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dunno what i should use as title..
such a long time since my last post..
sigh~~~
OKAY.
actually today planned to go out with Fion..
but then in the end, we seems cant make it.
aikz.
disappointed.
disappointed.
disappointed.
keep countdown for today but in the end.
well
gotta cancel.
so now i really worrying should i countdown for july.
i dun wanna get the disappointed feel again.
as i hope more for that thing, the more disappointing feel i get.
i don't want.
no u guys dun tel me "dun worry ngar we SURE can meet one"
no.
u cant be sure.
cant predict future one.
sigh~
dunno why felt that everyone dumping me.
really felt so...
no matter those near one or far one..
all..
like pakat together and choose a time and,
dump me.
sigh~
what can i do?
u wanna dump u dump lor.
i cant do anything.
i can like beg u and say "dun dump me pls"
i'm sicked of this.
u wanna go u go.
but don't say i cruel i'm cold-blooded what kinda friend am i.
the prob is not with me.
u try being dump by ppl at the same time see what u feel.
and try, to stand at my side and think.
what will I feel?
fine.
everything was fine.
do what u like do what u want.

SDO-X

this is my SDO dear...lolz
-maxXx-
eh dun worry i wont play real one k?
lolz..

and this frog leh is actually Ng Pui Yee..
hahaha^^
my twins in SDO...

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aikz go Kampar no SDO to play ar..
cant online ar...
swt nehhh they dun bring me go cc so i cant go..
so..see how lo gor's modem fix d i zao can online gela!
but no sdo...
T.T

THINGS WE GOTTA DO WHILE WE HAVE OUR ANNUAL BG GATHERING

1. HUG
2. CAKE
3. BBQ SLEEPOVER
4. ALCOHOL (UNLIMITED.HAHA XD)
5. YUM CHA AT "MANA" --- OH SU'S ROOFTOP. OR HER POND ^^
6. TONES OF PHOTO! DIGI CAM..PHONES..STICKER PIC!
7. IF CAN..NARNIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
8. SUNWAY KL!
9. SHOPPING!!! anywhere wil do lar as long as WE'RE TOGETHER! hahahahaha
10. SING K~! wherever wil do lar~~~hahaha
11. SUSHI~!! NITSUNE FREAKS ARE BACK!!
12. BUY STG SIMILAR...
13. BG MASCOT COMPETITION!
    

I MISS BG..........AGAIN..........

yer yer yer su arrrrr
aikz..how la???
read ur blog made me so emo now...
thought of sleeping early for 2mr car test ma...
but nvm la sleep late also i wil be ok 2mr..have faith have faith..
SO NOW
aikz...i wanna back to our secondary life arrr
maybe that time we was under pressure, not free like now.
and that time we haven't meet some friends we had now..
but really, i wish to go back ar...
coz i miss the environment, i miss the feeling and i miss the people..
how long had we last meet each other ar?
the last day of my NS break..which means..
let me count count..
3 months...?
well, it is just 3 months..
3 months right?
i din calculate wrong hor?
well 3 months...
but this 3 months was like 3 years...
at first snail went...
then Fion went...
then Su and Krys went...
aikz...
breaking apart was the hardest thing to overcome in life..
esp those who are so dearly to u..
aikz...
i love my friends more than everything..
even though i was hurt and betrayed but i still love my friends.
certain of

Side by side or miles apart,friends like us stay close to the
heart.

i really love this quote...
stay close to heart..
we all can do it right?
even though we are miles away with ocean in between..
we're still connected..and we will be..
the chain wil never breaks...right?
well noone can promise anything, i know.
and one cant predict future..
but i noe..u wont dump me, will u?
u wont..
at least u wont..u know who u are and not only one u.
so...
i dun wanna write much...if not i might break down..
so..
i have faith in u
i'm glad that i know u
i'm grateful that i'm stil in contact with u
i miss u
and i love u
thanks for being my BFFL

Broken Heart

Don't Cry Over Someone That Won't Cry Over You

Some Day You'll Cry For Me Like I Cried For You,
Some Day You'll Miss Me Like I Missed You,
Some Day You'll Need Me Like I Needed You,
Some Day You'll Love Me But I Won't Love You

(yes)

Love can make you happy but often times it hurts,
but love is only special when you give it to who its worth.

Boyfriends come and go, but friends are forever.

Forget the times he walked by, Forget the times he made you cry,
Forget the times he spoke your name, Remember now your not the same.
Forget the times he held your hand, Forget the sweet things if you can,
Forget the times & Don't pretend, Remember now he's just your friend.

(good one!)

The day you finally decide to love me will be the day
after the day I have given up on chasing you

(nice~)

I dont miss him, I miss who I thought he was

If someone you love hurts you cry a river,
build a bridge, and get over it.

(building in process...)

My heart only fought for what it wanted.
Now my heart is having to fight to let him go.

Some people think that it's holding
on that makes one strong;
sometimes it's letting go.

Don't ever give up if you still want to try,
Don't ever wipe your tears if you still want to cry.
Don't ever settle for an answer if you still want to know.
Don't ever say you don't love him if you can't let him go.

(gor..read this)

I wish I was a kid again,
because skinned knees are easier
to fix then broken hearts.

Oftentimes we say goodbye to the
person we love without wanting to.
Though that doesn’t mean that
we've stopped loving them or we've stopped to care.
Sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say I love you.

It's like my mind knows what's right
but my heart is being retarded and still cares

Ask me how many times my heart has been broken
and I will tell you to look in the sky and count the stars

Why is it easy to fall in love and
yet so hard to be loved back?
why should I feel such if destiny
permits me not?
why do I have to fall if it's you I cant have?
why is there a "you" in "me"
but never a "me" in "you"?

How can I lose something that I never had?

(how can i?? how?? i never lose u? no i never get u)

It hurts the most when you
can actually feel your heart breaking.

Love can sometimes be magic.
But magic can sometimes... just be an illusion.

(i think all the while i had is just illusion...)

I wish I had the guts to walk away
and forget about what we had.
But, I can’t because I know you won't come after me,
and I guess that's what hurts the most.

I thought I'd forget you, but I guess I forgot to.

It's amazing how you make your face just like a wall,
how you take your heart and turn it off,
how I turn my head and lose it all.

(i like the first sentence)

Days continue to pass, stars continue to shine.
Why do I have tears in my eyes today
when he was NEVER mine?

Should I smile because he's my friend,
or cry because that's all he is?

(smile? should i? or cry?)

Love that we can not have is the one that last the longest,
hurts the deepest and feels the strongest.

Forget The Times You Walked By,
Forget The Times You've Made Me Cry,
Forget The Time You Held My Hand,
Forget The Sweet Things If I Can,
I Can No Longer Pretend
, I Have To Remember Now That You're Just A Friend

(just a fren just a fren just a fren)

How Can You Be Friends With Someone
If Everytime You Look At Them It Makes
You Want Them Even More?

Its hard to tell your mind to stop loving
someone if your heart still does.

Sometimes it's hard to love someone
because you're so afraid of losing them

Who do you turn to when the only person
who can stop you from crying
is the one who is making you cry?

I understand that with loves comes pain,
but why did i have to love so much?

Its hard to pretend you love someone when
you don't but its harder to pretend that
you don't love someone when you really do.

How do you heal a broken heart?
I have no idea where to start
because everything I do reminds me of you.

I would give up everything for one moment with you;
for one moment is better than a lifetime of not knowing you

I never loved you more cause
I never loved you less,
I dont love you now coz
I will love you always,
I dont just love you coz
I love you more than
I love you can say ...

Have you ever noticed that the worst way
to miss someone is when they are right beside you
and you can never have them?

I hate the stars because
I look at the same ones as you do, without you.

I keep telling myself that I don't miss you,
and that I don't love you,
hoping someday I'll believe it.

In my mind he isnt worth anything,
but in my heart he is worth everything

Loving you was my favorite mistake.

"Love don't cost a thing" except a lot of tears,
a broken heart, and wasted years

Letting go of someone dear to you is hard,
but holding on to someone who doesn't
even feel the same is much harder.
Giving up doesn't mean you are weak!
It only means that you are strong enough to let go!

When you love him - truly love him,
how are you supposed to get over him?
I've tried everything possible ...
but I just can't. Isn't that what true love is?

Love is when you can't stop looking at him,
even if he'll never look back

Today~*

The most important thing to say about today is I BOUGHT STPM MATHS T WORKBOOK TO DO!
well i noe i'm insane lolz..
i'm insane so what?
i love.
aikz...
dun misun ar i'm not in a bad mood.
well a bit bit la.
but soon i will be okay.

so today...hahaha!
went watch ironman with my mate lor..
so long d at last found chance to watch u happy lorrr
lolz..
but reali..disappointed la the ironman ar..
whoever told me ironman nice ge har u all ar reali..aikz..
swt..
wont say not nice la but not very nice lor..
not very chi gik yao not very funny wor..
hehee i'm not criticising the movie ar dun misun..
then today when in the cinema hor..
left and right side also couple ar swt...
we2 giap in the middle...
and hor dunno izit fixed the seats lidat..
[G][B][G][B][G][B]...
whole line 2 pairs couple plus we "fake" couples
hahahahaha..funny..
after movie zao walk walk lo...
walk walk walk i also forgot where we walked la..
go bumcity but those specs are for LADIES gah hahaha suan ba mate..
then go popular lor oh buy my Maths T workbook haha..
u owe me a photo ar mate..
chat chat chat chat chat chat chat..
hmph!
my book view ar~~~~~~~~~~
aikz..and the bio book iguana!
hahaha..
hmmhmm...wat else ar?dunno la..
now got abit sleepy d...
2 nights continuous 4am d haha...
tonight dunno can tahan anot le now already sleepy d...
i stil haven do my MT ler...
mayb not today gua if i stil zzz...
aikz aikz...
i not gila maths la i just wanna active back my brain that's all..
and no point do back f5 ma spm already over~~~
so mar buy stpm one lo although some i din learn b4..
in future also wil learn one ma...
so u all ar dun listen i do am zao swt and shock la..
aikz..................
"It's okay to cry"...i still addicted in this song le..
haha..not coz the song name la..but coz the melody..
very nice~ relaxing~
and the end really very nice..
the vocal is really nice...
nice nice nice..now repeat repeat and repeat to listen..
while waiting my sdo daddy back and continue training..haha
nowadays i online a lot lor...
not coz sdo la..is coz i ntg to do..
eh actually i got drama watch one but lazy la...
recently really lazy lor do what also lazy ar...
even type...both comp and sms..hehe
talk even better la nah u c ar open one mouth no need move 10 fingers wor..
hahahahaha neh neh dun criticise me k?
i'm telling the fact...
aiyo i really sleepy d...
now 2.32am...
should i sleep??
wait daddy back 1st ba...bath also bath so long..aikz
go do am..haha~~
quite happy day la if dun care what happen at night..
sei gor..aikz...
nvm la i noe he sek me onli wil do so...
haha..

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I LOVE BG
I LOVE MY DARLING SIN
I LOVE MY GOR
I LOVE MY MATE
I LOVE MY TWINS FROG
I LOVE , THOSE TRUE PPL , AROUND ME.

FAKERSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

FAKER REAPPEAREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
how many fakers do u want to appear in my life???
HOW MANY?!?!
i overcame some..
recovered..
i open back my heart to accept new friends..
BUT NOW?!
i think i really gotta seal it lo...
seal it FOREVER.
so that i wont trust people,
wont get hurt.
yes.
FAKERS.
I HATE FAKERS.
I HATE FAKERS MORE THAN LIARS.
FAKERS FAKERS FAKERS.
GO HELL LA.
i HATE wearing mask.
if i had to wear mask in my future i rather DON'T WANT my future.
why wanna so suffering?
just a LIFE.
LIFE is to have FUN.
NOT SUFFER!
so what for life in SUFFER?
just end ur life and DON'T LIVE!
damn
damn damn damn!

What Your Desktop Icons Do When You're Not Looking

if u wanna laugh...
haha watch this!

CUTE LUNCHBOX!

OMG reali cute sei!!!

hahaha*^^*funny!

Pick the month you were born:
January-------I kicked
February------I loved
March--------I karate chopped
April----------I licked
May----------I jumped on
June----------I smelled
July-----------I did the Macarena With
August--------I had lunch with
September----I danced with
October-------I sang to
November-----I yelled at
December-----I ran over

Pick the day (number) you were born on:
1-------a birdbath
2-------a monster
3-------a phone
4-------a fork
5-------a snowman
6-------a gangster
7-------my mobile phone
8-------my dog
9-------my best friends' boyfriend
10-------my neighbor
11-------my science teacher
12-------a banana
13-------a fireman
14-------a stuffed animal
15-------a goat
16-------a pickle
17-------your mom
18-------a spoon
19------ - a smurf
20-------a baseball bat
21-------a ninja
22-------Chuck Norris
23-------a noodle
24-------a squirrel
25-------a football player
26-------my sister
27-------my brother
28-------an ipod
29-------a surfer
30-------a llama
31-------A homeless guy

Pick the color of shirt you are wearing:
White---------because I'm cool like that
Black---------because that's how I roll.
Pink-----------because I'm crazy.
Red-----------because the voices told me to.
Blue-----------because I'm sexy and I do what I want
Green---------because I think I need some serious help.
Purple---------because I'm AWESOME!
Gray----------because Big Bird said to and he's my leader.
Yellow--------because someone offered me 1,000,000 dollars
Orange--------because my family thinks I'm stupid anyway.
Brown---------because I can..
Other----------because I'm a Ninja!
None----------because I can't control myself!

now combine all and see what u get!

BLOG LOR....

really a very very very long time since my last blog lorrr...
the last time i REALLY blog i mean...
lolz..
oklor i blog....

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so i came back from Genting d lor...
a VERY short trip ar!!!
not even 48 hours le sobz...
but really happy lar in this trip*^^*
that morning manage to go w/o letting my parents noe got guys lor...
really wai watt jor them lorr SORRY AR~
lolz they wont care also la i think..
then in the van reali sien lor..
neh the previous night ar sei mate slept ar so i also slept then le zao forgot charge phone..
the morning when i wake charged half and hour lo..
ish ish ish!!!
gik sei ar u owe me ar mate my batt spoilt u zao sei!
then in the van i also sms onli lor sien ar nothing to chat also..
ard 12stg reach Genting lor..
then then saw my darling la~~~
hahaha*^^* miss her so much la..
we both almost *jump* up ar when saw each other!
hahaha no wonder CK wil say he think that we are les la..
hahahahaha! then we go for lunch lo at first world's complex...
go eat pizza lor...others food very the ex..killing**
then after that we zao go check in lo 2pm d ma can go check in..
after check in le zao coz stg....aiya dun say abt bad memories la
then le me, my darling and ah qian zao stay at room rest lor..
we zzz but dun even hav 1 hour lo then ard 4.30 lar...
we zao go bath and prepare to go out lo..
THEN HOR..
brilliant us...me and qian forgot to bring towel...
then hor...so co-inciddently, first world dun hav towel tat day wor!
ish ish..then we 3 use Sin's towel lo....................
hahaha nah dun yer ar...coz no choice!
cha gela the first world..wait till late night onli give towel wor late night who will bath la?!
ish ish..
then...oh oh after bath le we went walk walk lo...
then we go outside and take photo hehehee~~~
took quite lots la..and that time the wind was quite strong la..
3 of us chilling~~~
hahahahaha..then we got take sticker pic also ar~ so nice*^^*
i wanna dye that color la for my hair..aikz aikz..
then after that we go find them to have dinner lo...
after dinner le we zao walk with Darren and CK's fren...
lolz they all ar very funny gela!
walk here walk there hor say wanna play this play that hor but in the end din play geh..
oh played snooker lo the 2 of them..
hahaha their snooker ar really funny gela!
hahahahaha...almost laughed whole night lo...
suggest movie but din go also..bowling time limited din play also..
hahaha still got what ar??
oh then we went took sticker pic lo tat one got lor..
hahaha that pic dun hav CK nvm la but dun hav xiao hei lerrr...
haha sui gela they all ar...
after take sticker pic we mar back room lor..that time ard 1am la...
then ar that time ar *someone* bubble me and say mai "those" stuff to scare me wor!
next time in Kampar u zao sei i tel u...
then we went CK's room and chat chat lo...
sot gela them bring lotsa C then put in the cup wor
in the end all wasted hahaha..
then we zao chat till 3stg am lor..
those guys hungry d..go down eat KFC...swt..
haha but that time i caught cold lo started flu d...
so i took a cup of hot milo too...
after that we all also tired le zao back room lo...
plan to sleep also lo but they all ar play play play dun let ppl sleep..
then keep making noise wor..
in the end le sleep ard 4stg la...almost 5am....
tired laaaa..

okay pics time!


very thick fog that time~~~

haha the ceiling so nice ar~!!!

this is when we wanna take our sticker pic hehehee~~~

GENTING~!very nice ler~~

we ask some strangers to take this for us and they take in their camera too ar!

Yeay~!!!can see that the fog is really thick!

hehehee actually that time very strong wind and cold le...

we post like taking marry pics lor..hahaha

the sea of flowers~! got such place in Genting meh??hahaha neh neh~~~

i like this pic lor~*^^*

haha this is nice too*^^*

the background really nice lerrr

cant get to see the real white lion..but this pic..hahaha

the lights behind was awesome right???it was actually a pub..haha

...dun say me childish!

haha our 1st escalator pic!!!

the following are our pics at night...*^^*



















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the 2nd day in Genting....
we woke ard 8stg in the morning then prepare go outdoor lo..
hahaha the 1st thing we play is Pirates Boat lar..
hahaha chi sin one la shout till ar...but very fun *^^*
then zao go play lo we almost play everything la except the roller coaster coz under repair...too bad
and the spaceshot lor NEH DUNNO WHO AR dun dare play..
aikz sien lor~~~ say wanna play din play..
then ar OH! we play the CUPS...the spin spin spin one
walau yeh...spin till faint lor hahaha poor Darren ar..
hahaha that Jia Wen chi sin one! spin like no need energy lidat lo..
my poor darling also lo let CK spin til vomit..
aikz chi sin gela them ar hahaha
then our lunck is KFC again lor hahaha
2 days in Genting twice KFC..yea..lolz
then we continue go back and play lor..
hmmhmm flying dragon! hahahaha shuang ar~~
played twice..just to blow wind onli la play that one..
then hor when it go inside first world hor purposely shout towards those ppl lo..
hahahaha very the shuang la!!!then play the spin thing lo haha very fun also*^^*
after that ar not very rmb lor but we got play the mini train thing ar and the monorail...
hahaha monorail is pircute taking time lor..
just sit there take pic and relax and chat...
then after that we went for the spin once more again..
haha then our last ride is pirate boat also..
lolz they all ar aiyo..hahahahahaha..too bad din take pic...
then ard 3stg we zao gotta back lerrr..
TIME FLIES...
but really a very happy memory with them..
knew some new friends too lor CK's fren..
all nice going one and HYPER CHI SIN one..hahahaha
hopefully in future we stil got chance to meet ba...
really very happy to spent our times in Genting..
happy for creating such memorable times!!!