Finally went for the Teluk Intan steamboat!
But it was imperfect.
As Joo and Tai didn't join us.
Joo haven't back in Kampar.
Tai had diarrhea.
Sigh~
Anyhow,
had happy moments with the rest during the journey and dinner.
But then it was really imperfect.

Reached kampar around 10.30pm.
Rest and online awhile.
And my mood got down again due to something unwanted to be seen uploaded on facebook.
Well,
sometimes i really hate facebook.
Anyhow,
friend asked to go mcd for brazil match.
Thought of wanted to change my mood.
I joined.
As i have no class tomorrow.

Going ipoh at around 1.45am with ys, shi yuan and their 2 other classmates.
Quite a happy journey too.
Thank you.
Although Brazil match not that exciting.
Nvm i'm looking forward for tomorrow's Spain vs Portugal.
Weeeeee~

No class tomorrow.
Means i can have enough sleep again.
LOL.
But then i guess i have to start my assignments.
Or maybe i shall finish up my drama before i start?
:D
It all have to depends on my mood.

Oh by the way,
I went from Kampar - Teluk Intan - Kampar - Ipoh - Kampar within 12 hours.
Woots.
It's 5.20am.
Bed time.

Cried 3 nights in a row.
For someone who never cares.
What for?
I'll be tough from now on.
I'll try to train myself being soft and weak.
I wanna hurt no more.
At least not getting hurt from someone who don't care.
Not worth a thing.
Im gonna be strong.
Just give me time.
I want to be the one who doesn't care.
Not a tiny bit.

Btw,
thank you Argentina!
Great match of yours cheered me up.
Great defense,
great attack,

Hooray Argentina!!!

我要学做一个铁石心肠的人。

Truth.

To you :

I guess you knew that you made me hurt and upset last night.
And now i kinda figure out why.
Don't worry.
I'm already get over you.
I don't love you no more.
LOL.
I guess of why i will feel so last night is because...
All the while i thought i was irreplaceable.
Even though we're no longer together,
all the things we've been through,
all the memories,
all the dates,
are irreplaceable.
But then,
you proved me wrong.
And now even the prettiest piece of memory has broken.
So,
i guess that will be the end.
Of everything we had.
Farewell.

I'm still not that stable yet.
So don't find me until i contact you first.
Thank you.

===
I hate you for doing extra thing.
And everytime u find me at super improper time.
Now u made my heart stabbed twice.
And it gone worse.
Happy?
Fuck.

Happy Birthday Darling.

Happy Birthday my beloved darling.
It had been 2 years since i last saw you.
I miss you so so much.
The days we spent in camp still like fresh memories to me.
It can never be wipe away.
Or replace by anyone, anything.
Never.
626.
A day that i will not forget.
A day that i will list it as a very important day in my heart.
You're someone who mean a lot to me, once.
Although we're far apart now,
we barely contact,
we don't know about each other's life.
It doesn't matter.
You're still the person i love.
Ever and ever.
I swear my love for you to eternity.
Wish you have a heartful day.
And hope we can meet with each other soon again,
one day in future.

I don't give a damn.

I don't understand what happened.
Why are you suddenly mad at me?
If it was to mad it should be other people and not you.
Why on earth are you mad at me?
I'm still wondering.
But since you're still not in condition and i'm still not calm,
it's not a good time.
Yet.

Do you know I'm feeling more angry whenever i think about it again.
Why are you mad at me?
You didn't ask me for football.
You just expect me to join you like this?
First,
you didn't ask me.
Second,
I asked my friend yesterday and already promised.
So why are you angry?
If it is to be angry,
that will be Justin,
not you.
I'm really feeling sorry to Justin.
I wanted to watch with youuuuuuuuuu.
But i asked ShiYuan first.
And that you all can't join together.
With the massive amount joining,
that's the part that shocked me and ruined my plan.
I'm pissed too.
But who can i mad at?
You guys planned to go for badminton and not watching the match.
Thus i asked my friend.
And i thought only two of you joining.
Then we can join together.
Since we only have 4-5 people.
But you all canceled badminton.
And i knew it only around 8pm.
Who to blame?
Not me.
I don't know you all are coming for football.
All as in ALL.
And you are so mind to let my friend join.
Fine then.
Fine.
I promised him first so i'll join him.
You have no right to be angry.

And why are you so impatient?
I'm waiting for ys to fetch me.
Even me also not that impatient yet.
You just text me saying you fetch me asking me not to wait for her,
then you just come.
Didn't even wait for my reply.
You can't blame me okay.
If this is one of the reason why u're angry then i'll shoot u in the face.
To be honest i got a little piss for your impatient just now.
Can't you just wait for my reply before you come.
zzz.

Seriously i don't give a damn.
I won't give a damn.
And i'll not apologise for things that i don't think i have anything wrong.
Either bare with me,
or shoot me in my face.
Don't show me that kind of face.
I won't care.

I want a single room!

I'm at the edge of breaking down again.

===
Went for a walk after the blog post earlier.
From my house to harvard.
It's the first time i'm walking to harvard.
At 11 something at night,
walking alone.
The weather is cooling.
And i didn't see a single familiar faces on my way.
The feeling was just.........so good.
At the moment of breaking down,
the wind blew away what's bothering my mind,
refreshing my heart,
chasing away what is excessive.
I walked to beh's house.
And when i reach,
I'm almost fine.
Thank you weather,
thank you night,
thank you wind.

When i reached beh's house,
suddenly i got a call from sardin,
saying plan to Oldtown might on again.
Waited until around 12am+,
we start heading to Oldtown~
Had a silent journey though.
Maybe because almost everyone is emo.
But things get better when reached.
And i did the first thing ever in my life,
walking at the big street in Ipoh,
standing in the middle of the road and capturing photo.
Haha.
Great moments.
Great laughs.
Thank you beh.
Anyhow,
i had great moments in the end.
Mood turned positive too.
Shall upload the photo when i got them tomorrow.

Guess it's time to sleep.
Or my retarded face will not have healing day.
Btw,
I hate period.
I guess every girls do.
Fuck.

Love's 20th celebration.

Ehehehee.
Looks more like who's birthday?
:p
But we have similar smile.
Love that.

Although don't have the pretty cake i planned to buy,
thank you hen for buying the cake.
It's cute.
And it's delicious.
:)

Happy Birthday jek my love.
I really hope I can make your day happy.

Thank you people for attending.
Thanks for making this plan works.
Although i had a lot of uncertainties and planes during this plan,
anyhow,
i guess it has a happy ending.
A great outcome.
Thank you thank you thank you.
Your presence made my love happy and made me happy.
:)

Love you're so pretty in this pic.
With the super huge cake.

♥ SM-SP-SP-SN ♥
thanks for coming szumun!
You're my only surprise to love that day.
And really glad that it works.
Haha.
The surprise.
:)
I had a great day overall.
I hope all of you do.
And most important I hope you do, love.
It's all for you.
You had a bad countdown moment,
i hope i can do something to make you happy.
At least something that made your 20th memorable.
I know the feeling of having a terrible birthday.
I know it very well.
And i don't want anyone i love try that.
It sucks.
I hope i did made you had a heartful day.
Lastly,
i'm here to wish you again,
Happy 100th.
HAHAHAHAHA.

Actually i forgot that i'm not in the mood until you reminded me that i'm.
And now,
yea.
I'm feeling depress again.
And.
I have no way to express again.
Sigh.
I don't know whether i should say thank you.

Happy Birthday Love,

Happy 20th Birthday!
My dear,
my love,
my beloved.
Sorry for the bad idea for your day before birthday.
I apologize.
But i hope you will have a great time although I can't be there to celebrate with you on the actual day of you birthday.
Hope you will really enjoy on Saturday.
I'm trying my best,
to save the plan.
Hehe.
See u love.
Have a heartful day full of my blissful wishes.
I wish you happiness.
I love you.

Stars.

The stars are so pretty tonight.
They did a great job in giving me a peaceful mind.
I had a really comfortable and relaxing mind when i was just lying and staring at the stars.
It just felt so great.
Except that it was a bit cold.
And i saw so many changed of the clouds,
making me imagine the animal or things that resembles.
It was so so fun.
I felt like i was being like a child.
In a world free of problems.
A visual world of peace.

It felt best when everything harmonized together in the perfect timing.

Great.

Great night.
Great dinner with family.
Nice glutinous rice.
Great catch up session with my love.
Hope the plan for Saturday can go on well.
Have a nice and safe trip, mum.

Btw,
Happy Birthday Mr m.
:)

===
Someone made me miss ns so much.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Mayday parade - The End

Mayday Parade - The End

We tried to fight for what we thought we believed in
Maybe it was all for nothing
(I bet that it was all for nothing)
So we drive, cause we like to be alone, there's nowhere for us to go, there's nowhere for us to go.

How can you think, that any of this was easy?
With all the friends I've lost along the way
When this is over, we're all getting older now and we'll play a part in it
Innocence is falling, can you hear them calling now?
But I'll be by your side until the end.

We tried to fight, I guess sometimes you find it's pointless
As long as you can live with yourself.
(Tell me how you live with yourself)
So it's time, we take the open road, there's nowhere for us to go, there's nowhere for us to go.

How can you think, that any of this was easy?
With all the friends I've lost along the way
When this is over, we're all getting older now and we'll play a part in it
Innocence is falling, can you hear them calling now?
But I'll be by your side until the end.

To all my friends, let's make this count, we're not alone, not alone

How can you think, that any of this was easy?
With all the friends I've lost along the way
When this is over, we're all getting older now and we'll play a part in it
Innocence is falling, can you hear them calling now?
And I'll be by your side until the end.

Steamboat cancelled.
Yea i shouldn't put too much hope.
Again,
screwed up.

===
Had a great chat with a friend at night.
Thank you for the chat.
At the moment i feel like having someone to talk to.
Although i wish to talk with a girl.
Anyhow,
it helps.
Thanks.

Had a great weekend at my uncle's house.
Staying with maymay too.
Loveable night.
Anyhow,
vacation has over and it's time for class again.
Back in kampar.
And it's time to face the face.
Can't avoid it anymore.

Assignments.
Solo assignment.
Am i able to do it?
I doubt.
Just read through the thing that i need to do.
It was so......much.
And the marks are a lot.
24/40
I felt stress.
Really really stress.
My heart felt so heavy.
I have no confident whether i can do it or not.
And i looked through every subject's assignment guideline.
What if i have to do alone for every subject?
Confirm i will die.
Fighting alone is really tiring.
I wonder when will i collapse.
Once again.

What i did in the night.

It had been a long time since i last did these works.
The last time was su's birthday i guess.
Ah~
Making stuff like this made my mood a lot more better.
:)
I didn't take back my pencil case and i dont have any ruler when i'm making these.
Shall leave an extra ruler at home next time.
Just in case.

The 6s memories.
Moments that i treasure the most among my university life.
The decoration was a bit lousy though..
LOL.
Limited materials.

This is a really simple design.
Simple makes perfect right?
BFF.
I don't have anymore L sticker.
LOL.
So i replace it with *heart*

And this is my all time favourite photo!
It'd been in my table since 3 years ago.
Prove that i always put BGs in my heart.
And it will never be taken away!

I always had an idea..
To make something like a photo hanger in tree shape.
I think i sort of saw it somewhere before.
but i have no idea.
If i would make a tree shape thing,
what material should I use?
Hmmm.
I'll start my project once i figured it out.

I'm really moody.
I don't have a fix assignment group for every subject.
I decided to do that alone,
for MBM.
And CRM today i found a group,
which i just knew them.
And i have another 3 more subjects that i don't have any assignment groups.
Why group assignment?
Fuck you.
I hate such school life.

Another happy day.

Well,
today is another great day once again.
:)
Ah~
These two days just felt like a dream.
I started my day with brunch with the EEs.
Laksa yum~
And went for class.
Saw some familiar faces but still frustrating about the assignment thing.
Sigh.
I hate group assignments.
Why don't we just have individual assignments.
Fuck.
And i had 3 tutorials in a row today.
No break in between.
But luckily the final tutorial dismiss 45 minutes earlier.
And when i was about to think where should i go as my next class is around 2 hours later,
i saw the 6s in front of Block F.
But they were busy chatting and our distance are quite far,
I thought of acting can't see them and walk pass..
Instead of smile and walk away which i feel more awkward.
Anyhow,
they called me!
Hehe.
Don't know who but i think is tai shouted my name.
And i ran over to them.
:p
The muet test fulled.
Sigh~
Have to take it next year then.
Time is limited.
Must complete it as soon as possible.
After that we have nowhere to go,
and i followed wei tai joo to stadium.
This is the first time i went to Kampar's stadium.
It don't really looks like stadium actually.
It looks like a school for me.
But the hall was really nice.
Really really nice.
And the athlete field or what i don't know what it called.
Actually the place seems very good for training.
Haha.
But it has a very lousy gym.
After that we went have our dinner.
Initially we just want to accompany joo to eat as he's feeling hungry.
But then tai suggested to eat dong boh meat.
And all of us never try that before.
Thus,
we had our dinner there together,
at around 5pm.
A super early dinner.
Hahaha.
Well the meal is really nice.
But the atmosphere was nicer.
The feeling was like a family or a group of old friends.
Moments that I treasure.
And after that we went back to school for class.
Those moments were really like dream.
It don't have to happen everyday.
Once in a while already can make my day feel great.
6s.
I treasure.
Still looking forward to next monday.
Hope that tai can make it.
:)

Duh it's insect season in kampar again.
Fuck those green insects.
Please fuck off.

Had great yum cha session with daddy tonight.
And he was really really sweat.
It's the first time i heard that the condition to look for girlfriend,
is that she can't have period pain.
SWEAT.
Hahahahaha.
I laughed real hard when i heard that.
Seriously sweat die case.
Hahaha.
Anyhow,
great moments with daddy.
Hope the next time going out with him wont be one month later.
:p

The drama 谈情说案 is really nice.
And i am so sweat towards myself.
Remembering there's a formula in macroecon,
AE ≡ C+I+G
And i never know what is ≡ until i watch the drama just now.
Hahahaha.
≡ = Absolutely equal to.
Okay now i know.
And actually this drama can learn a lot of things.
Provide the theories given is true.
Physic theories.
Ahhhh physic sounds so fun.

Having continuous class again tomorrow from 12.30pm to 6pm.
Sigh~
But after that will have a relaxing weekend.
Wee~
Hope i can meet with seng on saturday and joining the EEs on sunday.

Well,
It's time to sleep again.

いつだって君に

いつだって君に
To you, always
-JYJ



君だけに逢いたかったよ 　いつだって逢いたかったよ
Kimidakeni aitakattayo itsudatte aitakattayo
We wanted to see just only you, we always wanted to see you

今は抱きしめてい るよ　君のすべてを
Imaha dakishimete iruyo kimino subetewo
We are hugging you, hugging you entirely

微笑みを許してよ　ただ僕らのために
Hohoemiwo yurumini coopereyo tada bokurano tameni
Please forgive our smiles, they are just for our own

きっと交わす日に　また光が射すから
Kitto kawasu hini mata hikariga sasu kara
The light should stream when we can smile once again


涙のゆくえ　言葉なくして
Namidano yukue kotoba nakumini coopere
Our tears flow, we are lost for words

本当の心　失っていた　　
Hontouno kokoro ushinatteita
We have been losing our true hearts

感じた涙　 乾く涙なら
Kanjita namida kawaku namida nara
Our emotional tears, which were able to dry up

見えない絆でしっかりつながれていた
Mienai kizunade shikkari tsunagareteita
We were strongly tied by invisible bonds

そ うもう一度　言わないで行けるんだ
Sou mouichido iwanaide yukerunda
We will be able to start again, without saying any words

たとえ巡る時が
Tatoe meguru tokiga
Even though the passing days are…

そうもういいから　夢の続き探し始めてみな いか・・・
Sou mouiikara yumeno tsuduki sagashi hajimete minaika ...
We will walk ahead, searching for our dreams once more


君だけに逢いた かったよ　いつだって逢いたかったよ
Kimidakeni aitakattayo itsudatte aitakattayo
We wanted to see just only you, we always wanted to see you

気持ちを伝えるた めに　ここへ来たんだ
Kimochiwo tsutaeru tameni kokohe kitanda
We came here to convey our feelings

寂しさも応えたよ　ただ君を信じて
Samishisamo kotaetayo tada kimiwo shinjite
The loneliness really hurt us, but, believing in you

ずっとありがとう　その想いがあるから
Zutto arigatou sono omoiga arukara
Thank you for your love, we are sharing the same thoughts


悲しくなる　僕た ちの幸せは
Kanashikunaru bokutachino shiawaseha
We are sad to know that our happiness

僕たちの答えが　何か大切なものを知ってたんだ
Bokutachino kotaega nanika taisetsuna monowo mini coopertetanda
Our answer knows, what is the most important thing

安らぎだけで触れあえるものを　感じていたいのに涙がどんな時も
Yasuragi dakede fureaeru monowo kanjite itainoni namidaga donna tokimo
We just wanted to feel comfort, enjoying the closeness, but there are only tears

そう他の誰かではなく　めぐりあえた意味があるね
Sou hokano darekadehanaku meguriaeta imiga arune
There is a meaning that we were able to meet the only one

今　願いを話せるね
Ima negaiwo hanaserune
We are able to speak about our wishes now

そう君のための　僕でいたい
Sou kimino tameno bokude itai
We want to be our true selves, for you

忘れずにいてほしいよ
Wasurezuni itehoshiiyo
Please do not forget us


君だけに逢いたかったよ いつだって逢いたかったよ
Kimidakeni aitakattayo itsudatte aitakattayo
We wanted to see just only you, we always wanted to see you

今は抱きしめてい るよ　君のすべてを
Imaha dakishimete iruyo kimino subetewo
We are hugging you, hugging you entirely

微笑みを許してよ　ただ僕らのために
Hohoemiwo yurumini coopereyo tada bokurano tameni
Please forgive our smiles, they are just for our own

きっとこの先に　また光は射すから
Kitto konosakini mata hikariha sasukara
The light should stream when we can smile once again


君だけに逢いたかったよ　いつだって逢いたかったよ
Kimidakeni aitakattayo itsudatte aitakattayo
We wanted to see just only you, we always wanted to see you

気持ちを伝えるために　ここへ来たんだ
Kimochiwo tsutaerutameni kokohe kitanda
We came here to convey our feelings

寂しさも応えたよ　ただ 君を信じて
Samishisamo kotaetayo tada kimiwo shinjite
The loneliness really hurt us, but, believing in you

ずっとありがとう　その想いがあるから
Zutto arigatou sono omoiga arukara
Thank you for your love, we share the same feelings


君だけに逢いたかったよ　いつだって逢いたかったよ
Kimidakeni aitakattayo itsudatte aitakattayo
We wanted to see just only you, we always wanted to see you

今も抱きしめているよ　君のすべてを
Imamo dakishimete iruyo kimino subetewo
We are hugging you, hugging you entirely

微 笑みを許してよ　ただ僕らのために
Hohoemiwo yurumini coopereyo tada bokurano tameni
Please forgive our smiles, they are just for us

きっとこの先に また光が射すから
Kitto konosakini mata hikariga sasukara
The light should stream when we can smile once again

===
Another confession song to HM.
But i love this song to the max.
lovelovelove
Always keep the faith
Hope to the end.

A roller coaster day.

My day was like a roller coaster.
Haha.
That's the only thing i can think of to describe it.
Well the starting off of my day is still not bad.
Lunch with chooilin and beh.
Quite good moments.
Until i went to class.
Until i found that i don't have any assignment groups.
Until i found that the fucking tutor don't allow 5 person in a group and all my friends already formed into 4 person per group.
FUCK.
I'm all alone.
I went to ask the tutor whether can he allow me to join my friend's group.
He said no.
Maximum 4 person per group,
and you can do it alone,
i dont mind.
FUCK.
Money and Banking Management.
Assignment - alone.
I'm seriously going to hell then.
But do i have any other choice?
I don't know.
There's noone else i know in the class.
fuckfuckfuck.
I still don't know what should i do.
Have to submit to him the latest by next week.
What should i do?
After that went to lecture,
still okay mood better a bit.
Sitting with Jac and had some stupid chatting.
Till now i still feel that Jac and Hen resembles a little.
Just a little,
maybe.
Or maybe I just miss Hen too much.
Haha.
And the following lecture was so so.
6-8pm.
Killing.
Was so tired and moodless to listen to the lecture.
Anyhow,
the 6s sitting behind me,
and had a little chat with them.
Feeling a bit happy.
And after class,
when i was planning to walk home,
i reached the canteen at the lib and i realised it was raining.
And that time,
i keep sighing why am i so bad luck.
And suddenly a car caming over and i thought of letting it pass before i cross the road.
Then,
the car stopped.
It's a silver waja.
I look at the plate number.
Starts with P.
Look inside,
it's wei and chun!
And wei asked me how i back,
i told him walk,
then he offered me a ride.
So happy!
And then i went into the car,
talked a little,
and wei ask me whether to dinner together or not.
Happy!
But previously i asked annie and lihjia to dinner together so i thought all of us can have it together.
And that's how plan goes~
And and and.
Chun asked me to join Teluk Intan steamboat next monday.
Happyhappyhappy!
Ah~
I seriously miss the moments with them!
Although tai won't be joining us for the steamboat,
but i think we'll have a great time for sure!
Oh monday i can't wait for you to come!
And the dinner session is so much fun.
Had so many laughters.
Ah~
Great great great moments.
Afterall i think i have the happiest moments when i'm with them.
Only today it's just two of them.
Oh ya.
And chun asked me to join Muet test with them.
Chun Wei Joo Tai me in a group.
Weee~
The 6s is forming again.
Although without seng.
Seng u'll always in my heart!
:D
Ah i'm still so high right now.
Happyhappyhappy.
^^

Oh ya.
And i found a perfect picture to represent my feeling for the whole day.
A perfect match roller coaster to my mood.

^^
===
edit :
met gor when i went out yum cha just now.
Today is really a great great day!
And i found that it's really different kind of happiness.
Much more different.
And i'm very clear which kind do i prefer.
But,
well,
it's not like I can choose.

I always thought that you're one of my closest friend.
As i always find you when i'm feeling unhappy.
But i never realised that,
even you know a lot of things of mine,
I didn't know much about you.
Finally i realised about it tonight.
I'm ashamed for declaring myself as your close friend.
I'm not.
All the while...
I only care to talk about my things to you.
But about your thing,
i seriously don't know well.
Now only i know.
Sorry.
I'm.....
Sorry.

===
Thank you for the chat.
And thanks for sharing me your story,
telling me about your current and past personal stuff,
thanks for giving me confident and the thought that i'm one of the closest friend of yours too.
Thank you.
It's really great to have you.

5.29am

W

“W”
by JYJ.

Pure.
Love.

夜空に浮かんだ
Yozora ni ukanda
Materializing in the sky

星が文字を描き出すのは
Hoshi ga moji wo egaki dasu no wa
Were stars that spelled out a letter

偶然じゃないと
Guuzen janai to
Even now, I believe

今もまだ信じてるよ
Imamo mada shinjite ruyo
That isn’t a coincidence

同じ闇の中で
Onaji yamino nakade
Inside the same darkness

同じ距離のままで
Onaji kyori no mamade
Holding the same distance

W＜ダブル＞を描き続けている
Daburu wo egaki tsuzuketeiru
They keep spelling out the “W”

君に見つかるように
Kimi ni mitsukaru youni
So that you might be able to spot it

もっと輝くから
Motto kagayaku kara
We’ll shine even brighter

keep in mind that I love you.

きっと・・・
Kitto…
I believe…

いつか逢えるから
Itsuka aeru kara
We’ll meet someday

瞳 を閉じる度君を想う
Hitomi wo tojiru tabi kimi wo omou
You show up every time I close my eyes

君がいることが
Kimi ga iru koto ga
I still expect you

今もまだあたりまえなんだよ
Ima mo mada atarimae nandayo
To be standing right next to me

ただ今は君が幸せであると願い
Tada imawa kimi ga shiawase de aruto negai
All I dream for is for your happiness

僕 らの階段をひとつひとつ上っていくよ
Bokura no kaidan wo hitotsu hitotsu nobotte ikuyo
And step by step, we’ll climb our stairs

僕らはまだ僕らの未来を想像しながら
Bokura wa mada bokura no mirai wo sozou shinagara
We’ll keep on imagining our own future

君を待ってるよ
Kimi wo matteruyo
While we wait for you

きっと・・・
Kitto…
I believe…

いつか逢えるから
Itsuka aeru kara
We’ll meet someday

瞳を閉じる度君を想う
Hitomi wo tojiru tabi kimiwo omou
You show up every time I close my eyes

君がもう一度
Kimi ga mou ichido
One more time, you will
(T/N Junsu slipped up on the lyrics here :’)
supposed to be

君がいることが
Kimi ga iru koto ga
I still expect you）

今もまだあたりまえなんだよ
Imamo mada atarimae nandayo
To be standing right next to me

いつかもう一度
Someday, one more time
Itsuka mou ichido
(T/N Joongie messed up too, supposed to be 逢えるまで Aeru made Until we meet again)

君の居場所は守ってるよ
Kimi no ibasho wa mamotte iruyo
We’ll keep your spots safe

君ともう一度
Kimi to mou ichido
I believe that someday

笑えると信じているから
Waraeru to shinjite iru kara
We’ll be able to smile once again

“Please hold on…”

時が流れても
Toki ga nagaretemo
No matter how much time flows by

どんな痛みが待っていても
Donna itami ga matte itemo
No matter how much pain is waiting for us


君がいつまでも
Kimi ga itsumademo
僕たちの「プライド」なんだよ
Boku tachi no “puraido” nandayo
You are our “pride” forever.

夜空に浮かんだ
Yozora ni ukanda
The words that you whispered

星に君が呟いたのは
Hoshi ni kimi ga tsubuyaita no wa
To the materializing stars in the night sky

さよならじゃないと
Sayonara janai to
I believe, even now

今もまだ信じてるよ
Ima mo mada shinjite iruyo
That the words weren’t “goodbye”

同じ空の下で
Onaji sora no mini coopera de
Under the same sky

同じ夢を描き
Onaji yume wo egaki
We’ll draw out the same dream

W＜ダブル＞を探し続けている
Daburu wo sagashi tsuzukete iru
And we keep searching for the “W”

同じ 形のまま
Onaji katachi no mama
It’ll stay the same shape

ずっと輝くか ら
Zutto kagayaku kara
It’ll shine on forever

keep in mind that I love you.

逢いたくて
Aitakute
I miss you

きっと…
Kitto…
I believe…

いつか逢えるから
Itsuka aeru kara
We’ll meet someday


瞳 を閉じる度君を想う
Me wo tojiru tabi kimiwo omou
You show up every time I close my eyes

君がいることが
Kimi to mou ichido
I still expect you

今 もまだあたりまえなんだよ
Imamo mada atarimae nandayo
To be standing right next to me

いつか逢えるまで
Itsuka aeru made
Until we meet again

君 の居場所は守ってるよ
Kimino ibasho wa mamotteruyo
We’ll keep your spots safe.

君ともう一度
Kimi to mou ichido
I believe that someday

笑 えると信じているから
Waraeru to shinjite iru kara
We’ll be able to smile once again

===
Such a pretty song.
JYJ confessed their love and miss to HM in public.
Expressed into a song,
and performed as the last song in the Thanksgiving concert.
Teared.
How much i miss the heavenly voices of the 5 perfect vocals.
W
We will wait for you.
They already confessed to you.
The second time.
Cant you feel it?
Please.
Time to come back.
This isn't goodbye.
Always keep the faith.
Hope to the end.

Over the same issue again.

Feeling kinda frustrating about the same issue again.
Room sharing.
Seriously i don't actually mind sharing room with people.
But it all depends on who is that people.
As for my current case,
me and she,
studying in different school,
different course,
mixing with different friends,
having different lifestyle,
having different interest,
different personality,
and the most important thing is that i rarely can't find a topic to talk with her.
A chat for more than half an hour?
None, as i remember.
"No point staying together as stranger."
Yea it was damn awkward.
Even if i saw her outside,
sometimes we just smile or wave,
then we'll walk past each other.
I mean,
what's the point?
We're roommates.
To outsiders,
we're people that stay in a room together,
for almost a year.
We should be quite friend,
can get along well with each other.
But,
if you ask me how much do i know about her?
10%.
Even her full name also i knew through facebook.
And i bet she don't know my full name.

Yea sometimes i don't mind.
As her person was like quite cin cai and she always say she dont mind this and that.
But sometimes,
I really dislike staying in a same room with her.
Like now.
Both sitting in the same room,
with ear phone plugged on,
facing each laptop,
never talk with each other or even look at each other.
Even sometimes i'll glance over her side,
she'll just gave me *weirdsmile*"What?"*weirdsmile* face.
I felt.......
I don't know how to describe my feeling.
I just hope that i can get out of this room.
Out of this atmosphere.
But I cant do that everytime.

I'm sick of current situation.
But i got nowhere to go.
There's no more single room available.
And i've signed the fucking contract for another whole year.
How I wish that she would leave.
And that i can occupy the whole room,
or i can ask my friend to stay with me.
At least with my friend,
I can be more like myself.
I can have people to talk to when i'm boring.
I can share movie and songs with her,
sing together laugh together,
get her accompaniment when i'm sad.
But I can never get to do anything like this with my current roommate.
Never.

Ah~
Room sharing.
Sucks.
Roommate.
Sucks.
Someone please get me out of here.

I fell into gold hair adidas jersey!!!
*hearts*

ps : 700th post.

If i was to belong in any group,
it would be BGs only.

Sometimes i just feel like deleting all of them in my facebook.
So that my eyes will never sore,
and that i'll have no chance of seeing things that will sore my eyes and hurt my heart.

===
I can hear my heart cracking.
Once again.

Just realised i never post my genting photos in my blog.

Anyhow,
Editing photos is a very good thing to do when i'm emo.
A very good distraction.
Well i had a lot of hearting photos during my trip to genting.
Thanks to beh.
His photo taking is quite skillful.For certain pictures la.
Here are some of my favorites genting photos.


Genting.
With the symbolic logo,
and symbolic colourful building.

Me hearts lion.

I just love this combination.
I look like just a contented kiddo.

Great imitating skill.
Hearts the middle pic.
Never know my pose is that sweat.

Nature.
Natural.
Smile.

No description.

Yeah.
That's my happy smile.

No description #2.

There's a green version of that very nice pic.
But personally prefer the red one.

===
Thank you photoscape for distracting me from my emo-ness.
Thank you seng for listening and accompanying.
Although i feel like i'm waiting for ages for your reply and ur new photo.
Anyhow i think i'm feeling better right now.

===
Seng!!!
Your pic totally made my day!
Hahahahaha.
Thank you.
Public-recognised professional poser.
:D

Of all sudden i feel like crying.

Just realised Ekit has a blog.
But an abandoned one.
Saw something interesting.

Think a figure (x).
Add 52.8,
times it by 5,
Minus 3.9343,
divide it by 0.5,
finally minus the figure that u use earlier and times 10.

x + 52.8 x 5 - 3.9343 / 0.5 - (x x 10)

The answer is freaking awesome and romantic.
Too bad i have noone to show to at the current moment.
Anyhow,
it's super amazing.

===
Just realised I never joined the 6s for a whole sem already.
Of all sudden,
i miss all the people who's there for me during my toughest moment.
The period that my days were meaningless.
Without them,
there'll be no light in my days.
No motivation.
No laughs.
6s, szumun, fion, elaine, peng.
I will never forget what you gave me.
Time, patience, care, accompaniment.
I promise i will be there anytime if you need me.
I will treasure u all to the max.
Even if you don't anymore.
I will.
Because if there were no you,
there will not be me today.

If i have to suffer from constant pain for this happiness,
i rather don't want it in my life.

fucktard.

I'm really pissed.
Why am i pissing off over the same thing everytime i back to Ipoh?
Cant you give me a more peaceful and happy moments when i back home?
Don't you ever get that feeling,
when you're spending time happily with ur friends outside and suddenly a phone call demanding you to go back.
It was like damn sou heng.
While people are enjoying halfway and you have to leave.
Fuck.
And it's just 12am this time.
ONLY 12am,
for god's sake.
Can't you just let me go?
Hands off on me before it's too late.
Please?

Sometimes it's not that i don't want to tell you where i'm going.
Is that if i told,
i might not get the permission to go,
or i'll get a lot of questions and nagging before i go.
And that will be like killed off half of my mood.
And that feeling is seriously shit.
Can you just accept the fact that I'm already grown up,
and i have my own social world,
that i know how to take care of myself,
and please hands off and let me go.
I'm sick of frustrating and angrying over the same issue everytime i back Ipoh.
I'm sick of it.
I'm tired.
I'm seriously pissed.

I came home everytime after you demand me to.
It's not that i'm scare.
What do i scare of?
I'm doing so out of respect,
mum.
I RESPECT YOU.
Can you please give me back equal respect that i gave you?
Be glad that i'm still respecting you.
And please hands off your control on me before it's too late.
I'm rebellious.
And i'm on the edge now.
Any moment,
i'll gone off,
and farewell to your little daughter.

When i have no more patience and respect on you,
please don't blame me.
Blame it on yourself.
Think what you did to me.
You pushed me to this edge.
You made this me.

Jason Walker - Down

Jason Walker - Down

I don't know where I'm at.
I'm standing out the back,
And I'm tired of waiting.

Waiting here in in line,
Hoping that I'll find
What I've been chasing

I shot for the sky
I'm stuck on the ground
So why do I try?
I know I'm gonna fall down.
I thought I could fly,
So why did I drown?
You never know why
It's coming down, down, down.

Not ready to let go.
Cause then I'll never know
What I could be missing.

But I'm missing way too much.
When do I give up
What I've been wishing for?


I shot for the sky
I'm stuck on the ground
So why do I try?
I know I'm gonna fall down.
I thought I could fly,
So why did I drown?
You never know why
It's coming down, down, down.

Oh, I'm going down, down, down.
I can't find another way around
And I don't wanna hear the sound
Of losing what I've never found.

I shot for the sky
I'm stuck on the ground
So why do I try?
I know I'm gonna fall down.
I thought I could fly,
So why did I drown?
I'll never know why
It's coming down, down, down.

I shot for the sky
I'm stuck on the ground
So why do I try?
I know I'm gonna fall down.
I thought I could fly,
So why did I drown?
Oh,It's coming down, down, down.

Happy Birthday 0406.

Happy 24th Birthday,
Yoo Chun love.
Have a blissful day with people you love.

~Always keep the faith.
Hope to the End.~

The weather is freaking hot today.
And i got headache almost the whole day.
The worst part is before i want to go for class.
I had a nap at 4pm and getting up at 5pm,
thought of preparing for 6pm class.
But when i woke up,
my head felt like bursting.
It's really suffering.
And the weather is super hot.
Thus,
with debt's advise,
i went back to sleep and skipped my Basic Econometric first lecture.
Well it's only the first lecture so i guess.......
It's okay.
Gua.

Waking up at 8.50pm.
A super long nap i'd had.
And went out for badminton with my Ee family at 9 something.
Went back to the old place where i used to go with my 6s.
And now,
memories covering another.
Covering the old,
past.
Maybe that's what i need.
For everything.
I need new memories to cover.
And that my life will be a lot easier.

Anyhow,
i had different kind of happiness now.
It's not like what i had with them,
but it's something else that i enjoy.
I treasure.

Start.

Attended 2 lectures today.
And i started to feel stress.
Money and Banking Management.
Although i just attended quarter of the lecture,
i already felt that this subject is not going to be an easy subject.
So,
I don't think i can skip the lecture anymore in future.
Perhaps.
Will be having Basic Econometrics tomorrow.
6-8pm fuck.
What is the point of letting us to arrange our own timetable as only 1 lecture is provided.
Fuck utar.
I know i'll be super lazy to go to school at such hour but i have no choice.
The subject name shows me that it's like quite hard.
Sigh.

Short pasar-malam walking and dinner with the EEs today.
Chose RCM gang over them for the yumcha session.
Sorry family.
RCM wont be having anymore yumcha after week 1.
And friday i'm not able to join so,
yea tonight might be the last yumcha of mine with them.
Good times too.
:)

And my uncle 5 added me in facebook.
LOL.
Okay one more person to beware of in fb.

A day without class.

I have no classes today.
Well i did have a tutorial in the morning but 1st tutorial is unnecessary to attend so i chose not to go.
And i thought that i can have a great long sleep until noon.
But i was waken around 9 something by my friend asking me to go for breakfast.
=______________='"
Well, i lose.
And i got up and gone out.

Kinda great day today.
Breakfast with chooilin and kyan.
Then went tesco for a little walk,
bought my Lexus choco biscuit,
and a packet of Mister Potato :D
I still haven't eat it yet.

And spend the afternoon at kyan's room.
Singing and singing and singing.
And playing cards.
And resting.
Haha.
Such a relaxing life.
Yea it's 1st week.
What else do you expect?

And i had my dinner today with my foundation mates.
And my opportunity cost is badminton moments with my EE family.
Well,
can always join them next time.

For later night i chose to join my RCM mates.
As i said my EE family i can always join them next time.
Shouldn't be a problem.
I don't want to let myself stick on with a fix gang.
Cuz once they abandon you,
you'll lose with nothing left.
It hurts.
And it's depressing.
I'm not going to let it happen once again.
Anyhow i had a very great time with RCM mates.
Knew few more people too.
:)

Network spreading still in process.
On-going.
And never gonna stop in a short period.

I finished Vampire Diaries.
Very nice series.
I chose Damon over Stefen.
Haha.
Damon hearts.

Ah~
The weather is so great tonight.
Guess i can have a great sleep.
If noone is going to wake me and ask me for breakfast tomorrow.
My class is at 4pm.
:)
I can sleep without setting alarm.
Haha.
Nitez folks.

1st day of Year 2 Sem 1.
A super tiring day.
Totally exhausted.
As im sorta like a guide to my friends today.
And i've been walking from block I to block A,
back forth,
more than once.
So,
yeah.
Guess i have quite adequate amount of exercise today.

Some fucker immitated me in using my name as msn account.
He/she approached serene and elaine.
Be careful don't be the next one,
my loves.
You should know how do i talk.
The stupid idiotic chat obviously is not from me.

And i think i'll just take 7 subject this sem.
Yea it's tough.
But it's better to be tough now than later.
I just need to be more hardworking.
Yea.
After week 3.
LOL.

Actually i'm super tired and sleepy currently.
But i'm waiting my dl to complete.
Have no class tomorrow.
I can sleep until as late as i want.
And the weather is so cooling tonight.
GREAT.
And i'm going to finish Vampire Diaries tomorrow.
Woohoo.

Ah and i just done cleaning my fb friend list.
Super tiring.
I used around 3 hours on it i think.
Woots.
So i'm currently having a clean friend list in fb.
Well i don't care if i have thousand over friends.
I don't want to show off or anything.
It's better to have lesser amount of true friends than thousand over strangers.

Yes my download completed at just the right time.
Sleep now.
Nitez.