laughters tonight.
*hearts*

Heading to KL for 3 days.
3 days without Jae's tweet.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Happy Birthday T.O.P

T.O.P-sshi~
Happy Birthday!!!

===
Finally SungKyunKwan Scandal comes to an end.
Sob.
I will miss it so much!

Lee Sang Jun-sshi.
Annyeong.

Happy to receive your mail.
Wonder if you know my status in fb these days actually refers to you.

Anyhowwwwwwwww.
Glad that it solved.
Kinda.
Finally.

Bye.

A catch-up talk with a long lost person tonight.
It feels good.
But the feeling of losing him is still here.
I think we can never get him back.

As i've already lost so many friends,
i guess it doesn't matter to lose one more.
Bye.

===
Looks like it's a bad night for JunSu too.
:(

But glad to see that JunSu finally followed EunHyuk on twitter!!
Looking for the continuous bond of them.
^^
Waiting for the day that jae follow hee and boa.
^^

Looks like you never being upset.
Or you never care things happened between us.
Or maybe am i just thinking too much?
But i dont think so.

Why do i always care so much when the person never even bother to care?
How stupid am i.

Assignment moments are back!
FUCK.
Damn restless these days.
And im unhappy.
Im frus.
But nowhere to express.
Noone to talk to.
Fuck.

Happy Birthday Wei!

WeiWeiWei~
Happy 20th Birthday!
Finally it's your birthday again.
Haha.
Remember during this time last year what are we doing?
^^
Cake prank.
Hahaha.
The piles of shit cake.
Forest of shit.
And we're so so happy that time.

But this year is another kind of happiness i guess?
Well i really hope u're happy.
^^

We had homemade steamboat this year to celebrate his birthday~
Location : My house.
And i skipped whole day class today because of the preparation of this steamboat.
LOL actually i skipped the earlier class because i need to sleep.
Wellllllllllllllllll,
this is because early morning we wake up and went to pasar and buy some seafood and vegetables.
We bought prawns, squids, fish, and stuff in pic.
After that i came back and continue dating with jae in my dreamland.
And it's really hard to wake up for class after that.
HAHA so i decided to skip.
Around 3stg the continuation of work came.
We went to Tesco and buy the remaining ingredient needed and bought the birthday cake.
It is exactly the same cake as his birthday last year.
HAHAHA.
Joo's idea.
And after that,
i start the preparation alone as the girls have things to do and the boys went to class.
Around 6stg the girls back and help with the stuff and around 7stg we're done with everything!!
But the boys thought that we'll be very slow so they came around 9pm.
=______________='"
Anyhow,
it's a very great night!
And pity wei as joo moved wei's chopstick while he's dipping his fishball to the chili sauce,
and piu~
The chili sauce fly over to wei's shirt and stained on it.
There's a little on his pants too.
HAHAHA.
It's a really funny process.
Everyone just burst into laughters.
And another laughter moments are when soh joined us.
That funny fella.
And we had kyonyaku jelly as dessert ^^
As the watermelon is finished before the steamboat ends
=='"
And then there's surprise cake moment~~!
I think im halfway succeed as he didn't know that we've prepare the cake until he smells the candle.
He can actually smells candle.
Wow.
HAHAHA.
Anyhow,
I think he's happy after all.
I wish he is.

A group pic of us~
Soh is a failed cameraman.
The photo looks nice is because of my cropping + edit skill.
LOL.
I love group photo!

And this is a small little gift for him.
I guess he never expect anyone will make a card for him.
Although it dont really look too well.
As of my work this is really a very simple one.
Cause i don't know how to decorate in a card for guy.
This is my first time except make for him.
HAHAHA.
Nevermind.
The second time will come soon.
Chun's ^^
Im gonna make 1 for everyone.
Not biasing.
^^
So, wei~
Hope that you really really like this celebration and the little gift ler.
Not sure if there's any celebration on tomorrow but please always remember that we're here with you on your 20th birthday.
And we will always be here too!
Glad to have you in my university life!
You're a part of the color of my life!

Once again,
Happy 20th Birthday wei!
Love you lots!