Am fallen into temporary short-term crush.
LOL.
Went dinner just now.
Saw Mr Smart and Mr Charm.
Well at first i was kinda into Mr Smart but after i saw his ring on his 4th finger.
I gave up.
But overall he's, not bad.
And too bad ended up no photo.
No phone.
Mr Charm is actually better.
LOL.
Look-me-him-look.
How many times d?
LOL.
But ended up no phone number.
Aihhhhhh.
But now the dinner has over.
We left with no contact methods.
When can i see you again?
:)

Fuck 9 the bloody babi betina bitch!
Motherfucker.
You're a coward but u want to ask for payment.
So why don't you dare to wait for my parents to come?
Bitch.
Coward.
Don't talk to me as if you're the whole world.
Even if you sue me also you wont win for 100%!
What did i do?
The tiny little scratch for not more than 1cm length and 1mm width.
You want me to pay you for what??
Re-paint?!
WTF.
Babi betina memangnya babi,
Otaktu tak tau kat mana.
Fuck you bitch!
I offer 20 bucks is more than what you deserve!
I won't pay a cent for you kinda of brainless creature!
Low class lifeless bloody bitch.
Aren't you want me pay for you to repaint your car?
Why do you flee halfway?
And why are u so scare when i'm talking to you?
Fucker.
Who on earth are you to capture my driving license?
Want capture just go to the police station.
Make things a lot easier.
Fuck the coward bitch who act like she's brave and right in anything!
AGT 8848.
Don't ever let me see your bloody cheap saga on road.
I'll fuck 7 u 99 niama 467.

KJJ u win d.


I thought i'm going to dye a medium blonde hair for this year.
But u got a lighter and a sharper one.
U win d lor.

Happy birthday debt!

Debbie Soo Xiao Ying!
Happy 20th birthday!
Finally you're officially 20 so u can no longer laugh at Jo!
And i can laugh at you!
Hahahaha.
Still remember your birthday for last year?
The birthday cake time.
Me and sem sing your birthday song for you.
Do you want it again this year?
Me and poh will not hesitate to sing for you in public.
Just for u nia.
Hahaha.

We're been friends for 8 years.
Best friends for 6 years.
BFFL for the following years that we're going to spend together.
Although we can only meet each other few times in a year,
glad that our relationship will not fade.
I seriously feel that my friendship with you are like magic.
LOL.
We have totally different character but we're best ever buddies.
How can it be?
LOL.

Anyway,
hope you'll have a happy day 2mr.
Hope that me and poh can give u a happy day 2mr.
Love u as always.
Happy 20th birthday.

A picture worth a thousand words.
Well, i take that as a picture.
With words.

===
Slept from 4.30pm to 11.30am today.
Another incredible record.
Sometimes even me are impressed by myself.
LOL.
Well this can show that how tired am i in the past week.
Not only physical but also mentally.
I'm seriously tired of all things happened.
I know it wont change.
But i just hope that my fate can change.
I'm tired of being dim.
Please give me some sunlight.

Finally got my laptop today.
Thank god.
And i can restore back my old data.
But i left out my pictures.
Sweat.
Will try to make it myself later or tomorrow.
I already done it all by myself. :D

Although i slept for so long,
i'm actually feeling sleepy since 2 hours ago.
Which is around 11 something.
LOL.
What happened to me?

Thanks for saying that i'm not troublesome.

But for the another factors,

they's still undeniable facts.

Had great time during class yesterday!

Especially times when we join into soh's class.

It was like laughing non-stop for half an hour.

although my soul was like half dead.

Super tiring class schedule.

Went out for more than 12 hours.

And i never sleep more than 5 hours for the previous nights.

@@

Anyway,

today is a class-free day.

And will be going back ipoh later for movie.

Hopefully it will be a happy day.

Suddenly i miss seng.

:(

126 bless

126

126

126

Still don't get why i love this so much.

Jae's influenzaaaaaaa.

But thanks to the 126 bless.

I finally got a brighter day.

At least it's better than the previous ones i guess.

Walked from my house to block H today.

Luckily the weather was quite cool in the morning.

So it's fine to walk like this i guess.

But when i went into KTAR,

memories still flowing back...

Well i already prepared for it,

although still feeling a bit harsh,

but overall i'm alright.

And quite surprising the journey only takes me 30 minutes.

I suppose it will be longer.

Good.

Next time i can go just half and hour earlier.

To be fast,

i think i can reach within 20 minutes.

Woots.

Had great laugh during the credit lecture today.
Thanks to sam's magic jokes.

LOL.

Really wonder where he learn those seriously.

Lame enough.

Hahaha.

And spent my night with my foundation mates.

Met with the long lost ones.

Had great times~~~

Hahaha.

And got ffk by melon for tomorrow.

Ish.

Cny ma i wait u.

I'm still in contact with him.

So far i think the progress is good.

Phew.

Luckily it didn't make me regret for taking this step.

And from fb,

now to phone.

Getting back as friend?

Hope so.

Welcome back, mate.

Happy 126

126

My favorite day in the year.

I love this day more than my own birthday.

126

My favorite number among all.

Because of you.

My one and only king.

Happy 24th Birthday,

Kim Jae-Joong.

I'll try to make myself happy in this wonderful day of yours.

I vow my eternal love to you.

helpless

Before i write anything i would like to emphasize.

I'm in a super unhappy mode.

And my post might offend you.

But please keep one thing in mind.

This is my blog.

I write whatever i like.

If you dislike,

just fuck off from my blog!

I never welcome people like you as well.

I can't get any idea of where to start.

Since the last week of my holiday,

my mind is going down down down.

Or maybe should i say since the start of the spoilt of my laptop?

Yeah i guess so.

Since then,

everything seems so unsmooth.

Outings case.

The 3's case.

Seng's case.

Then back to here.

The cases.

So so so many unhappy things keep on appearing.

Why are you blocking my way?

I thought i can have a happy 2010.

But it seems like the reality is going the other way round.

I seriously never wish to depend on any of you.

Do you think i am really so thick face and feel very good for asking your favour everytime?

Sorry.

I'm not that kind of person.

I felt bad too, while I ask.

But what else can I do?

I felt helpless.

And i don't dare to face the thing that i'm fear of all the time.

That's the reason.

But what i get back seriously disappointed me.

Or in other words,

hurts me.

Do i really gave you all so many troubles?

Am I really that troublesome?

Sorry.

My brain can't function well these days and i cannot differentiate which is a joke and which is the truth.

I've been in a very unstable condition for a very long time.

I found no way to solve.

Helpless.

When you ask me for favor,

did i ever grumble a word?

I don't think so.

Well,

I'm not saying that people are selfish.

You are not.

But just sometimes,

well,

as friend cant you be more understanding?

But can't blame..

You don't know my situation.

Cause you never care.

Things changed back here.

The one who know everything of mine is no longer here for me as well.

I was left alone here.

Trying to find the way to survive on my own.

How pathetic.

Now i have to start things all over again.

From the point of zero.

And guess i have to face my fear that i've been avoiding for 6 months.

Under a very indescribable condition,

i re-contact with him.

And i think i might start to accept his presence in my life again?

As a friend.

The partial chat today reminds me how i used to miss chatting with him.

If we really back to last time,

i mean before we start a relationship,

i believe i can put my trust on him.

But for now i'm not sure.

I not sure whether my care for him is intimate care or friend's care.

But anyhow,

I still cares.

I guess i need some time to figure it out.

But i guess right now for what i did,

it's a good start.

At least i hope so.

I see obstacles on the road in front of me.

Blocking my way.

And i no longer got people to help me.

What should i do?

I'm tired of overcoming them alone.

I need aid.

But i'm helpless.

Anyone willing to give me a hand?

Set me free from this land of sorrow.

Noone even bother where am I today.

The feeling of being abandon sucks.

===

I'm very unhappy.

Feel like the world is leaving me behind.

Alone.

I want to cry.

IRIS fever and i'm fell for T.O.P

===

Finally finished Iris.

A very nice drama.

But why everyone have to die in the end?

Such saddening ending.

FUCK 9 BLOODY SNS!

Don't act like as if you have it while you actually don't have!

Fucktard!

At least i think i got back some brother love.

A really long lost one.

Thanks gor.

First day of Year 1 Sem 3.

Late for half an hour for the first lecture.

Had a super boring-full-of-shit-lectures-first day.

But i think i'm happy today.

At least i still can feel that we're still a gang.

Although seng is no longer joining.

Well,

things will change.

Do not expect what to happen.

Or else what you'll get is disappointment.

Mood was greyish recently.

But not suit to blog it here.

I need a mouth and a pair of ears.

But seems that i can't find them right here, right now.

When can i get'em?

I think i'm getting.

Unlike me.

It's the start of another new sem again.

With so many changes.

A new start.

But i'm still unhappy.

I don't want to back to Kampar.

I don't want to back to school.

Everything will be so different.

I wish time could pause.

Still can't make any decision.

Fuck warranties!

And met something very hurting today.

Friends?

LOL.

Keep it.

Fuck it.

Tomorrow?

Honestly i'm not looking forward to it.

AT ALL.

===

NO WAY NO WAY NO WAY!

I CANNOT ACCEPT IT!!!

!@#$%^&*() - 2

黄子华栋笃笑 is keeping me alive.

Have some laughters through the day thanks to that.

I'm still,

kinda moody,

in fact.

I'm very unhappy.

!@#$%^&*()_+ - #1

Things are going so unsmooth recently.

Is it weird to be stress even without any exams or school or relationship?

Fear.

As in, fear for what?

I'm not sure either.

Him?

Ya. Part of it.

I don't want school to start.

Seriously at the moment i'm really glad that i didn't go back for orientation helper.

I'd saw the photos they uploaded.

The amount of people i know are less than 10.

So if i went,

only 2 possibilities.

Either i'll be happy and will get to know more friends,

or i'll be bored to hell.

I guess the second one are nearer to the reality.

Wondering what will the next sem looks like for me.

I don't think i have the courage to go through the ktar yet.

What should I do?

Avoid is no longer the way i can or i wanted to take.

Year 1 sem 3.

Am I actually afraid of your presence?

I wonder...

dead.

My laptop is dead.

And i'm feeling so dead.

Someone please rescue my laptop please?

Hmmmmmm

What to blog?
No idea.
Still can't really see my hair colour.
Well i guess it will be more obvious after i wash it for few days.
Don't be too shock to see me on Tues and Wed i hope?
LOL.

Not very sure what's wrong with my nerves these days.
Sleepy feel attacks me so early in the night.
It's just 1am or more.
And i start to feel darn sleepy.
WTH.

I'm left with 1 week of holiday.
It's far not enough!!!
I want more give me more!!!
Sigh.
Now i felt glad that i manage to quit orientation helper.
If not i guess i might die of exhaustion.

Another target for my new year.
I want to put down everything.

done

look damn retarded.
I seriously need get rest and proper treatment for my bloody face.
And diet.
Anyway,
just got my hair dyed :)
How was it?


===
As for my previous question in a few posts ago,
i've got my answer.
I'm not ready yet.
It still hurts.
A bit.

F.CUZ

F.CUZ = Four Cuz = Focus
Debut date : 8 Jan 2010

Company : CAN&J Entertainment

- Jinon -
Real Name: Kim Jin Chul (김진철)
Position: Leader, Rapper, Dance
Date of Birth: July 13, 1989 (age 20)
Height: 183cm
Weight: 68kg


- LeeU -

Real Name: Lee Seung Hyun (이승현)

Position: Main Vocalist

Date of Birth: March 20, 1990 (age 19)

Height: 179cm

Weight: 63kg

- Kan -

Real Name: Choi Young Hak(최영학)

Position: Dance, Rapper, Vocal

Date of Birth: September 30, 1991 (age 18)

Height: 184cm

Weight: 72kg

- Ye Jun -

Real Name: Shim Ye Jun (심예준)

Position: Lead Vocalist

Date of Birth: February 4, 1992

Height: 182cm

Weight: 67kg

I went to the land of forbidden again.

And i'm out without a single drop of tear.

Felt so happy!

But am i ready yet?











===
Although i didn't cry,
but i'm insomnia.
It's already 5am.

update

Hello~
Today is my resting day.
LOL
Finally i can get back some sleep.
Well i failed to sleep more than 12 hours.
I've woke after around 9 hours sleep.
Maybe too hot i think.
I never on air con and i'm wearing long sleeves.
Well that's why.

And i quit orientation helper.
Not that i'm lazy.
Because i got no transport to back to Kampar.
And my dad seems a little bit... don't know how to say.
So,
sigh.
I choose to quit.
Sorry for the last minute.
I'm really guilty.

Anyway,
I've finally finished 富贵门 today and i'm not afraid if you tell me the storyline again!
And i've watched Baby and Me.
Not very nice ni ler..
But Jang Geuk Suk is damn leng zai!
And baby manson is super cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And result is out today.
Well,
im super afraid when im checking my result.
Really no cheating im seriously very scare that i will fail my marketing.
But ends up,
I got a B+.
Well,
at that moment i felt damn touched don't know why.
A bit feel like crying.
Maybe because all the while i was damn no confident with it.
And end up i got a B+.
What else can i say more than satisfy?
I dare not look for more.
And got a B for english and a pass for stupid sejarah.
I guess overall it was ok.
Sigh.
I never get an A for my degree.
I must achieve it in the coming sem.

===
Well upload the porn catalog photo.
Haha.
just got it from hen yesterday :D
And many blur case lor.

Take 1

Take 2
Jo u damn sok jek

Take 3
I love this!

Take 4
The only photo with no blur case.

===
And yesterday i brought my ah ba from Taiping to visit the caves in ipoh.
=)
I haven get pics from him yet.
Shall upload when i got them.

Live long?
I rather live short with funs rather than long but boring.

And after that we went to JJ for chipmunks.
Damn in love with chipmunks!
So damn cute and funny!

Cheese :D

Haha.
Me*ChooiLin with the chipmunks.

===
PC fair starts tomorrow!
And gotta find some activities for my remaining holiday~
But i guess my mum will kill me if i keep going out.
Sigh~

Another Girls Outing

Another quite-huge gathering that i'm kinda looking forward to.

Actually wanted to see SzuMun because she's going back to UK a few hours later.

But too bad,

she couldn't make it.

Another great snail.

Went for mamak the day before and end up today diarrhea and cant come out.

So smart.

You see how am i going to treat you when i finally got to see u.

Thank you Jo for making it.

Thank you Krys for making it.

=)

Tada~

Our group pic + hen's friend.

Nog i don't have ur pic.

Nvm la.

And today is to celebrate hen's bday.
Well this is all nog's idea.

I'm just helping + making it a gathering.

So that people can see each others.

=)

Well this is always my job.

Acting as the core of connections.

Happy belated birthday jek~*

Really don't kill me for planning this.

The long-lost-one-thinner-one-chubbier-twins.


Nanny krys~*
I love u so much jek~
And your banana cake is so delicious!
I wanna try more next time.
Bake more cakes and cookies~~~!!!


Hen*Me*Nanny
I miss this combination so much.


Fion*Su*Poh*Jo
The rice clan.

3 rice clan + udon.

And after that 4 of us went for Avatar.

Well me and su are going for the second time.

Although i always wish for the second time,

but today i found that it isn't that nice to watch at second time.

And the seat is very, very uncomfortable.

+ Im exhausted and cold.

Conclusion : Even if the movie is very nice, shouldn't go for the second time.

I love this pic jek~*

I know u love it too because we're at the same height.

We're the vest couple
muahahaha


My beloved maid on earth~*

My hand is seriously tired.

Okay final one.

===

Im very happy in this outing.

I hope all of you enjoy it too :)

And as i said,

it's still time for this holiday.

This will not be our final outing.

See you girls again soon!

Dating On Earth

‘Dating On Earth’ is a story about the school and married life between a high school student who’s also a husband (Micky YooChun) and his form teacher (Seo HyeonJin); the other 4 has been casted as YooChun’s classmates whereby JaeJoong is a transfer student.

JaeJoong has lost his parents when he was young and has grown up in a lonely environment. In the drama, he will fall in love with his form teacher; whereby he will end up being in a love triangle with YooChun and his wife.

Characters Introduction:

Micky YooChun: A high schooler who falls in love with his form teacher and got married to her.
Hero JaeJoong: Falls in love with his form teacher and ends up in a love triangle.
UKnow YunHo: A handsome head councillor but was always harsh with his words, and who bullies YooChun.
Xiah JunSu: A friend of YooChun, who is innocent, smart but immodest.
Max ChangMin: A buddy of JunSu, heir of a big successful organization.
Seo HyeonJin: Yoochun’s Form Teacher.

Drama pictures :

Well i'm jae-bias.
As you always know.

He looks damn pretty in that hair.
4 years ago.
Time flies.

Bad student in school.

Sexy yoo chun~

So cute!

Aww this scene.
Sigh.

Poor thing
T______________________T

So sweet.
And they always wear couple shirt in the drama.
And couple pyjamas too!!!

===
Finally the drama is out!
After 4 years!
And finally i watched it!
A very nice drama.
It didn't disappoint me :)
And i teared at the end.
The ending is so beautiful~
With the scene of paper aeroplanes floating around~
And and and.
My favourite scene in the drama is when jaemick hold hands.
LOL.

Now that i've finish Heaven's Postman,
and Dating On Earth.
Heading to the Ground too.
Seems like I'm left with Paradise Meadow.
But from both DOE and HP,
I can really see the improvement of jae's acting.
In HP he seriously improved a lot.
Well done wuli JJ!
Well,
Waiting for the on screen time of PM!

Review of 2009

Its already 2010.
I'm going to blog a review as usual.
But I guess it will not be as long as the past.
I think so.

2009.
Well it changed my life a lot.
A lot of 180 degrees changes of my life in this year.
The one that affects the most is being single once again.
I was once fell,
and now i am standing again.
Honestly i never expect i will heal so soon.
Not totally heal but i mean can stand again.
Its already 5 months.
I though i might use longer time to be fine.
But seems like I'm doing quite fine.
Which is a good news for me and people who cares for me.
Being single for 5 months but i felt that i'm much more happier than before.
Maybe i shall make this decision earlier?
To avoid those heart aching moments and the dragging of problem.
Love is not everything.
Love for ones might change.
It might fade.
And once it happened in one of the party,
the other will have no other choice but to let go.
In this year,
i've learnt this.
Love is selfish.
It is useless even when you still love him that much but his heart is no longer with you.
You're the only one who suffer.
Not him.
He won't care and he will carry on his own life,
searching for new girls.
That's guy.
Freaking scary creature that can let go a relationship in such a short time.
Well it's very obvious that i'm mentioning someone here.
Anyway,
whatever.
His presence changed me a lot and effected me a lot.
I don't think i ever regret for being with him in the past year.
But i regretted for something i did.
And i should have solve the problem between us earlier.
Shall not hesitate it because i still love him.
Even now that i'm still loving him.
Nothing will change.
Thank you for being my boyfriend for 1 year and 2 months.
And accompanying me in this year for 7 months.
Giving me happy and memorable moments.
Let's hope that i can totally let go of you in my heart in this year.
I don't hope to bring it forward anymore.

2009 is definitely the year of friends.
I've gained back so many old friends,
and meet up with some new friends.
The friends i mean is as in real friends.
Not the hi bye ones.
After i back to single,
I started to in contact with old friends of mine.
BGs.
Classmates.
Schoolmates.
As time goes on,
the people that i reconnect with are getting more.
And i'm so happy with that.
And i've knew my classmates in Sem 1.
The 6s.
I think the best thing in 2009 is that i knew them.
All of them.
Although I might not be so close to one or two of them.
Or i might not know much things about you guys although you knew mine.
But it doesn't matter.
We still had super lots of fun together.
And i found that since i'm back to single,
I've been going out super often.
The outing time both in Kampar and Ipoh are crazy.
No wonder my mum got mad with me at times.
Anyway,
i've grown.
She shall give me more freedom to go out and stuff.
2009, the year of friends.
I'm really loving it.
Friends are the one who support and accompany me while i'm down.
Without you girls, and you guys,
my life wouldn't be this fun.
And i probably can't walk out from his shadow so soon.
Thank you so much.

Hmm my mind is a bit blank.
It is so much different with my review post years before.
Anyway,
will edit if i think of anything else.

One more thing.
I'm glad that i spent the last day of 2009 and first day of 2010 with my dear friends and get to see the pretty fireworks!

2009 i no longer fears you or hates you.
Thanks to the presence of my friends, i loved you.
And 2010,
i hope you will bring me more colourful moments!
Stepping into a brand new decade of fun and laughters!

Penang Countdown + Travelling.

Hello everyone~*
Happy 2010~!
May everything get better in a brand new year :D

As i mentioned in my previous posts,
i went to Penang for a 3 days 2 nights trip.
It really damn fun!
3 days is definitely not enough.
must go for longer next time!
Well,
the next time might be soon :)
Don't know ler~

The first day we went for eat only.
We ate laksa, char kuey teow, lok lok, curry mee, wanton mee, dai lok min, o-jian on the first day.
Anymore i left out?
walau.
we really ate a lot on the first day lor.
Hahaha.
And the grape juice really super nice!
And where else we went on Wed night?
I only remember we got lost at Perai.
Hahaha.

Start of with a funny picture.
Haha.
Poor ah seng need to wait outside his friend house for so long to get inside.
And the act cute tai.

Me and Tai~*
Why i look so dark ==
Anyway,
if not ah tai coming and pui me take bus to Penang,
this trip is not going to be real also.
Thank you so much ah tai!

The first day sleep around 2 something if i'm not mistaken.
And.
I.
Forgot.
To.
Bring.
My.
Toothbrush.
Aih.
Well.
Hmm.
Anyway,
2nd day i woke at 10am.
I am so punctual and i go get bath and get ready before 11am.
but then,
wei and tai is still sleeping.
I went woke them at 11am.
Tai woke.
Then i went woke wei at 12pm again.
After awhile,
finally he woke.
Wasted the morning lor duno who say 10am one.
Ended up cannot go eat Hokkien Mee and Kek Lok Si laksa d lor :(
Wai hum #1 and #2.
And went ate the chicken rice that serve with laksa soup for lunch.
So nice~
I drank that soup ok.
Don't always say i cannot eat spice!
And after that we went over Penang island around 2pm.
Sigh~
My avatar 3D
T_____________________________T
Wai hum #3.
Anyway,
afterthat we watched Cirque de Quor : The Vampire Assistance.
Not bad la the movie.

After movie at Gurney,
we left to buy the biscuits that tai want.
So cute ler the dolls for the shop.
Haha.

See the baby statue.
Haha.

Me and ah tai~*
Eh please next time take pic with me don't stand so straight.

After that we went long gai awhile~
And went to Queensbay Mall.

Super nice sunset pic.
100% no edit.

Batman!
But very fake lor.
And i closed my eyes lor yer.

I should bend a bit like her.
Hahaha.

See i hold hand with him~
Haha.
but actually there's a board writing "Please do not touch".

Batman logo!
+ our shadow.
Haha.

Finally wei take pic with me!
Hahaha.

Haihz.
Please bend a bit with take pic with me next time.
Thank you.

The stage decoration for Batman show in Queensbay!
Actually the stage quite nice ler~

Met with ah seng at Queensbay~

The four of us.
4/6
I love this pic so much jek~

Countdown for 2010!
Haha so fun :D
Had so many laughters.

The 3 of us~
Haha you promote P1 Wimax meh ah tai.
==

The stage and the crew + the artists.
Well,
can't really see one lor actually.

you want pek yau meh.
==

wei very inactive that night.
so tired meh?
haha.

5.
4.
3.
2.
1.
Happy new year~~!!!

My fav firework photo!

So nice~

Bok bok bok~*

The final part is the nicest!
but i guess cannot capture.
Thank you ah seng for taking the firework pictures hahaha!

After that we went to McD and hang until 2 something.
And when we back over to Butterworth it took almost 1 hour for jamming at the bridge.
Anyway,
had a fun time and trilling moments as well.
Wei you really pro.
Next time really be more careful.
Haha.

And guess what???
We're eating J. Co donut at 5am.

So nice jek see the colors~~~
Yum yum yum~

Actually i'm about to going to die that time.
Hahaha.

My angle photo taking of donuts.
i want to get a more pro camera.
Not DSLR but lomo cam.

yum yum yum~

Smiley donut :D
This is the leftover.
Hahaha.
Actually this is wei's.
And we're sleeping at 5stg.

The next day which is today,
waking at 11am.
Quite late ler so no chance to eat the duck rice that recommend by wei.
Nevermind.
There are always a next time.
And we back after lunch le..

3 days passed so fast.
Really not enough ler.
Wish to stay longer AND i can watch my Avatar 3D.
Sigh~
Got so many wai hum ah.
Anyway,
glad that i went for this trip.
No regret wakakaka.
Very enjoyable moments.
And had a great start for 2010.
Thank you so much guys!
Happy new year folks!