I loves photoshop.
It can turn over a photo's feeling,
or strengthen the feel.
Magic.

===
Almost forgot that i still have another midterm tomorrow.
But somehow don't have the mood to study.
What should i do?

===
Heart feeling a bit heavy.
You're leaving, once again.
Nice flight,
my dear.

Final day. CNY.

so unlike me in this pic.
LOL.
Whatever.
I love it.
Emo feel.
Although im not very sure if it gives people emo feel or not.
Anyway,
don't give a damn about that.

2 tests down.
Over.
Finally.
But it kicked off a start.
1 more heading next week.
Another 3 for the following week.
Kill me please.

Feel sick of blogging the same old thing all over and over again.
Readers will be bored as well.
Yea things still unchanged for months.
So things that i blog will be the same old topic.
whatsoever.
Sick of it.
Bored of it.
Used to it.

It's the last day of CNY.
But i'm not at home.
In this land of shit.
Doing what?
Doing nothing.
But i didn't feel regret for staying.
Maybe because i'm numb.
Numb numb numb.
Or because i'm really tired.
Time over here might crawl like tortoise,
but it might fly as rocket as well.
But usually unhappy moments crawl,
and happy moments fly.

So here comes the end of CNY.
I had a very nice CNY this year.
Minus the unlucky part.
Overall it's still okay.
I'd had a lot of fun.
Meet with a lot of people.
Ate a lot of food.
CNY for 2010.
Not bad.
:)
Hope my last day will be having something special or meaningful,
to give it a perfect end.
:)

and I love my king, btw.

He's still charming as ever.

Attractive as ever.

With the killing gaze.

I want to look at you face to face one fine day.
Grant me please?
:)

Happy last day of CNY and Happy Chinese Vday people.
:)L

对于任何的事情，
任何的人，
都不要再存任何希望了。

算了吧。
这句话真容易说出口。
我已经说过多少次了呢？
数不清了。
可是，
没有一次是真的能做到的。

算了吧。
我何时才能正真的算了呢？


===
If you really dislike me.
Please tell me.
Stop acting that you cares me.
That u friend with me.
I don't know how to face a multi-faced people.
If you want to be friend with me,
be real.
If you hate/dislike me,
come and fuck me but stop pretending that u're okay with me.
And stop doing that.
I hate it.
Very much.
I don't give a damn to people like you.

===
算了。
断了。
放了。

这次真的，

算了吧。

Can't believe that i manage to sleep until 3.30pm today.
And got a very cheer-able message when wake.
:)
Congrats pui yee!
:D
And i only had my meal at around 8pm.
Only one meal for the day.
LOL.

Started and ended with my Macroeconomics today.
So far i think it's ok for me.
Just have to memorise something tomorrow.
:)

Thanks ah ba for keeping me accompaniment.
And 证人 is a nice movie.
:)

Ah finally there are some normal temperature tonight.
And i think i had muscle cramp last night.
Until now my left leg still felt a bit weird.
The muscle part.
Was wondering what happened to me.
Sigh.
Pray for no mosquito tonight.

And i'm hesitating whether should i back Ipoh after my saturday test.
Hmmmmm.

Thank you.

Mr Ng.
This post dedicated to u one.
Hahahaha.
U see i so good ah.
Thank you for the mouth and the pair of ears.
:)
And thanks for the time and the swing.
Helps me lots la.
This feeling can never find on other people.
And sorry for dragging u out when u are sick lor.
Hahaha.
Kelian.
Sure got next time one.
Very soon tim.
Heal faster wor.
LOL.
Anyway,
thanks la.
It's great to have you back in my life.
:)
I'm happy!

Glad to know the truth.
Glad that i'm already let go.
Glad that u're here again.
:)

===
Timing timing timing.
Maybe we don't have the suitable timing?
Hmmm.
Shall not care much about it.
Would feel weird if........
yea i guess i can't imagine.
Maybe this is the factor why he behaving so?
Hmmm.
Let it be~~~

Backed in Kampar.
And i only slept for 2-3 hours last night.
I can't believe i can out from morning until midnight without feeling that i'm dying.
LOL.
Had a great day!
Thanks ah ba for introducing me his crazy classmates.
Hahahaha.
Had a fun day with them.
:D

Once again reconnected with him.
Wondering are there any guys in the world who don't know how to tackle girls?
Or it is just,
something i don't wish it to be.

Final day. Day of Home. Day of Movie.

Today is the final day of my CNY break.
How i wish time will stop and i don't have to back to the land of shit.
I'm going to diediediediedie when i get back there.
Assignments.
Tests.
Are like mountains for me.
Sighhhhhhhhh.
I wish for endless holiday!

I spend almost the whole day at home.
Except for lunch at Maria's,
and went to the bank for awhile.

And i spend few hours searching for docking application for my desktop.
Luckily,
i found.
:D
My hard works are not wasted.
wakakaka.
And my desktop now is so nice~
No icons at all :p
Circle dock looks nice but then i think i'll prefer the top one.
:)

And i was in a great mood of movie after yesterday's DoReMiFaSoLaSiDo.
And i finished my half-way-watching,
Sherlock Holmes.

A very nice movie.
Seriously have to focus and concentrate in the movie.
If not u'll not able to get the meaning.
Although i'm just,
half understanding the story.
But even i'm only half understanding,
i feel that the movie is nice.
:)

And after that,
still in the heat of JGS,

I downloaded The Incident of Itaewon Homicide.

It's a story about a Korean guy being murdered,
and there were 2 suspects,
one of them is JGS, as Pearson.
And both of them have different stories to deny and point the other as the killer.
And the story shows how the inspector handle the case,
and get to know the truth.
But in the end,
there's something i don't understand though.
Anyway,
never mind.

Hmmm.
And i was 90% finish packing before 12am.
LOL.
What happened to me today?
Sigh.
I don't wish to go back.
:(
Please stop the time.

My movie mood still not over.
What's next?
Maybe this.
Since poh recommend me so much.

Confession of A Shopaholic.
Although i read the book,
but i already forgotten how is the storyline.

Or maybe this.
27 dresses.
Sal recommended.Don't really know what the story about.
Feeling like watching something cheerful.
Hmmmmm.
Something that i can laugh.

Or maybe this?

Since I've been dragging from last year till now.
LOL.
But not really in the mood to cry though.

Btw.
I'm in a super addiction of Window 7 wallpapers.
There are some nice ones i searched from google and would like to share.
It looks great on my desktop.

So pretty.
I wanna learn these effects when i have the time.
Step by step.
I can do it.

===
Just realised that my ex-roommate broke up with her bf.
2 years + of relationship.
LOL.
There's no such thing as eternal love in this world.
Never.

===
Done for shopaholic.
Very nice :D
Thank you poh!

Time to sleep.
And get back to Kampar few hours later.
T__________________________________T

Do Re Mi Fa So La Si Do - love.

Just finished the movie.
Do re mi fa so la si do.
Very nice movie.
:)
It's a love story within three parties.
While the two boys are buddies,
and the girl and boy 2 are old friend,
but they've fight with each other 3 years ago,
and then she met with boy 1,
and they were together.
And boy 2 wants to get the girl back.And the story goes on.
Jang Guen Suk as the boy 1.
Well actually i watch this movie because of JGS.
:p
And he looks so young in the movie OMG!
I prefer his style and look in You're Beautiful though.
Ahhhh JGS.

His face is so perfect.
His voice is so perfect.
He is just,
way too perfect.

emo-ness

Feeling emo in a sudden.

Out of no reason, i guess.
Or maybe it's because i can't out just now.
Or maybe it's because i can't get her reply about tomorrow's outing.
Or maybe it's because i have to back to Kampar soon.
Or maybe it's because i can't get any of his text or call or whatsoever.
Or maybe it's because my super-pain-injured-tongue.
Or maybe.
What?
I don't know.

Finally i decided to install PS CS4 by myself today.
I had a strong urge to use ps today.
And i installed it.
I think i installed it correctly.
At least i hope so.

Learnt from some online ps tutorial.
To make window vista kind of graphic effect.

It's so nice, isn't it?
I made this.
Going to try more colors next time.
The one they showed in the tutorial is so nice.
Never mind.
I have time to practice.

And of textures.
I made another picture.

Nice background,
nice effect,
with retarded face.

Had wine until my lips became blackish.

Ah~

Been so long.

I still dislike it very much.
Anyhow,
it's not my business.

===

I think you don't suit me.
But why?
Sigh.
Maybe shall just chop it off.

BG Gathering CNY Day 4 & 5

Finally~!
There must be gathering for my dearest BGsssssss!
The first part is gathering at Poh's house.
Well,
I learnt to play chimnami there.
And Wii~~~~~~~~!
Well basically me and Ray are in deeply addiction of Wii.
Hahahahaha.
Poh thank you so much.
:)
We really had a lot of fun in your house!

Me and dear Krys.
Thank you so so so so much for the muffins love!
I never expect you'll purposely make it for me.
(Er maybe not purposely for me :p)
But u told me they are for me.
It's so sweetttt~~~~~~~~~~~
i love u so much krys.
Truly love u so much!

Me and ssp~
The colour of my hair is nothing compare to hers.
==

Threesome.

Me*Krys*Ray
I lovelovelove these 2 fella.

Finally a group pic.
With wii~~~~~~!
I love this pic very much.
u see how happy are we.
hahaha.

Peace + teeth~

Er this one is as per poh's mum's request.
The pic.
This is the one, people.
Hahaha.
Who won?
I think Ray won.

Ray-being-beating pic.
Hahahaha.
So funny ah this pic.

Group pic with little samantha~

Me*debt
This time back i seldom out with u.
And seldom contact with u also.
but i still hearts you.
lots.

Us + samantha.
She loves us.
Not ray.
Hahahahahahaha.

Hahaha.
Natural moments.

Me*SooXiaoHui
Thank you so much photographer for the day.

Lovely choco muffins by nanny krys~

Me + su Wii moments.
hehehe.

Thanks poh and her sis and her mum and her family and BGsss for the lovely and joy noon.
:)

===
Well today we had BBQ at sal's house.
Well,
it became steamboat at last.
Anyway,
start of with the pic of the tak-tau-malu fella.

Camwhore using my cam.
Always do that.
Now i upload.
See u still got face camwhore using my cam anot.

I'm calling the ffk queen Fion.
Fion u're going to die i tell u.
Next time i see u will be the day u die.

Tada our steamboat table.
And had a short gathering with Empat Wong.
:)

Nah the gambling proof!
Report police!

These fella just come and take photo only.
Hahahahaha.
So fu hin!
Well take a look at Ray.
If we send these photos to the police and i think she will be the one who get caught.
Hahahaha.
Count till so happy la.

Anyway,
had another happy night too.
:)
Moments with BG are the best moments after all.
Love being with u girls.
Shall meet again soon.
Loves!

Happy Birthday Chang Min!

Happy 22nd birthday Chang Min!
May health and joy stay with you forever.

With All My Heart ～君が踊る、夏～

With All My Heart ～君が踊る、夏～
(T/N: “With All My Heart ~Kimiga odoru, natsu~)

Artist: 東方神起
Lyrics by: Shinjiroh Inoue
Composed: Shinjiroh Inoue

****************************************

鏡 に映った　掛け違えたシャツのボタン
そ んな些細な事で君がいれば良かったと思う
逢えない時間が　僕らの愛を強くした

言葉に詰まるならそっと頬にkissをしよう
それぞれを待つ日々は　忙しく過ぎるけど
こんなにも こんなにもただ…

逢いたくて　ずっと君を思うよ… 心から君を
もう一度　my heart 伝えたくて
君 が呼べば　僕は行くよ
君のそばで笑いたいんだよ

ふとした瞬間　傷ついてしまった心
ひ とりじゃ直せない痛み　僕が癒したいよ
今逢えない時なら 　ただ君の面影を
抱きしめて　抱きしめてほら…

どん な日も　ずっと君思うよ…心から君を
も う二度と your heart 離さないから
君が泣けば　僕は行くよ
君をいつも守りたいんだよ

君が望 むなら　全てを尽くして
君の描く未来　永遠の夢を叶えたい I wish

逢いたくて　ずっと君思うよ… 心から君を
何度でも to heart 贈る　smile for you
悲しくても　嬉しくても
君のそばで笑いたいんだよ
With all my heart

Find me, and I’ll be there for you

source: yuulinajae @ youtube
translation: smiley @ OneTVXQ.com
special thanks: diana© & Lexy & xU & junsulv @ OneTVXQ.com
credits: OneTVXQ.com { One World. One Red Ocean. One TVXQ! }

Adam Lambert - Whataya Want From Me

Hey, slow it down whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Yeah I'm afraid whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

There might have been a time
When I would give myself away
Oooh once upon a time I didn't give a damn
But now, here we are so whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Just don't give up I'm workin it out
Please don't give in, I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Yeah, it's plain to see (plain to see)
that baby you're beautiful
And there's nothing wrong with you
(nothing wrong with you)
It's me, I'm a freak (yeah)
but thanks for lovin' me
Cause you're doing it perfectly
(it perfectly)

There might have been a time
When I would let you slip away
I wouldn't even try
But I think you could save my life

Just don't give up I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in, I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep comin around
Hey, whataya want from me (Whataya want from me)
Whataya want from me (Whataya want from me)

Just don't give up on me
(uuuuuuh) I won't let you down
No, I won't let you down

(So I) just don't give up
I'm workin it out
Please don't give in,
I won't let you down
It messed me up (It messed me up)
Need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me

Just don't give up I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in, i won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me (whataya want from me)
whataya want from me (whataya want from me)
whataya want from me

===

Shall update today's gathering with tomorrow's bbq.
:)
I smile for the reconnection with him.
Thanks for the call,
and the care.
It's warm.

A Imperfect Day 3.

I had multiple feelings in the same day.
From the end of an extreme,
come to another end.
I wonder when will i get insane.

I was supposedly be very happy today.
I met with my super long lost beloved ns brother.
Had a great time chatting with him,
recalling the warm and happy moments in ns,
how we know each other,
when do we get close,
things happened...
So happy.
So short.
But so unforgettable.

And another friend joined in after 2 hours.
The super funny fella.
Both of them still never change,
after 2 years i never see them.
But i still in contact with my bro.
But not this one.
This is totally MIA.

He is leng lui.
That is his nickname well but because he is very pretty when he is botak.
But now also still very leng lor.
U not chao la.
Still leng lui for us :)
Very happy lor although 2 years didn't talk with u didn't meet with u,
we can still talk with no gap.
:) :) :)
I'm very happy.

This is my dear sai lou ah hang.
Very happy when being with him.
Although he always nag me and stuff.
But i know is because he loves me :)
And actually i don't feel good for him to pay everything for me today.
Sigh.
But he just don't want me to pay back.
Thank you so much ah.
Next time will be the time i treat u.
Although he is working in S'pore,
he'll phone me from time to time,
try to catch up with how i'm doing.
When the time i depress,
i got his call as well.
And it really saved me sometimes.
Thanks for your care all the while ah.
I really very happy to have u. :)
Although we can seldom meet with each other,
try to come back more often ba..
Love u so much and miss u always.

I was so happy today when chat with them.
Had movie with them as well :)
The Wolfman.
The movie sucks but it is alright with these 2 sitting at my side.
LOL.
Next time we'll go for k-session ok.
But wonder when will the next time be.
Sigh.
Although we only meet once for years,
glad that we're still good with that.
No gap.
No embarrass.
Nothing.
As if we were just came out from the camp.
:)
Seriously i miss the camp.
All the moments.
I love my ns experience.

===
Done with the happy part.
Here comes the ridiculous one.
I had my car parked on the land beside SamTet school.
And guess what.
When i'm back,
i realised that the front cover of the car seems being opened.
But i thought that i was just a bit sensitive and it is actually closed.
I walked towards it,
and holy shit.
It really opened.
I closed it and rush to the car.
FUCK.
The locks were all unlocked.
And inside the car was all a mess.
I saw wires,
my dad's documents,
things being throw all over.
I was so panic.
Seriously panic and my mind was blanked out.
I sit inside the car and try to start,
but i was too panic that time and i don't know if it's illusion,
i can't see where the starter is.
I saw an empty hole and i thought that it was being stolen.
FUCK.
Damn panic.
Damn scare.
No choice and i have to call my dad.
And i have to wait him to come.
And i tried to lock the car but the lock is not functioning.
FUCK.
And i saw the bonnet was opened.
Another mess.
Quickly closed it,
and i walked back to parade panicky.
You can't imagine how panic, how scare am i at that time.
I was shaking.
And i try to find back ah hang but too bad he already left.
So i search over my phonebook.
I called ssp.
Line problem i couldn't connect her.
I called beh.
He's not free.
I called him.
Line problem as well.
I sms-ed tai.
He's not free too.
Finally,
someone manage to talk with me.
Luckily.
Ah seng, u know u seriously saved me from going insane that time.
I was so scare seriously so scare.
Well maybe i am overacting but this thing is the first time happening on me.
And suddenly i feel that it is very dangerous for being there.
But thank you.
Your voice calmed me.
Thank you thank you thank you.

And my dad came,
checked whether what is damaged and what had lost.
He said only the radio-mp3 player and his sun glasses was being stolen.
Others are some miscellaneous.
Not really any big deal.
But his face are a bit,
well,
unhappy.
I felt so so so so so damn guilty.
I know it's not my fault.
But seriously i can't help feeling guilty.
I listened to him i locked everything.
I locked the gear, even the sterling, which i hate locking it,
and i lock with alarm.
Why?
Why me?
Why do you choose this car?
Is there anything valuable for you to steal?
Can't you hunt for other cars?
There are so many over there!
Why mine?
Why me?!?!!?!
Fuck.
Seriously fuck this 2010.

But anyway,
thank you hang for worring me and caring me.
i know you feel very bad because u can't stay and accompany me that time.
Sorry for making you worry..
thank you seng for being there when i was so panic.
Sorry for disturbing your dinner.
But seriously thank you for the short talk.
It saved me from don't know what to do under such condition.
thank you tai for cheering me with your personal special skill ==
but actually i quite hate that way.
Eh seems like everytime i cry i'll find u.
LOL.
I mean when we're back in hometown.
When in Kampar,
even if i'll cry now but i can't find u due to u-me-both-know-why.
Anyway,
the phone chat with you today really cheered me.
And reminds me of moments last time.
Thank you.
Feel so good to have you all.
Thank you.

Had a great night at aunty Mei Ling's house.
And Pui Yee's house.
I love the feeling of being with familiar people and the old environment.
The feeling is indescribably comfort.

And thank you,
for giving me the best dad in the world.

ps. one more thing.
I shall learn to grow again.
In every aspect.
By not trusting that the earth is safe.
By not trusting everyone is good.
I need to learn.
Stop being naive.
To defend.

Wow i dreamt ryanfj!

It was such a nice dream :)

Hello CNY Day 2

Hello CNY day 2~*
I start my day at almost 12pm.
Well i was waken thanks to a phone call.
==
But anyway thanks for waking me.

Not much activities for the day today.
Just having lunch at Jelapang as usual,
and some mahjong session.
Wakakaka.
But not fun coz i only played for a short while and got to go back.
And i managed to take a nap this evening.
Can shows that how tired am i these few days.
I want hibernate!
But i guess i don't have the chance.

And at night will have family dinner as usual.
Every chor 2 at the year we'll have it.

And tada~
Finally got a full-dress look of my cheongsam.
Not really a tradition one la.

Me and my mum.
Hahaha.
She want learn people take photo.
:p

Me and my bro~
Look at his mata sepet.

LOL.
Swt.
Why my cousin bro and my bro's eyes are the same.
Family geneeeeeeeeeee
xD

Me and locklock my cousin sis~
She complain that i'm very tall because i'm wearing heels.
So i have to bend a little.
Hahaha.
Now u satisfy anot.

Dad - Son - Son - Dad
A very warm and happy pic.
:D

Us, the granddaughters and the grannys~
See how happy is my grandma
:D

And finally,
a group family photo~
The purpose is to mail for my uncles at oversea so that they will jealous.
Hahahaha.
Nah.
It's for memory :)
I love my family members!

===
Seriously being restless these few days.
And i throw in whiskey during dinner, and wines back home.
Cause my parents friends coming to pay a visit.
And i feel like my eyes are going to close soon.

Ah i feel like i'm having sem break.
I don't know why but i always feel that i'm having my sem break and i've finished my y1s3.
When i go back to school will be the start of a whole new semester.
LOL.
What happened to me?
Mountains of assignments and mid-terms are waiting for me in Kampar.
OMGGGGGGGG.
I want to avoid x.X
I'm going to gg soon.
zzz.
I wish for holidays with no end!

Ah and btw,
had a weird dream last night.
Weird as in,
weird.
Weird over weird.
LOL.
And weird wins.
I wonder why.