okay time to blog since i din touch my blog for quite long and something DID happened...
so yest i went watch Forbidden Kingdom with gor and my bro...
mr ng got dinner so cant go la..
then le gor reach early ma waanna buy stuff..
then when i reach hor he ask me "guess who i saw?"
then i zao har lo i never think that i will meet him there ma..
then he zao say lo still got who??
then tat time i zao sei lorrrr
then we zao fast fast go cinema lo dun wanna meet with him ar later let him misun anything zao not good..
then le gor zao say saw him at KR eating with his dad..
then we both also cusious lo y where oso dun go wanna go eat KR in JJ??
hmm but then hor gor said he knew gor wil go jj that night...
wah he wont wat gua...
wont wont..
then we zao go for our movie lo stg stupid gela that movie
and then hor in the cinema got a cute lil boy always repeat the phrase that the actor said..
hahaha and he was so loud..
and very funny hahaha..
but cant see his face dunno who is him...
then, wah the exciting part come la..
after movie ma i gotta wait my mum then gor oso gotta wait his fren ma half and hour more..
then we mar walk walk lo...
then walk walk walk..........when walk til jusco department gor sud turn back and say sei lo he stil here
then i zao har?
then SAW HIM!
got eyes contact tim ar means he saw me ar!!!
he wearing black color tee hehehee~~
then hor his hair also quite long d le..
aiya cut larrr
hahaha...
then we both zao sim lo gor walk towards the reverse way..
hmmhmm then i VERY SCARE AR!!!
i scare he misun me and gor ar but i hope he wont..
he should confident to himself ma and should trust ME lar
if he noe i like him..
aikz aikz~~~
then yest got wait his msg actually but as expected la no msg come..
nvm lorrr wont sad but just worry..
then just now online ma on msn...
hahaha he left msn msg for me laaa
last night 1.47am geh...
yor so late oso haven sleep...
wat prob worrr him..
dun say insomnia ar hahaha...
rmb last time he sms me say kao zai that thing also 12am onli worr
y this time so late d...aiyoyo....
lolz!!!
really very very happy lor when saw his msg..
heheheee~~~
hope that, future, will be better lar~~~
hahaha nitez everyone!
**btw recently ADDICTED in SDO
swt!!!
addicted in cooking...
well last night i cook this fry rice for my family...
lolzzz and i got addicted in cooking!!!
since my first time of frying rice is so successful marrr hahaha
but then it just tawar a bit onli lar...
the look is nice also ma right???
hahahahhaa tai sekko desu~!!!
then this is today's...
hahahhahaha but this is my and my mum's piece of work...
but le..u all guess what is it...
looks like curry mee hor???
but actually...
in fact..
it is..
spagetti.....................................
hehehehheheheee~~~
I NOE IT LOOKS WEIRD!
but the taste really not bad larrr
REALLY!!! NO BLUFFING HERE.
but just the color larrr looks weird..
we wanna cook white sauce geh..
but neh my mum lor dunno y pour the tomato thingy then she say if add mayonise it will become white worrr..
well, maybe we added too much of that tomato thingy d..
heheheee~~
the taste really not bad la!!!
but a bit lao la..very the zai...
hahahahhaha
ADDICTED!!!
what's tomorrow?
hehehee i dunno lorrr~~
你曾经让我心动...?
你曾经让我心动...
what it means?
it might be just a nice song someone wanna share...
or does it have any special meaning??
i guess i shouldn't think so much right..?
yup i shouldn't..
it is just a song..
just, A SONG.
btw lyrics of the song :
恶作剧之吻 你曾经让我心动
关于蓝天的忧郁
我想了解分析
却不经分心不禁想起
长发飘逸的你
关于你给的回忆
我想你也想不起
只因为所以有自知之明
我只敢远远望着你
从没想过那么心痛以后
你还是陪在我生命中
最空虚的时候
我仿佛回到那感动
从没想过离开伤心以后
我终于能够当你面前
勇敢的对你说出口
你曾经让我心动
我要加紧脚步
加紧脚步对你说
我要加紧脚步
加紧脚步对你说
我要加紧脚步
加紧脚步对你说
我要加紧脚步
加紧脚步对你说
我要加紧脚步
加紧脚步对你说
你曾经让我心动
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so so..what to blog today?
at last started my driving lesson lorrr..
went 2 hours today...yer but haven go out gelo..
just learned to stop on slope and parking only..
not side parking..the other one..
well will have the next lesson this thurs...
hopefully can drive outside lar this time..
hahahaha~~
THEN AR
sei ye ar bluff me!!!
changed phone zao changed phone larrr why wanna bluff me??
stil say wait for my k850 worr
U USING D LAR!!!
ish ish ish~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
u ar zao owe my lion ar i dun care ar!!!
like to gik me so much gelarrr
ish ish very shuang meh??
hmmhmm...tomorrow gotta wake early arrrrrrrrr
*lazy*...
but go Pui Yee's house ma ok lo i wake...
8stg gotta wake arrr i guess i will zzz ar her house when i reach lor
hahahaha..
she's not waking so early also la...
so 2mr go do wat le??
bou drama! hahaha or go help her house create land for worldwar 3!
yupyup good idea but her room already looks like that now hahahahaha
ah ah today msn chat with snail a bit larrr
hahaha snail ar wore SARI worrr
hahahahaa wear sari to match who jek??
hahahah nah nah nah dun deny dun scold me ar i din say anything arrr
hahahahaha
aikz..then abt melon ar...
nothing happen gua..although seems like no topic with her..
but i think it is coz we chatted too much la at last the day of no topic reached
hahahahaha...
hmmhmm...
sei lo listening that song feel like crying...
oh ya ar didi coming back next monday!!
yeay yeay~~~
then tues go kampar with him after kampar we go hang gai gai~!!!
hahahaha yeah~~~
after one month can meet with him again i really din estimate ar to see him in such short time again..
but good also la hahaha
but cant let my mum noe lorrr
fei shi la aikz....
so...write till here bala having complicated feeling...
**THSK Beautiful You~!
miss ar~~~~~~~~~~~~
awww i miss EVERYONE of u..
today afternoon krys sms me..
which was kinda shock coz she never sms me i think..
or once..since she went aussie la i mean..
then chat with her..hahahah aiyo miss u larrr krys...
and my credit byebye-ing so cant reali send much..
sorry yea~~~heheheee*^^*
just now in msn, sei Jo lo remind me of our memories..
when we're in steven...
when we do those stupid things lerrr..
hahaha then talk talk talk..
if not zao zzz lorrr very sien ge ma...
hahahah then hor once that ssp ans wrong geh..
dunno what square d la she say the wrong ans..
then whole class esp our gang laugh sei!!!!
hahahahaha..aiyorrrr really miss those moments..
and JO i DUN RMB i got tumpah popcorn during narnia lo!
i noe last time me and hen lar with melon them geh we tumpah....3 quarter of the popcorn..reali paiseh..hahahahhaa..
but NARNIA! NO!!! I DIN TUMPAH!!!
yer u STOP blaming me lar!!
u blamed many years d!!! lol stil got what?
i rmb lor when we at steven ar we always laugh gah dunno laugh what..
then ar laugh til me no energy to take my pen and write gah,,
really no energy!!lol then that time ssp or u will gotta help me copy stuff...
i zao laugh alone at the corner..
yer sei mou now say back really sound a bit like soh po..
hahahahahahaha nvm lar...happy memories*^^*
then stil got what ar..oh we mai always ponteng steven geh last time..
either go kopitiam or go parade mar..
hahaha once we go half the class ma then bluff munyee jiejie(wah i rmb her name!) haha we mai bluff her we got co-activities geh..
hahahahahaha..aikz..sei lorrr bao sai our ponteng stuff tim~~
then then neh JO! u had crush on steven geh! u dun deny lar u hahahahaha
i tel u, u can never pitt latt this "steven crush" as long as u stil ungkit the popcorn-thingy..hahahahaha
aiyo...really miss those moments..
still got what ar...
oh our nicks..
me mar ngar aka lion lor..
then doggiedoggie aka ffbbssdd aka ssdd aka camel aka turtle aka susu
then dogdog aka d^8 aka bean aka Jo
then krys aka nanny aka easy aka la silk aka flamingo (stil got a lot)
then snail aka .... stil got wat ar?
then skel aka boneeto aka Fion aka my maid
then joan aka hippo aka Jo&
then sal aka sotong
then poh aka glass bottle aka my ex-doggiedog aka jhuin
lolz..
eh if i left out tell me k?
haha..aikz..
so many years we'd been together ar...
we're all anime freakzzz
and we love Lead..well not all lar..lolz
then we love Nana!!! and we all play piano..
hahahah izit ler~~~ our similarity..
but actually what pulls us together?
lolz god knows..
something call FATE..
and this FATE..will protect us from breaking apart..
no matter where are we, we are will linking..
"chain that will never break..."
our friendship, has no end...
love u guys a lot!!!
[*--BG--*]
line suckz
LINE SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm gonna complain sei tat sei streamyx!!!
3 days la idiot line stil unstable!!!
damn!morning afternoon evening night MIDNIGHT!
NO! UNSTABLE!
shit thing streamyx!
aikz........
now i dun know whether my blog still SAFE or not coz..well u-know-i-know
so.....nvm..wont let such lame ppl bother me..
lolz~
so today very happy ar~~~*
hahaha u-know-who found me today hehehee~~
twice ar dum gup til...
if one day i tel him i cant go then how ar??
wil he be disappointed?
wil he be sad??
hmm...dunno lerrr..no idea..
but then today i'm more then satisfy larrr he find me wor more twice wor~
hehehee...
don't know how long will this happiness last for but i hope..longer larrr
and another thing is..
didi coming ipoh again ar!!!
yeah~~~
but dunno when he come le...hopefully he come that time i'm in ipoh larrr
didi ar u dun come within those days i'm not around ar~!!!
yer yer miss u lots lar..
aikz...everyone that saw our pic also say we looks like jiejie and didi wor hahaha..
nah didi ar dun say i got gor dun choi u ar i very fair geh...
plus u ar so far miss sei me ar....
hmmhmm...
not much to blog?
er i'm having my SSTM again lolz...
today went Kampar lor..
but thanks to my ma ma fan fan geh mum so din pay deposit..
aikz she dun wanna pay 1st ar zao dun chui me go take money from the others la..
not took, din pay i yao gotta return..
ma guai fan..
and she keep on saying ar "maybe" i will change my course after foundation..
i think she'd been thinking this all the while lor
she sure think that i SURE will change my course lor
but SORRY I DUN THINK I WILL.
i liked graphic since i was in F3...
for YEARS...like i like japanese..
i like my idols..
if i'm that kinda who will change easily, can my interest or whatever lasted so long?
and person i like, too
and my dear friends
do i?
no i don't.
i don't like changing.
in fact i didn't change since the first day u know me right?
well maybe a bit lar i'm NOT saying physically..
so...let's see.
will i change? or not.
I bet, NOT.
16 sign u loved someone
SIXTEEN:
When you're on the phone with them
late at night and they hang up, you
still miss them even when it was just
two minutes ago.
FIFTEEN:
You read their Texts and Ims Over and
over again.
FOURTE EN:
You walk really slow when you're with
them.
THIRTEEN:
You feel shy whenever they're around.
ELEVE N:
When you think about them, your heart
beats faster but slower at the same
time.
TEN:
You smile when you hear their voice.
NINE:
When you look at them, you can't see
the other people around you, you just
see him/her.
EIGH T:
You start listening to slow songs
while thinking about them.
SEVEN:
They're all you think about.
SIX:
You get high just from their scent.
FIVE:
You relize you're always smiling when
you're looking at them.
FOUR:
You would do anything for them, just
to see them.
THREE:
While reading this, there was one
person on your mind this whole time.
TWO:
You were so busy thinking about that
person, you didnt notice number twelve
was missing
ONE:
You just scrolled up to check & are
now silently laughing at yourself.
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lolx.....
*^^*
lol....
i went insane this evening...
after i type my post, i offline, and i started crying..
and then, i ignored everyone who's sms-ing with me..
i wanted some space for myself, alone.
and i sudden realise that i was very funny.
i'm alone since the moment i wake.
and now, what kinda alone i want?
funny enough...
the previous post i said i hate being alone and the moment after i wanted to be alone.
I'm insane am i?
i really don't know what had happened to me this afternoon..
no idea at all..
maybe i just...miss u all too much..
or i'm tired being jail in this house facing the walls everyday..
i need to go out, get some fresh air.
so I'm going out tomorrow, with Pui Yee.
I hope tomorrow will be a better day for me.
My friends at the other side are ok d..
well Su, thanks for ur msg this evening..
when i got ur msg only i realise, something.
and it stopped me from crying too.
thanks a lot.
and now, i think I'm having some kinda problem with my frens over here.
those are really a tough one..
their temper..really..
i don't know how to say.
and, I'm tired, tired of explaining so and so..
if u wanna bu shuang then go ahead.
the moment now i have no mood to explain anything.
u wanna bu shuang, it's ur prob.
yea i admit that u're here accompanying me at my harsh moments.
and i really thank you for that.
but, i....ok honestly here.
I have a few best friends ok?
I dun wanna arrange it according to number or what u all are ALL THE SAME.
I dun wanna explain for who's the best or whatever.
ALL THE SAME.
as i'd lost my best of the best long ago.
so...u're my best friend, so?
shall I tell you everything?
I don't want to tell, i have my reason.
and i HATE ur cold response after i told.
I said u'll be unhappy after i told u.
but u insist wanting me to tell.
tell or no. u're still giving me the same reaction.
then ok i told.
u said i'm hiding. say dun wanna tel it's alright.
HEY i already told ya everything!
i really don't know what happen to myself what u expect me to say??
sigh. sometimes really don't know how to keep it on.
this is one of the reason i got insane today.
and another thing.
about the room in Kampar.
yes i promised someone to share room with her when we study in Kampar.
but after that i knew a fren was coming too and staying with us.
i'm getting better with her and i have experience staying with her knowing how to behave when i'm with her..
i'm pretty clear about that..
and u say u dun mind having single room..
then, everything solved right?
u said ok, i didn't force.
maybe i did wrong because i din really keep my promise.
i just wanna cut down our quarrel or cold war in future.
am i wrong then?
why am i always the one who have to feel guitly?
why am i always the one who is wrong?
I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING WRONG!
I helped her to keep herself away from people she dun like!
I help her get a room as other people cannot get it now!
what else u expect me to do??
I have NO MISSION to help u!
and now i helped u so much...
did u ever say a thank you?
i don't think i ever heard u say thanks before...
not even type in msg..
everytime when i tell u, u just "har..."
and give me kinda BAD reaction.
well i DON'T expect to get that reaction.
but FINE.
it is ur choice.
whether wanna stay or not.
ur own choice.
and once u made up ur mind,
DON'T REGRET.
and don't show me that kind of faces.
it really pissed me off.
PLZ DONT READ
as a respect for me, please don't read any further,okay?
thanks.
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honestly, sometimes i felt kinda lonely here..
really...alone...
umm when u're in jailing mode u'll understand this much better...
and sometimes i was wondering, why will I, be like that?
yesterday i went to snail's facebook and took a look at her pictures..
she went to the beach with her friends...how nice..
she had her happy new life there knowing people from all over the world..
such a great life she's heading for..
I wasn't really keen in going other country or whatever..
but just, we're same right?
we're all HUMAN.
but why our fates are different?
Snail, Su, Krys went Aus.
Fion went Melaka.
Joan went don't-know-where.
all....have their own destination.but at least it is away from here..
well, u're having a new life there of coz u'll miss here.
but if u try, like me, staying here everyday don't know what to do,
u'd end up bored to hell.
It's not like i dislike here.
or i cant say i LIKE, on the other side.
but, I'm tired being here.
I'm very boring.
why can't i just leave like u all?
why must i stay here?
money matter.huh?
sigh.
i don't really know what happened to me.
umm...
don't know.
no idea at all.
untitled
I....I er...I dunno..I'm having kinda complicated feeling now...
I online just to blog actually..
coz noone is here to let me express my feeling now..
so....blog is the only choice i think...
umm actually..the prob i'm having now is..
it's not really a prob,or mayb it is just something that bothering my mind...
umm...I...maybe i typing this thread, might hurt many people..
but i really didn't mean to...
i have to apologise here at first...
i really, DON'T mean anything...
so...umm...how am i gotta start...
ok.
in my life, there's been so many ppl helping me and accompanying me on my path, right?
including the U who are reading...
thanks a lot, I really appreciate that...
but, BEST FRIEND...
what does it mean? and who is it to me?
last time i had one...
whenever anyone ask me "who is ur best friend?"
i can answer straight forwardly.
"Is S*P."
umm...but now,me and her..are more like a stranger, than a "friend".
i don't think our relationship can be claim as "friend".
No.
if there's some word like "ex-friend" then well, we are that.
we WERE friends.but now we ARE ex-friends.
I don't know why will i suddenly think of her..
or am I just avoid from thinking of her all the time, take as she never exists..
well i noe i can't.
or maybe i CAN.but, don't know.
she exists in my life before, came in, betrayed me and left...
all those hurts that she'd done,those that made me lost confidence in having new friends or accepting anyone to get closer to me...
those hurts..that really helps me to grow up...
I should really thank her for those..
letting me to know better on how to handle these..
If she didn't hurt me i wouldn't have a chance to experiance the pain.
the pain that made me grow up.
the pain that set up my mind, on who should i hang with, and not.
I umm...
I'm still hoping to be friend with her now, actually.
In fact I'm stil having little hope on becoming good friend with her again.
but...the she now, was totally changed..
changed into some person i DON'T know AT ALL...
She is the one who gave up these..
gave up ME, and us..
Friends around her she's dumping one by one..
and they're all leaving...
has she ever thinking about what is the prob?
I don't think she do..
coz til now, stil still don't understand which choice she made is wrong..
and why we'll become like this..
She's still blaming me..I believe that.
She's still blaming over everyone, but not herself.
she'll never blame herself.
I really really hope that someday, she will realise..
what she'd done..everything..
even that someday might be late, but better than it didn't come. at all.
If she still continue like that, i don't think i can see her day soon.
sigh...
why a person like her, will became a person, like an asshole?
she's really, totally different from who i know.
i think from now onwards,
anyone who ask me know who is she,
i might say NO, sorry. I don't know, such person.
never in my life.
Jailing......
I'd been jailing since long ago...
and now unfortunately backed to jailing mood..
hadn't blog for 3 days...
many things happened...
i had a huge quarrel with my mum AGAIN yesterday morning...
i don't know what is her problem or what is she thinking..
i don't think i did anything wrong..
i just wake up at 11stg and it seems like i had killed someone or something..
since i get out of my bed, every single thing i do, she scold.
she scold and scold and scold..
as if i was born to scold by her..
WTF
i don't know..i had NO idea why was i here..
she's my MUM. okay it explained all.
just a single word, MUM.
so, what does that word explain??
mum so?? so what?? so she can scold like as she like??
even if i do nothing wrong???
hey, i'm a HUMAN too i have my FEELINGS..and as my temper i CANT just swallow my anger..no that's not what i can do..
my patience is not good, well maybe that is an inheritance.
so...now my situation here, just like a prisoner??
but being a mute prisoner aren't that fun...
in fact it is NOT FUN AT ALL...
i wanna leave...MAY...u better come SOON enough...before i lose my mind...
last time i'd past this kinda situation before..
it's after my SPM...and before my NS..the time in between..
that time is kinda like now lo..at home i onli face my comp...
or go out lo...but not really often la...
then...our situation is just like, well, cold war la..
from gor this is call : lack of communication..
well, anything la..i dun think i have anything to communicate with her also..
not that i didn't try..
i tried..i told her something i interest and try to had a conversation with her..
well not now la i mean last time..
and the response she give me was "oh"
nothing futher...
nah u see..not that i didn't try..
i tried...but she refuse...so...not my prob...
and now, it is my prob again??
sleeping late and waking late....does it matter??
i sleep late because i have my freedom at night..and my friends are there at night..
i wake late because i have NOTHING TO DO IF I WAKE EARLY!
i'm not allow to go out...i have nothing to do at home..
i have no work..i have NO unlimited online time...
so what she expect me to do at home if i wake EARLY?
help her do housework? all the day?? hire a maid then. or else pay me like a maid
not that i din help her do housework ar..
i DID ar..i DID everything she ask...unless i forgot la..
but forgetting...noone wish right?
so...i dunno lar i really dunno...
i really wish May can come faster ar..
then i can LEAVE...and maybe it will be like when i went NS..
then our relationship can get better...
really a lot better...
maybe she'll only know how to treasure, after someone had left...
or she just enjoying the time i'm not here?
who knows.....?
I think.....
I think i think too much la...
abt J i mean...
I reali think too much la...
today online ma then he find me..
he says ei, tat day din reply ur msg..
then i mai say lo, u noe zao good!
(lol)
then he zao say lo nvm la many ppl sms he oso din reply one
cheh~~~CHEH~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
wat he trying to say le har??
aikzz..sei ye ar..
but then today chat with him very happy lar*^^*
he ar again lo yao say me rich girl ar ish!!!
he zao rich lar stil wanna bluff me say no money by phone wor..
ming ming zao changed his phone already la GREEN tim haha~*^^*
then stil got say wat ar..chatted quite lotsa thing today as i rmb....
then oh said sick lo.
i mai say him WEAK la then he IS ma..
then dunno how chat chat har he yao say me weak lo
say me weak til dunno how to describe tim..sei ye ar ish!
weak weak mar same lo hahahaa~~~
then ar got chat til..oh TVXQ!
he ask me ma why like TVXQ so much...
then i mai say lo their songs nice ma then very leng zai ma!
then he zao say oh lo...
then he say he likes their Rising Sun..then he say he like their fast song but not slow songs..
then i mai tel him lo they got one new song fast geh very nice..then mai sent lo..
Purple Line..
then hor he say hor "this is fast song meh?"
WAH ZHA DOU...
Mr ar that still not fast ar?!?!
then after that mai send him "0"-Jung.Ban.Hup lor
then hor he yao ask lo this is old song?
then i mai say lo umm quite lar when we f4 lor...
then he say, "then very old lo!" ...WOR!!!
YER!!!!!!!!
then he say wor their song sometimes fast sometimes slow...
then i mai say la that is their STYLE ma!
then he zao say lo my taste weird wor............
my taste weird...lol...Mr..are u saying URSELF weird??lolz~~~
my taste weird..hahahaha QUITE GAH..
then then..
oh he tel me 2mr his fren bday ma ask me what should he buy for her..
then i mai ask la what she like?
then noe wat he says??
"how do i noe?"
wah zha dou...but in the end gao dim d la..share v ppl..haha
then he sud ask me he say they going xxx 2mr ask me wanna go anot
then i mai ask lo got who and where is that
then is his fren...
then i mai say lar i yao dunno ur fren..
THEN AR!!!
he say wat ar!!!
"ya lo..they din invite u also..haha"
SEI YE AR GIK SEI ME AR!!!
ish ish...
then hor like to copy me very much gelo him..ish ish
then......haha gor ask me to play him
gor ask me type..
"what if i love him?"
the him refers to gor
then...lolzzZ~~~
he ask me go ask him be my bf wor
then gor zao teach me lo ask him how a gal go ask a guy go be her bf wor
then typed lo..then he zao reply
ya wor..how to ask?
---lol u teach me la
*how i teach u? i nvr try b4
---haha
*u got bf?
---no la..and i dun love Y.H...that's gor
*b4 le?
---nope
hmmm wondering y he so keen in asking that..
last time he asked me once already i got bf anot...
LOLZZZZ~~~~
mokshi...................hahahahaha dun think so much 1st..
then after that chat chat har zao pull dou Rain and Hew lor
aikz him ar yao say i like Rainyao say i like Hew
then i mai play back him lor since he played me just now
i told him Rain fooled me abt him b4..
nah is true ma i din bluff ar..
Rain DID fool me b4 ish!
then he very gan jiong lo
i'm at the other side asking gor wanna play him anot..
then he *nudge* me wor
then call me fast wor
then i mai say dunno lo hahaha
i noe wat he scare geh.......
heheheee~~~~
then...cha ng duo la he zao off lu...
like ppl chasing him to off lidat...
everytime oso lidat ge wor..aikz
nvm go sleep ba~~~
2mr working gotta sanfu again..
aikz ya lo said working ar!
i ask him how's his work ma...
then he yao ask me work there wor...
he ar y keep asking geh at other side yao tel gor dun ask me work later sanfu blame him
now himself yao keep on asking me go work..
then say say har YAO say me rich girl no need work...
HE ZAO RICH LA SEMI-D!
well after i move also semi-d haha....
but not now la
so i'm not rich..
and i use 800 onli ar u use 850 ar!!!
I WANT 850 ARRRRRRR~~~~~~~~~~~
yer yer yer....green some more..
but NVM...
u bought GREEN...
hahaha*^^*
so....
we chatted...
ALMOST 2 HOURS!!!
hahaha....10min more zao 2 hours gele~~~
*^^*
happy happy hahahahaha
if gor read he sure "mui black hole ar!" again geh hehee...
aikz let me happy har la~~ sad jor 2 days lo..
hehehee....
mood VERY good!
yeay~!
drive^^
to all my dears..
just to inform u all that i'm already ok today..
went driving this afternoon lol!
and it was fun!
and my teacher is a very good chinese uncle..
so i passed~~~my L lesson..
gotta wait for another 10 hours learning then i can get my P!
lol that time can lend gor's car and drive hahaha~
umm...
i din reali think of him today so i...still ok i guess..
and heard from Mr Ng that he got lotsa work to do tonight..
their killing company..
sigh~
hope that he was fine la..
still no wifi..
cant on long..
so........
DEAR ALL,
I'M OK*^^*
still the old ngar old lion!
miss ya lots~*^^*
no mood
sigh~
i no mood till i cant sleep...
what happened to me??
tomorrow still got driving lesson...
wanna sleep early but very ... i dunno how to describe this kinda feeling...
sad? down? disappointed???
well all mixed up maybe..all those negative feelings...
don't know why i miss him a lot tonight..
maybe coz 2 nights din chat??
lol last time sooo long din contact i also ntg..
wat had happened to me now???
i dunno...
really wondering actually how is his feeling towards me....
almost 3 months...
we're still like that...
well maybe from the beginning everything is just my guess...
one-sided thought...
but...i dunno
i don't wish it to be true...the one-sided thing i mean
coz the way he treat me SOME TIMES really made me feel that he felt the same way too..
well,
SOME TIMES
so..ok tonight i unable to online coz no wifi supply..
so...i was quite down coz cant chat with him..
then i really don't know wth happened to me and suddenly miss him VERY MUCH
so i sent him a good night msg..
well..
as expected..
NO REPLY...
although i was hoping for reply...
reply la why don't u reply??
reply a good night word also can la or like last time reply me a friends forever msg..
or reply me stg to reject me or ask me actually what i want la..
plz...reply and says something...
don't make me keep guessing ok???
i really...can't tahan long ar..
when i'm ok then ok lo...just think of those happy things that happened...
but when i suddenly get insane...
i'll be like NOW...
moody for nothing, sad for nothing, disappont for nothing..
sometimes very envy those ppl who got an accurate ans..
no matter it is a good new or bad news..
they've got an accurate ans..
a fact, a confirmation...
but why mine...like that?
don't tell me u CAN'T feel it..
don't tell me that u DON'T know..
i wont blev that...
from what i did..more or less u can feel that how i feel towards u..
don't lie to urself...
yes i like u...
so..how do u feel about it?
like, don't like, yes or not.
well,i'm NOT asking for a relationship now coz i'm not needing it DEARLY
i just want, an answer...
an answer that can stop me from guessing..
an answer that can stop me from thinking those nonsense by myself...
or not now mayb..i mean ur ans..
now still not the timing, ok i CAN wait...
i already waited for almost 3 months...
how long u want i can wait...
but just tell me,
do i have the chance?
do i have one??
please tell me...
PLEASE......
shit..idiot blogspot
idiotic blogspot
recently wat prob wor
upload pic can only see those codes and not pic how i put captions
and now i cant find the edit button
cant edit my previous post ar ish!
dunno y bad mood ar in a sudden...
coz melon or who or what I DUNNO LAR!!!
u ar u why today din online...
u appear in my day a while also can la...
haihz......
where are u wor...........
sure sleeping gela now..
sigh...
sleep ba u..
gambate in ur work 2mr...
nitez..........................
sick again~~~
well yesterday i was sick again...
flu + fever la...
yup i got fever la while at night...
i noe i shouldn't sleep late la sorry lo..
hehee but chat with many ppl ma so many BG online yest..
Su, Jo, Fion, Krys...
aikz miss u guys alot la...
ok i shall continue this MISS thing later..
back to my sick..
i started flu on....Friday night..yup..bad flu
then Saturday whole day having flu..
very-the-sanfu arrrrr
then night even worse lo fever some more..
but then i did sleep in the afternoon la from 4stg sleep til 7pm..
neh i listened to someone ma if free at home hor then GO SLEEP.
lol i very ting hua gah~~*^^*
to him onli hehee...aikz~why he din online today geh...
hmmhmm....yest wor bluff boss say going KL wor so cant go work wor..haha
bluff ghost lar~!
then hor i wish to go and work at Yamaha ma...
then i mai told him lor..
then hor tat sei ye hor! say wat ar!
"har?? u can teach meh??"
then say wor those parents wont let their children learn wor coz wat ar
COZ THEY CANT LEARN ANYTHING WOR!!
YER!!!!!!!!!!!!!
gik sei me ar!!!
then i mai ask lo "WHY AR DUN SAY IS MY PROBLEM AR!"
then he say wat ar!
coz they cant un wat am i teaching wor!!!!
YERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
reali let him gik sei ar!!!
then hor i go toilet ma mai ask him give me few minutes lor and DUN OFF
then dim ji when i back hor,
"bb"---appears to be offline
ahhh!!!again!!!gik sei me ar!!!!
ish.........
but then gik wan gik..
i'm very happy~*^^*
AND HOR!!!
heard gor say hor he changed his phone...
850i lo GREEN GEH!
haha then mai guai lo listen me say buy green geh...
no blue no white...
GREEN!
haha good good...guai zai..dai sek!
hahahaha*><*
=======================================
ok now is abt the miss thingy...
today mar i listen Thanks For...
then i sui lo go open u guys geh pic in my phone to c...
then hor...
aikz...miss u guys la...
c til i eye wet wet gum lor...
then...umm nothing la!
i zao scold myself lo why noe how to tel su TIME FLIES but cant convince myself with that..
so in the end...
i was ok lar~!!!
hehee...
TIME FLIES...
JULY WILL COME SOON...
WE WILL MEET SOON...
YES...EVERYTHING WILL BE COMING SOON...
HAVE FAITH IN THAT...
[*BG BANZAI*]
i really love BG ar...
love bg VERY VERY much...
LOVE BG TILL ETERNITY...........
sleepy~
dunno why today whole day felt sleepy...
since the moment i wake till now..
aikz...
just now met with an old friend of mine..
old friend..reali old friend lar...
PHOON KAH YEE...lol
knew her since f1 actually....
how do we know each other ar??
oh..she was transferred to my class coz too naughty..then we sit together, and we became very good friends...
then there were some time we were quite good...
but then after that also lack of contact lar..
quite a surprise that she'll find me today..
went yum cha with her just now...
she's now staying in KL and training for the badminton team representing M'sia...
WOW...geng ler...she can geh...lol
gambate ba...
and hope that our friendship can last long la..
don't really have to contact often, but as long as she rmb me, that's good enough...
and my mum
FAN AGAIN LAR
wat is the time now??
9.22pm ya lar i din sleep at 8pm tat's why
keep showing me those raping news ar and stuff
FAN DIE
plz stop irritating me lar plz
what i said in my last post i mean it
i'm not kidding
so
plz stop it
everything u're doing,
and trying to do
====================================
THANK YOU *J~~~
just now chat with him haha*^^*
and my mood now from the bottom raised til the highest~!
hahaha*^^*
yer i reali like him arrr...........
and him...aish dunno ler...
bitbit oso got gua...
got gua got gua~~~
reali like u very much gah....
if can work with u even better lo~hehee*^^*
c how lar...
can see u everyday wor happy sei me err*^^*
cant study with u...now work with u also ok mar..hehehee
aikz i'm falling in again lar....
mayb this time falling down, will have someone catch me from below le...
u won't know right?
hmm....
i dun wish to give up ar gor...
u c he can made my mood..changed in less than 15min...
i reali..dun wanna give up ar...
hmm...
btw I'M NOT RICH GIRL LA
sei ye....
hmph!....*^^*
anyway,
thanks ya very much~!
haihz FAN NAR~!
fan nar fan nar fan...
my mum knew i got 2 sim d larrr
hopefully she wont ask me hand out or cut one la..
COZ I WONT
now she just ask me to hand out the phone only to repair..
aikz dunno after repair she wil let me use back anot ar...
if not i have to keep changing simcards d...
and ar she ask me wor so rich ar got money to reload digi...
very poor gah my digi...
but coz it sms FREE that's why i keep using..
if it need credit to sms ar i said byebye to it long ago larr..
haihz...
din sleep at 8pm really fan lar..
got 2 days i went slept at 8pm ar i really had a peaceful night..
then 2 nights din sleep at 8pm..
NAGGING NAGGING.............
til today realise i got 2 phones
sigh~~
i think mayb i should sleep at 8pm EVERYNIGHT
to avoid i getting insane
aikz...
fan die ar fan die...
i wanna move ar i dun wanna stay here..
how can my family prob being solve??
NEVER lor
dun think till so easy...
or else u're too naive...
dun ever think my family prob can be solve...
mayb it can just tuo...tuo and tuo....and fade
hopefully
if possible
sigh~
SLEEP AT 8PM!
c how ba
my mood should be very good gah coz of him..
but then..y am i feeling so fan now??
its all thanks to HER!
everytime she's lidat one lo break my mood
no matter what
luckily that day went out with gor and mr ng i sleep at 8pm
if not my mood sure broken by her again geh
she always did things like that
since how long ago ar?
she's like cant stand i feel happy gelo
must make me had a black face facing her geh
then scold me lor face black black
ish did she ever think that who made my face black?!
u'll only blame, scold, will you ever think of my side?
everytime see me smiling then scold for no reason sure find something to scold or nag
then my smile will disappeared
are u happy with tat huh?
seeing my happiness being destroyed...
is that ur fav thing to do???
i can seldom find something happy in this house.
MY "HOME". so-called.
really don't understand why i exist here.
last time dad ask me to stand at ur side and think.
i did.
and i felt a lil bit guilty.just a lil.
ok i understand that u have work and gotta listen boss's nagging too.
ok i un
after that i din gik u d la u ask me do what i do without hesitate
but then,what u did today?!
scold me again
say me onli know how to online don't know to do other things
WEI MISS AR!
i don't know to do other things,
then recently those houseworks and stuff, who help u do it ar?!
and recently i DIN bok zui d lor
i ren
REN
REN
REN
ren til i cannot ren lar i tell u
u better be careful and watch out lor
i DON'T BOTHER WHO U ARE
u blame me, u're wrong
and don't push me on everything
it will onli make me feel annoyed
and dun wanna stay in those house
my so-called "home"
u're forcing me to have the thought of "leaving" getting stronger in my mind
I WANNA LEAVE I WANNA LEAVE
this is ALL on my mind now
see what u done
ur best work of all
forcing ur own daughter to leave
pushing her to her limit
leading her to an insane life
happy*haha*horton-Triple H
today went watch horton with Gor and Mr Ng ar..
hahaha tat Mr Ng last night 10stg woken me from sleep ask me go watch CARTOON wor
nah is CARTOON not ANIME
hahaha
then hor zao go lo...
b4 go for movie i had my undang test ma but of coz once zao pass la hahaha
then hor follow them go interview lo work wo..
THEN HOR...saw tat Mr.J there...
aikz aikz..last night ar sms his a g9 msg ma he reply me a frens 4ever msg wo..
hurt til me ar...............
aikz but today saw him....
suan bala gor ar pull me out from that hole~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
then zao go JJ lo watch CARTOON-HORTON...
haha funny la but not VERY tat funny la..
Horton is STUPID
when he cross the bridge ar hahahaha
come on lar an elephant saying " i'm as like as a feather"
wat lar
hahaha
then after movie we went walk walk lo then gor wanna take his con ma me and Mr Ng zao go play specs lar
hahaha i yao liked some specs la minna~~
aug is coming*^^*
hmm hmm..then went took photo lor haha then go kopitiam eat then zao back home lu..
anyway, today is a happy day lar^^
wait gor to scan those pics ba my capture aren't so dim this time..
hehee and i very tired and lazy..
go get some sleep lu although onli 1 more hour available..
so..
tata~~
